Thursday, December 27, 2007

A New Year

As we prepare to move, I feel like our life is at a stand still. Not moving till after the new year, post poning everything. It is not easy to do. Other times- we would have packed and taken off- to start over, in the new place. The feeling of hurry up and wait. I wonder what this year will be like, will we have the struggles we have had for the past 6 years, or will we see change. Will the Lord bless us with the ability to bless others?
Will we ever have our own house?
A decent car that actually fits all of us?
Will we ever see a time in our lives that things just do not seem so hard?
Do we deserve it.. That is the question. I do not feel like I live my life as I should. I am not as faithful to the Lord as I should be. the time I should spend with Him, and in the Word, seems so fleeting. Lord- the only thing I want in this new year- is to be closer to you. To know your Word!

Thank you Lord for providing-for loving us, to send your Son, though I do not deserve it, thank you most of all for your grace!

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

He is home!!!

Samuel is home- he arrived Dec. 22- It was the biggest surprise to the children. They had no idea he was coming. We had a soccer game that morning for Joey-
I had unlocked the back door- and he hid his car in the back behind the little barn. He walked up the side and to the back door. The whole time we were all in the kitchen. When he spoke, and open the laundry room door, all the kids jumped. Maria screamed, and they all bum rushed him. I have never seen them so happy to see him. They all held him tight and held him for a long time. The baby-Noah was unsure at first- but that did not last long. Once he realized who he was- he did not let him go. He held him tight-kissed him over and over. Saying-dada,dada- it broke my heart to know that he missed him so much and could not tell me how much he missed him!!

Of course- I was very happy to see him. It felt like our family was whole again!!
I woke up the next morning making sure it was not a dream- looking for him. There he was peacefully sleeping with his baby cuddled up next to him.

I pray all of you had a very Merry Christmas- I got my best Christmas present- the return of my beloved.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

2 weeks...

We (being the children and I)realized yesterday that it has only been two weeks since Dad has left. If has been the longest 2 weeks for all of us. We have stayed busy, but with Sam/dad not here to break the "routine" each day runs into the next. Each day just seems to drag on forever- without there seeming and end to the day.

We have another 2 weeks to go before Sam/dad returns to pack us up which seems like forever away!!

Winter has officially started here! Ice,rain and ice with cloudy days have been the forecast for our area. I will sure be glad when the sun decides to reappear!

Sunday, December 9, 2007


isn't it amazing how the weather works. IT is cold, rainy with some freezing rain here in Missouri and in Texas where Sam is at it is 80 degrees. 80 in december- can you imagine??

It just amazes me how God works all that- that 10 hours away(by car) the weather is warm and sunny.

It has been a week since Sam has been gone. It is really affecting Joey- He cried himself to sleep last night because he misses his dad so much. It has hard on children to deal with that heartache. The missing piece of the family. I can not imagine what children go through when their parents seperate.- The ache must never go away.
Lord help us realize how we affect our children in the decisions we make in our lives.

Friday, December 7, 2007

Box overload...

Since my last post, I have finished the storage area, the basement/school room with all the books and desks, some of the unnecessaries in the kitchen, unnecessaries in the bathroom- and I am definitely on box overload!

The kids have finally kicked in and has blessed me tremendously with trying to stayed focused on our task. Of course the hardest thing for them is sticking around till the end.

The baby is getting better- he was so sick my little man. The first time ever- his little nose is red and sore but he is such a trooper dealing with all the changes, boxes and what seems like chaos.

When I look around and see Christmas all around us, it still has not sunken in. It just does not seem like Christmas... I guess because we are not really celebrating it. We did not put out decorations up nor will we have a tree.

This is a year (2008) of changes, and I am ready to see where God leads!

Stayed tuned!!!!

Thursday, December 6, 2007

The stress just seems to be overwhelming

My days are so full not only with packing, but we have been back and forth to the doctor because Noah is ill. They say it is a form of bronchitis, so he has been put on an antibiotic. He is so pitiful. His cry is sick sounding. He has a constant runny nose and of course needs alot of attention from me. In the meantime, the packing needs to be done and the other children,whom you would think would be pros at packing, I am constantly yelling at to help.

I know why God intended for "man" not to be alone, and vice versa. I do not see myself as a weak person, but there are times when I can not carry the "house"/ Carry the weight of it all. I know it is not Sam's desire for me to do this alone. He wants to be here to help me. But I also know he has to provide, and take care of us for the next few weeks. Being alone makes me feel weak. Makes me feel like I am not as strong as I should be. Then I burden my poor husband with my words, and complaining.

Forgive me! That is not what I want to do to him, because he feels helpless, and then feels like he needs to be here. I guess I just have to stop being a whimp and buck up and just try to deal with it all.

Pray for me!
God bless you all

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Happy Birthday to my Beloved

Today is my beloved's birthday.. He turns 36 years young, and is as handsome today as he was when I met him. Unfortunately he is not here for me to shower with kisses, hugs, and tons of attention for his birthday gift. He is now in Houston, preparing the way for all of us to follow. I can not believe we have come full circle, and I know this month will be a challenge for both of us. I know not one greater than we can handle. I pray The Lord is with us both, helping us through this most difficult time. May you be glorified in all we Do!!
I love you my beloved and happy Birthday!

Friday, November 30, 2007

Where God leads we will follow...

Wow to think so much has changed in just a week. We are moving again... yes again! It is unbelieveable to me... when I was young I use to look at the moves as an adventure. New place, new faces, new relationships, new church, but as I get older I do not see it that way. It hurts to leave- it hurts to think that a place we called home, will be a different place. What does the old saying-say- Home is where the heart it is. My heart has been left in various places! The hardest move was the move from Pennsylvania to Missouri because I had to leave my mom. I could not take her crying, and seeing her heart breaking over me leaving. But whatever God's will was-we know that where he leads we will follow.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Phillipines Typhoon...please pray-Letter from Carl

Dear prayer partners and friends

Please pray about the following items.

-Typhoon Mitag is pounding us already. Supposedly it was two typhoons which joined together as one big slow moving typhoon. We are supposed to be in its way for the next five days and it has already arrived with a fury. Please keep us in your prayers. Pray that it does not park over us and dump rain and subject us to high winds here on the northern part of Luzon Island. This typhoon has over 100 mile an hour winds, which is a disaster for poor people in the Philippines who do not have strong or secure homes. Lord willing our home is secure but we could end up without electricity, water and the ability to get around, etc.. for long periods of time. We do not want this to delay Celina's and the boys return.

-Also pray for us as we have some very important ministry decisions to make which could change the future of our ministry in the Philippines. Pray for us to have wisdom and stay in the center of God's will! We do not want to miss opportunities nor do we want to take on anything that will distract or hinder our ministry or family relations.

-Pray for Celina's return to the Philippines. After her stay in the states it must feel a little bit like volunteering to go back to an episode of Survivor. She is courageous and a fighter but it is always much harder on her than for us men. Pray for her to have God's grace to strengthen and protect her. Pray for our family to flourish!

-Also pray about the terrorist activities in the Philippines, we have been subject to a whole series of bombing attacks in Manila (killing congressmen and going off in shoping malls, etc.) and of course the troubles with Abu Siyaf (jihadist) in the south and New Peoples Army (communist guerrillas) all over. The Philippine's Army has stopped all offensive operations against these elements until this typhoon passes in order to have troops for relief and rescue operations. This of course will allow many dissidents to escape and resurface in other places.

We know the Lord loves this country, we have seen Him pouring out His Spirit on this nation, and we trust that He is working it all together for good but please keep us and this country in your prayers!

Thank you in advance!

In Christ service,
Pastor Carl Henderson
MOR - Mission of Reconciliation

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

We are in Texas

We arrived in Texas on Saturday-pretty late in the evening. I can not say the trip was a pleasant one. Often times do you wonder what people are thinking when they get behind the wheel, they have no idea where they are going, and how to get there, but yet they are driving. Nor did they make any preparations to be sure they knew where they are going.... just makes you go hmmmm???

So what have we been doing since we arrived- Nothing... We arrived Saturday ate dinner-the guys watched some fighting thing, while Val and I chatted which was so nice. 
Sunday we stayed here and churched here. It was a blessing.
 Monday- was an adventure. The water pump went out for the well, so everyone showered but me. We had dishes to do and clothes to wash. Grandpa Sellers came to the rescue with that later in the afternoon. We visited Steve and Melissa's house for a few hours, then came home to eat. (exciting huh??)

That's it- it is now tuesday looks like a similar day as yesterday.....

Friday, November 16, 2007

Noah Turned one on Tuesday

Noah turned one on tuesday and I meant all week to blog about him and post a photo that we took of him on that day. It has been a busy week. We schooled that day and celebrated with a small family gathering to wish our precious gift from heaven a happy birthday. He loved the attention and truly was not sure why were singing. He did not cry, he just looked around at all the people gathered, and when he noticed we said his name he looked around even more with a smile on his face. it was so sweet. Someday soon I will post a video of it.

But here is the site to his birthday pictures:
May our Lord continue to bless this joy he has given us. May He lead us in raising him according to the Word, and bring him closer to the Lord.

Monday, November 12, 2007

Another year goes by!

It amazes me that another year has gone by. Often time you look back at the previous year and all the things that have occurred during the previous year- the biggest event was the birth of our Noah Ben-Judah Sellers. He came as a late birthday present to his mom. What a present he has been to all of us. He brings joy unmeasurable to all of us. We are so blessed to have him and know he is truly a gift from heaven. Those blessings are unmeasurable but can only be given by the Lord.

I have tried to spend my time thinking of the blessings in my life and not the changes that have occurred in the home. I truly thought that I would be in a different place at this age. Not necessarily wealthy, but not quite in a position where I feel like my life is starting all over again. I invisioned us in our home, one where the children will always return to when they are grown. (is that a romantic notion?) More security financially- I know that alot of our financial issues is our own irresponsibility and may our Lord forgive us, guide us and give us wisdom in that area.
Forgive me Lord for complaining,when you look around and have health,food, and a roof over your head.

I pray that when I look back next year the changes that are occurring will all be to the glory of GOD....

Monday, November 5, 2007

Change in the air

Well it is a season for change. We are finally on break from soccer- for a few days anyway- we will be doing some indoor- but it is not as consuming as outdoor- In the meantime- we are trying to make some serious changes- spiritual ones.
Sam did a talk last night that was so convicting. It was a basic talk- one that was not uncommon to me, but it was nice to refresh the thoughts in my mind and heart. It was about being a Christian and whether we "know" Christ. What is first in our hearts, and lives? Boy it made you think. I know it made some of the children think.
Lord grow us closer to you so that we may do your will in our lives!~

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Noah is officially walking around!

Here is video of Noah walking. He started walking around the room yesterday- Oct 31st. Today on November 1st I video taped him walking. It is so cute because he knows he is doing something special with the reaction he gets from all of us! It is fantastic to watch!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

The season has ended...a New has begun

Well it is a official I have a liscensed driver in my home other than myself and Sam. Paul passed his driver's test yesterday. And he drove his father's truck to work yesterday. It was strange to watch my baby drive away alone. The vain thoughts and fears that come only from our own imagination swam through my mind. I had to bow my head and release him into the arms of Jesus! The only one who is our true protection!
On another note- Sammy and Joey finished up their soccer season with a bang. They made it all the way to the championship game. And lost by one point. It was the hardest thing as a mom to watch,a game full of physical contact, heart and desire by both sides. The advantage the other team was size- and that size paid off by one point. When the whistle blew to end the game- my heart broke for each one of those players who gave all they could give to win that championship for themselves, for their coach, and for their city! I had never been proudier of my sons. Sammy gave all of himself and more. It was the most incredible soccer game I had ever been too. Each team wanted to win!! My Sammy walked away with such a broken heart! But he is up today and ready to do it again- What a blessing he is to me- I would have been depressed for days!

My boy in action 

Friday, October 26, 2007

I sometimes just can not do it

I woke up this morning, wondering if this is it.......
 Is this what life is all about?
 Is this the way the Lord wants me to live?
 I love HIM so much. I try so hard to show my love, but I am not as good as others want me to be. I do not want to wear a dress-all the time. Every once in a while a pair of pants feels good. Is that "rebellion" as some would say?
 Does it really matter if I wear dresses or not? 
Does God really care about that?
Why do I know think like Sam? 
Why when I try to get quiet time do I get NOTHING out of it? 
I can not "schedule" my spirituality like he does. Most of the time when I try to sit down and have a "quiet - time" I am just reading the words. 
Why? Am I not a believer? 
Do I not have enough faith as he does? Or is it true what the Word says that men are to be the leaders, preachers of their homes, as well as the church. There has got to be a reason for that!! Was it just because God was being chovanistic(sp). I do not believe so- I think it is because we have a spiritual discernment that they(men) do not have. But they have a knowledge of the word, and law, that we do not have. We gain it from them.(right or wrong?)  
I do not know- all I know is I wonder why I am not hungering and thirsting for the Word. Why it does not eat at me- like it does him? What am I doing wrong?

Saturday, October 20, 2007

This week...

buzzed by with each day filled with the same routines. If I ever had to give an account of what I did every day honestly I would never remember.

Let's see- Monday-we schooled and stayed home because we had not soccer. Tuesday was schooling, and a soccer practice night, Wensday-I know what I did that day, schooling, and I had my biggest sports photo shoot yet. It was great. It was also my 15th year anniversary. Yes I said 15- can you believe it? I think about and think, has it really been 15 years. Wow- time flies. Other times I think 15 years that is it? Boy it sure does feel like longer. (haha) My beloved graces me with a beautiful dinner. What I enjoyed the most was his time! Being able to look in his face, hold his hand and converse with him without any interruptions from teenagers!
For those of you who have teenagers understand their need to talk, for those of you who do not, well time will show you! -moving on to trying to recall-Thursday was schooling, and a soccer night, but the sudden storm in Springfield cancelled all that-trust me dad and I were not complaining.(haha)
Friday-No schooling-we do not school fridays. Maria,Sammy,Joseph ,Noah and I decided to try out Christian County library. It is so much smaller then the one we normally go to, but it is not as busy. Sammy treated us to lunch,and we went to Lawerance's (photo store) for pricing and home again.
Not too bad for an "old lady" as my children say...

Saturday, October 13, 2007


I received this in an email and thought I would post it because it is just what I needed today. A reminder that, though I may feel alone My heavenly Father is always with me looking out for me.----
Do you know the legend of the Cherokee Indian youth's rite of passage? His father takes him into the forest, blindfolds him and leaves him alone. He is required to sit on a stump the whole night and not remove the blindfold until the rays of the morning sun shine through it. He cannot cry out for help to anyone. Once he survives the night, he is a MAN. He cannot tell the other boys of this experience, because each lad must come into manhood on his own. The boy is naturally terrified. He can hear all kinds of noises. Wild beasts must surely be all around him. Maybe even some human might do him harm. The wind blew the grass and earth, and shook his stump, but he sat stoically, never removing the blindfold. It would be the only way he could become a man! Finally, after a horrific night the sun appeared and he removed his blindfold. It was then that he discovered his father sitting on the stump next to him. He had been at watch the entire night, protecting his son from harm. We, too, are never alone. Even when we don't know it, our Heavenly Father is watching over us, sitting on the stump beside us. When trouble comes all we have to do is reach out to Him.

Friday, October 12, 2007

My weeks...

have been completely consumed by schooling, photo shoots, laundry, soccer, laundry, soccer, cleaning, laundry, soccer, and taking care of my sick baby, did I mention laundry and soccer?

Yes that is - that has been my life. We went to family camp at Maranatha Baptist Church- that was awesome. We had such a great time, and was so fed spiritually. We came home, and Joe Paul Sellers stuck around for the week. He has been such a blessing! Getting all the honey do things done that my beloved just does not have time for!! He is still here actually-spending time with his brother and helping him with work he needs to finish for Sellers & Sons.

As for myself- well- I have been feeling a bit lonely. It is so hard to say that, when people think, how can you be lonely when you have 6 children in the house. You can not talk to children about matters of the heart. My beloved has been consumed with providing and his brother, which leaves me on stand still. To think next week Sam and I will celebrate 15 years of marriage. Wow! It does not seem that long then at times it seems longer(haha)

That is life- nothing exciting to write about. Praise the Lord!

Saturday, September 22, 2007

This week was crazy

As each day passes I often feel like I am trying to stay a float to all the things I need to accomplish. I am trying so hard to build a photography business, be a helpmeet to my beloved, whom is also building a business, maintain our homeschooling, keep house, and also take the children to soccer. There are just not enough hours in one day! I did not even mention the fact that I am trying to create a website as well. (ugh-ha-ha)
Most of all through all these things I have realized what I need most of all is time with my Lord. I need to be in His Word. (which I seem to struggle with) I need accountability, I need someone in my life who will not only guide me, or help me to be accountability but whom will share their word with me. At this moment I do not have that person in my life, so that is my deepest prayer, for the Lord to lead me in His Word, and that He will bring that Disciple in to my life!
I desire more depth within myself! Help Me Father...

Monday, September 17, 2007

10 months old

It is amazing to me that he is 10 months. It seems like yesterday that I yearned for this little one and so soon He will be One. Where did the time go? Is there any way I can slow down the clock or even stop it so he does not grow too fast or at all?

His accomplishments are amazing to us. He says Amen, mama, Dada, Uh oh, nigh nigh, and he signs in sign language-milk. He walks around using all the future to hold him up. Too soon he will be running around this house. I just want him to slow down! ;-)

He is truly a gift from heaven, one that I can not thank the Lord enough for. (they all are) But to all of us he is so very special, and precious. (not just me) I do wish you could see the children with him. They all truly love him. Sammy is anxious for him to get older so he can show him how to play soccer. Though I do think this one already knows!! Joey is anxious to have a little playmate. Paul can not wait for him to be able to hang out with him. Alex just loves holding him and Sissy is the best big sister, and second mother.

Here is his 10 month photo:
Isn't He just the cutest.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

you can not do everything right...

Have you ever just been so lost in what you are doing that you totally lose track of time, then in comes your husband from his day. Dinner is not started or even thought of( meat is frozen) kids have to go to soccer, and you look at your watch-which has decided to stop working. So the evening begins with a frustrated husband who is hungry and is growling like a bear would. Well that was me- it just reminded on how much I HATE MONDAYS- it is so hard to begin the routine all over again. My routine for the weekend is totally different from my week day routine. See when hubby is home though I love having here, he tends to want things to run totally different then I do and since he is lord of the home, his way goes. So when we return to our week, it is back to business mom's way, and schooling. (ugh Mondays)

Now on to Tuesday- hopefully much more organized, and better for Dad!

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Finding rest

In this day and age rest is a foreign word to all of us. We seek it in front of the Tv, we seek it in escaping to a place, we seek it in so many worldly things, but it is not there. True rest only comes in the Lord, in knowing him, praying and reading. He gives us rest.

Currently I am reading through Elizabeth George's book "Powerful Promises For Every Woman" She directs the book out of Psalm 23. The Psalm full of promises to us from our Lord. One of the things that He promises is rest- "He makes me lie down in green pastures,he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul..." only the Lord leads us to a place of rest, one where we can lie down with him and see what it is he would have us see!

May you find rest today in Our Lord Jesus!!

Friday, September 7, 2007

So many changes

As this week ends- I know God has lots of changes for us. Samuel and Paul, as of next Wensday, do not have a job. Another company does not have the finances to keep going. Where is this world coming to? The economy is bad, the food and fuel costs are going up while salaries stay the same. The unemployment rate is increasing, and families are losing their homes. I am scared, not scared for myself, or my family because the Lord always provides. But scared for all of those who are lost and have no hope like I do. I am scared for them. May they turn to the Lord, and find the only hope that never goes away!!

This week- has been busy, I have recovered from being sick to have a little one get sick right after me. This was so much harder on Little Noah- his bowels is what bothered him and his tender skin could not take it, which resulted in him screaming. Oh how he rips my heart out when he cries. Thank you Lord for the Love I have for my children. It is a gift from you. Guide with your words, and your spirit to be the Mother you would have me be.
I love you Lord!

It is amazing to me how much Our Noah is growing- He now says, Amen, Night Night, Mama,Dada- On Sept 13 he will 10 months- and growing FAST. oh Lord how I wish I could slow the clock down a little to devour each sec of newness and discovery he goes through... But that is not reality!

Tuesday, September 4, 2007


I often wonder where the times goes in one day. It just seems to fly by and you stand there at the end of the day going, gosh I still have this, this, this and this to do. Lord if only you could give me more time. I desire the time to spend in prayer with you, I desire the time to read and understand your word. I desire Your presence and to know you are their but I am grateful for the times you give me,the time with children ,schooling, the baby watching him laugh, Play and learn.

Currently he is watching Steve Green's Hide Them in Your Heart Dvd and laughing with it as He sings God loves a cheerful giver. Wish you could see it. Speaking of baby-Noah will be 10 months this month. TEN MONTHS- unbelievable!!! My baby is so big. He is so sweet and I love watching him learn!! Everything is so new through his little eyes. He adores his brothers and sister, that is the neatest thing to watch. He sometimes will ask for them over me!

Soccer begins here this week- so speaking of time, the time will be even less then now!
How have you all been? Looking forwarded to hearing from you!

Friday, August 17, 2007

life is "Normal"

Sam and Paul returned-They been home about a week now. School has started, soccer practice has started, so life is some what "normal" Whatever normal is...
Sam is ready to move to Nicaragua. He has come home with a totally different perspective on life. Realizing how much of a need there is out there, and how we "Americans" are privileged people. That we live a life of abundance, in all things from our homes, to the things we have and how it is not needed. He realizes how you can live on the bare minimum and be happy!!

Well it is official, Melissa and I have started our photography business. Right now it is in the development stage. (meaning, brochures,websites, business cards) You know all the fun stuff that happens when you start a business. Here are some photos that Melissa took of me for our website this a fun collage- Thought I would share it with you...Let me know what you think... soon I will share the website!

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Samuel and Paul left ....

last week and i have been meaning to get on here and share some of my thoughts but my days have just been full of trying to manage the house alone and at night I am just so exhausted that I do not feel like getting on the computer for anything. I stay busy trying to exhaust myself during the day in hopes that at night I will actually sleep but sleep has been a limited thing for me. It is amazing how the Lord actually makes you one when you are married, because when that other person is gone, sleep becomes impossible, and trust me I do not have problems sleeping normally when he is here.

Samuel and Paul- well communication has been very limited since but the few times we have spoken, Sam has shared of the desperation of the people of Nicaragua. How the government of Spain control all the utilities so they play games with the people to show them who is still in control, since Nicaragua chose to seperate themselves from Spain. The jobs are so scarce their leaving it impossible for the men to provide for the people. Of course soil their is rich so Sam was shocked that people have not come in to teach them how to farm and harvest their own food. When he asked he heard- seed is too much. Makes you wonder- alot of ministries come in and help but never teach or disciple. (sound familiar?) it is an epidemic in America-let's lending a helping hand, lets even give hand outs, but lets make the people dependent instead of independent. I hope to have some inserts from Sam's and Paul's journals of their trip and photos- so look for it in the near future.

I am so proud of Alex, his father pulled him aside and said you will be the man of the house while I am gone and I expect you to do all that I do to keep this family safe. He has taken that talk seriously and does everything to make sure all secure at night, and keeps his younger brothers on task during the day of the things that they need to get done. What a blessing he has been to me in these past few days.
Well that is it- that is what is new here- how are all of you?

Thursday, July 12, 2007


Originally uploaded by The A in A M Photography.
It is a rare opportunity that someone takes a shot of me since I am usually the one taking the photos. I thought I would share this photo with those of you who like to read my blog- just so you can put a face with the words.

I pray all is well and the Lord is guiding you in all you do.


Friday, July 6, 2007

time is flying....

And I can not seem to keep up with it all. Between taking care of the daily chores, the baby, and trying to fit in some of things I love to do-photos, and sewing I have a very full day. Everyone stays busy, and is enjoying their summer. Though it will be over before we know it since we start school back up in August!

We had a wonderful holiday weekend. Mr and Mrs. Sellers came to visit. It was a great visit. We fellowshipped, we even did a bible study one day, they took the kids to see a movie, we enjoyed every second we had.

On the fourth we marched in the Marshfield Parade which was fun for all of us(though it was so hot!) Sam dressed up like Uncle Sam, and so did one of the Elders. The children handed out over 3000 tracks to the crowd.Noah rode in the wagon with Liberty while Melissa pulled. He was such a good baby. He does tolerate alot.

He even napped in that wagon!

The day was full after the parade we went back to the church for lunch then from their we went to the Bakers house for some rest and then back to the church for the 4th of July picnic and fireworks that night. We headed home about 10:00 pm and were we EXHAUSTED!!!

I do hope those of you who read my blog had a wonderful holiday. May our Lord continue to bless you, guide you and protect you!!

Thursday, June 21, 2007


Someone asked me about Maria- Our princess- I forgot to mention her in my last blog so here she is. She is growing like a weed into a beautiful young lady. She is Noah's little mother. He loves her so much!!

She seems to get distracted with Honor is around. She does so much better when she is not. She has been very helpful with dinner lately. (praise the Lord) since we have had a soccer camp for Joey. Next week is her soccer camp- which she is excited about. She gets to see her teammates.(it is an all girls team and they play other girls)

That is about it- she stays busy telling all the boys what to do and helping me out. (ha-ha)

God bless

Monday, June 18, 2007

He is 7 months!

Can you believe he is now 7 months old. Here he is now-eating his breakfast and watching his favorite video called signing time. It is a sign language video that we have been watching with him for about two months, to teach him and ourselves sign language. He loves when we sign to him. He just smiles real big and laughs. He is starting to say Ma Ma, and Da Da Da.
He gets up on his knees and acts like he is going to take that step of crawling and belly flops forward to get whatever he is reaching for. The kids adore him, he is well loved that is for sure.
I have been trying to ween him from my bed to a crib that process has been a slow one. I guess I have learned my lesson, if the Lord should permit me to have another, it will never start in my bed. ;-)
Our summer has officially started. We were hoping to be in a house closer to our church by now but the Lord has not led us in that directions. I guess for now that is not his will for us. So we are still here in Nixa. We did not plant a garden because we were hoping to be gone by now. Now I am unsure what to do. I truly want a garden but we are looking at the middle of June already-wow time flies.
Sam is working hard and Paul is working side by side with him. Last week was a rough week of long hours. Hopefully this week will not be as many hours.
Alexander is doing well. He is slowly working through school.
Samuel J- has grown a foot! and still as quiet and easy going as ever. While Joey does not look like he has grown at all! and can be a meanie!
As for myself- I am sleepy, trying to make it through each day with the Lord. Right now I am doing a bible Study called the King's Daughter- by Diane Hagee- great stuff. I will write more on that later.
Need to go get some kids focused.
God's blessing to all.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

A full week

This week has been full week. We had the Advance Life Seminar- it was very interesting. I really felt like we were under major attack though. Not one day last week did we get there on time. Samuel, Paul, and Samuel Jacob left for the weekend to Jefferson City, which has left me to man the fort. It is hard to get everything done when you are alone and make it to the seminar on time. But we have survived, it is over, it is done. Now it is time for a life of no activities, no soccer, no appointments. It makes me happy to know that we will have at week to do nothing!

I do hope all you are doing fine.. I sure would love to see hear from you!

Saturday, June 2, 2007

A letter from God to Women-

This is a letter from the Book called the King's Daughter written by Diane Hagee
It is incredible! I pray all of you women enjoy it, and get blessed by it as much as I am!!
" When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils were to delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.
Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do.
Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib-strong, yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man: his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life.
The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not take from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken fro his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.
You are MY perfect angel. You are MY beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and My eyes fill when I see the virtue in your heart. Your eyes- don't change them. Your lips- how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form. Your hands, so gentle to touch. I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep; I've held your heart close to Mine.
Of all that lives and breathes, you are the most like Me. Adam walked with Me in the cool of the day, and yet he was lonely. He could not see Me or touch me. He could only feel Me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with Me, I fashioned in you: My holiness, My strength, My purity, My love, My protection and support. You are special because you are an extension of Me. Man represents My image. Woman, My emotions. Together you represent the totality of God.
So, Man, treat Woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her, you hurt Me. What you do to her, you do to Me. In crushing her, you damage your own heart, the heart of your Father and the heart of her Father.
Woman, support Man. In humility, show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self. "

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Wow what a day

It was a very quiet day full of things that had to get done. But one of those days that you feel like you got nothing done. Like I have a HUGE pile of laundry that did not get hardly touched from being gone some of the day Saturday, all day Sunday and some of the day Monday. So needless to say it is still in there. I did get to the grocery shopping, and then I took Joey, and Sammy to soccer. Praise the Lord this is our last week for the summer. I am looking forward to the break. We need it, my van needs it. The gas prices alone are killing us.

Thank you Lord for day of peace, may we glorify you in all that we do!

I love you Lord!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

I am back

Ok- I did what I said and created the site on a Christian blogging site. To come and find out that they allow atheists and other cultish groups on the site. I do not blog to argue with people. I blog to share my thoughts and keep in touch my friends. (as few as they are) So until I find a site that is truly Christian(do not ask me what that is- not sure) Just more pure then I will stay here. At least on here we do not have the YUCKY advertising!

What has been new in our house? Well we are going through a re- purification processing. Shedding the things that are not Godly, and bringing in things that are holy. That is not an easy task. Everything- books, movies, music has to be graded on a level from God and the problem comes in is We are sinners, humans whose eyes do not work very well. Thank the Lord he sent His son for me, because I know I could not do it on my own.

The children are busy-finishing the school year, soccer, and things around the house. The weather has been beautiful not to warm, not to cold. So they all try to spend as much time outside as possible.
Well I need to start my day:
May the Lord bless you and guide you!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Changing Blogs

Changing blogs- I have decided to change blogs, why? to Endorse the Christian sites that are out there so- my new site is

Why have I decided to change- I got a conviction that on these sites anyone can be part of them. It is almost like silently endorsing the inappropriateness and immorality of their lives. Yes I know I am not "supporting" them, but don't you think so if you are on the same site as they are? What does that say about your walk? Yes we are to be separate from the world. I do hope you will at least bookmark me and still read. Love you all!

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Mother's day

Well it has been a full day. WE went to church, and after church we went to friends for some wonderful fellowship, but I would have loved to just spend a nice quiet day at home taking a nap or doing what ever- like sew.

I did get a wonderful Card from Maria, and a HUGE card from the boys. Sam bought me a vase with Yellow roses, and the children bought me silver bangle charm bracelet. It is very pretty.
Also NOah gave me a feel of his first tooth that has now broken through the gum. Can you believe it? He has a little tooth now! When it comes through more I will take a photo. He turned 6 months today! (time is flying)
I hope all you mothers felt honored today!

Friday, May 11, 2007

Its been almost a month

I can not get over that so much time has past since the last time I have been on here. This month has seen to FLY. Noah will turn 6 months on Sunday May 13th- Mother's day. By the way happy Mother's day to all you mom's out there. We have been busy with soccer, of course, and last week we took a break from soccer and spent the week going to the Basic Life Seminar every evening, all day friday and Saturday. WE are really looking forward to the Advance Seminar that will be coming in June. The basic just reaffirmed some convictions that we had before and let go, and purified us again. Now I am waiting for the Holy Spirit to do a might work in us.

Dad(Sam) did a challenge for us that ends May 31- we are to memorize the whole book of Jude. Was hoping that all of you in cyberworld would help me to be accountable to that memorization.
so far I have
Jude,a servant of Jesus Christ, brother of James, to them that are sanctified by God the father, and preserved in Jesus Christ and called.
Mercy unto you,peace and love be multiplied.
Beloved when I gave all diligence,to write unto you of the common salvation.... I can only get a half a verse at a time. I am not as young as I use to be. Boy I remember a time when I heard a song once and the next time could sing the whole song.(not any more!!)

I have been really on the flickr site(photo site) more than anything. I have created a group on there - it is called Stop and Smell the Roses- basically it is group where we put challenges up and you try to take a photo to meet the challenge. Alex loves it. He really gets into it. There is a challenge he recently posted that is Hilarious!- you have to see if for yourself.

Well that is us and what is going on here... May our Lord guide you, protect you, and give you wisdom-In Jesus Name

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Daddy's Poem

This poem touched me so much I had to put on here to share!

Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied
with a bow
Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she
couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably
should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried, for her to face this day
And that was why once again, she tried to keep
her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls.
here were dads along the wall in back, for everyone
to meet.
Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their
One by one the teacher called a student from the
class to introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name, every child turned
to stare.
Each of them was searching for a man who
wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one," another student dared
to shout.
And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy
say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste
his day." The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her
Mom, and looked back at her teacher, who told her to
go on. And with her hands behind her back, slowly she
began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child,came words incredibly unique. "My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, since this is
such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to
know all about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my
bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me
to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a
cone. And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing
here alone."
"Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we
are apart I know because he told me, he'll forever be in
my heart."
With that, her little hand reached up, and lay
across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath
her favorite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her
mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for
the love of a man not in her life
Doing what was best
for her, doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down, staring
straight into the crowd, she finished with a voice so soft,
but its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far. You see he was a Marine and died just this past year,when a roadside bomb hit his convoy and taught
Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my
eyes, it's like he never went away."
And then
she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.
And to her mother¢s amazement, she witnessed
with surprise, a room full of daddies and children,
all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them, who
knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side
"I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence
she called out.
And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk
beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the
love of her shining star. And given the gift of believing,
that heaven is never too far.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Noah and his accomplishment.

New accomplishments occur each week and this week it is sitting up on his own. I can not believe that he is that big. We all seem to not be able to get enough of him. We enjoy seeing his accomplishments as much as he enjoys doing them.

What has been up with all of you? For us we are going through some spiritual battles trying to find in what direction the Lord has us going. We are also battling with the decision of what to do with our housing situation. Our lease is up on the first of June so we are praying for a house really soon, would you join us in that.

All the children are busy with schooling as well as soccer. We are considering doing a monthly family newsletter. I think it would be great for the children's writing skills as well it will help keep all those who do not read my blog more informed in our lives. Yes my blog is for only you special ones!

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

much needed update

Well Noah had his surgery. And I could tell that there were many who prayed because he did not complain or cry that he had not eaten. In fact he was smiling at all the nurses and was so pleasant. The surgery did not last more than 30 minutes. The surgeon came out to let us know how he did, and stated that as they were putting him to sleep he was smiling at everyone. Waking up was a bit difficult. He was not happy, nor did he like the fact his hand was boarded down. That was his only bout of screaming. After they took the IV out, and unboarded his hands he seemed to calm down enough to fall back to sleep and eat a little bit. He has done great- the first day home all he did was sleep. I expected lots of tears of pain, and uncomfort, but he has done wonderful and is his nomral happy self.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007


Lately I have felt so lonely and alone. Not feeling connected to anyone or anything. Wondering where I am going and what I am doing and why. A valley of darkness seems to surround me and I am slowly trying to lift myself out of it. Reading the word as often as possible and staying busy with the children and their tasks. Still feeling like there is something missing in my life. NOt that I am not happy being a wife, and mother. That job in itself is full time and fullfilling, but there is just this hole, Unexplainable hole that just can not be filled with just anything or anyone. I do not know, maybe it is after having baby blues.

Pray for Noah all of you who read- He is having surgery friday. Being put to sleep and everything. It is not a major surgery, re-circumcision- but it bothers me that he is so little and being put to sleep. :-(

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

What are your thoughts on this issue

Noah is now 4 months and due again to be vaccinated. The first vaccinations I did it with a very uncertain heart. Unsure whether I should expose my tiny 2 month old infant to such harmful things. When I went to the doctor I went with the mindset of not having it done but then felt pressured into doing it, by the doctor. Of course Noah did not do well, for two- three days he had outburst for no reason as if he was in pain or something. So that times has come again, making me unsure of whether I should do this or not. I have started reading this book by Michael Dye called Vaccinations-Deception and Tragedy.(ugh-I am so horrified) Now I am even more unsure of what to do.

What is the balance?

Who is telling the truth? The medical community or the people who's lives were affected?

I look at little Noah and see a helpless baby who looks to me for protection from everything harmful in this world. To think we purposely put these things in our children, for what reason?

Is it right to trust the medical field with decisions that should be ours to make? Did you know that if you do not vaccinate your children and social services finds out they can take your children away? (child endangerment they call it)

I am interested in your view on this issue...

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Quotes on Homeschooling and Education

Quotes on Homeschooling and Education"My grandmother wanted me to get an education, so she kept me out of school." --Margaret Mead

"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education." --Mark Twain

"What is most important and valuable about the home as a base for children's growth into the world is not that it is a better school than the schools, but that it isn't a school at all." --John Holt

"Education is not preparation for life; education is life itself." --John Dewey

"If the schools were perfect, I would still homeschool my children--because it isn't about school. It's about families taking their children back and educating them as they see best. It's about giving birth to a child and loving that child enough to want to nurture him and be a part of his life until he no longer needs you. It is the natural thing to do. School is only a substitute for the real thing." --Kathleen McCurdy

"An educational system isn't worth a great deal if it teaches young people how to make a living but doesn't teach them how to make a life." --Author unknown

"The experience of homeschooling is as much about adults uncovering the shimmering, infinite quality of learning itself as it is about kids absorbing knowledge." --Eileen Fisher, Editor, EdPress Online

"The truth is that schools don't really teach anything except how to obey orders." --John Taylor Gatto, NY City and State Teacher of the Year.

"There is, on the whole, nothing on earth intended for innocent people so horrible as a school." --George Bernard Shaw

"A life worth living and work worth doing -- that is what I want for children (and all people), not just, or not even, something called a better education." --John Holt

"In general the best teacher or care-giver cannot match a parent of even ordinary education and experience." --Dr. Raymond Moore

"Self-education is, I firmly believe, the only kind of education there is." --Isaac Asimov

"Knowledge which is acquired under compulsion obtains no hold on the mind. Let early education be a sort of amusement; this will better enable you to find out the natural bent of the child." --Plato

"I believe that school makes complete fools of our young men, because they see and hear nothing of ordinary life there." --Petronius Satyricon

Monday, March 12, 2007

Getting to know you Survey

Curious on what your answers would be!!!

1. What is your occupation? most important job in the world- A wife and mom
2. What color are your socks? grey-still in my pajama socks
3. What are you listening to right now? no music-listening to Maria talking to her baby brother
4. What was the last thing that you ate? 1/2 a poptart
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Yes
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? blue-I guess
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? um-my husband yesterday
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes - very much-she is my favorite sister in law :-)
9. How old are you today? 36
10. Favorite drink? sweet tea
11. What is your favorite sport to watch? SOCCER
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? Never-really!
13. Pets? a rat-Jabbers, a ferret-Rose, a puppy-Beula, and a cat-Gabriel
14. Favorite food? Seafood
15. What was the last movie you watched? Poisedon
16. Favorite day of the year? My anniversary- It amazes me every year that we celebrate, that our love has survived!
17. What do you do to vent anger? Cry- and I want to throw things but I don't
18. What was your favorite toy as a child? do not remember
19. What is your favorite fall or spring? fall
20. Hugs or kisses? Kisses-from my husbands, hugs from loved ones and friends
21. Cherries or Blueberry? Blueberry
22. Do you want your friends to email you back? Yes
23. Who is most likely to respond? not sure
24. Who is least likely to respond? my mother
25. Living arrangements? 3 bedroom house, with my husband and 6 children)
26. When was the last time you cried? today
27. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this
to? My mother- and Joy second
29. What did you do last night? Watched TV-Frazier and rested
30. Favorite smells? good food
31. What inspires you? My husband when he is closed to God
32. What are you afraid of? that I will lose Sam and be alone
33. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? plain
34. Favorite dog breed? Great Dane
35. How many years at your current job? I played a mom to my brother and sister and now to my children so a very long time
36. Favorite day of the week? Saturday-me too!
37. How many states have you lived in? 6 states-Ohio,PA,Texas,Georgia,Virginia,Missouri
38. Favorite holiday? It’s a toss up - Easter-I love the reminder that Our Lord has Risen!!!
39. Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery? No
40. Who's your favorite NFL team? Houston Texans-love the uniforms!
41. 10 inches of snow or 100 degree weather? 100 degree weather and sandy beaches with a cool breeze!

Friday, March 9, 2007

Friday at last

This week has been full. The boys are working hard, and I am trying to get use to not having the extra hands and take care of Noah all at the same time. I know that before I did it with 5, but I wonder-how. I know I had a system on how I did things, but trying to remember what that system was. Plus I did not home-school my children, so I guess that helped, when I had little ones, the others were in school, so I had to do was take care of them and clean the house. Now it is schooling, baby,house,baby,try to clean, baby, cook,baby, clean again, baby. Notice the cycle- the baby part is the part I enjoy- it is the other stuff, trying to fit it in some where.

Samuel has been working hard lately. I have hardly seen him. Yesterday he came home, ate something really quick and went straight to a favor he was doing for a friend.(side job) He got a phone call yesterday from another contractor who is seeking and estimator. So now he has two job offers on the table. Lord Lead him in the way he should go. It is hard choice for him because he truly has no desire to go and work for someone. He wants to work for himself, but he can see that the boys are not ready to do this full time. It is too much for them. Paul does not have the desire to do this at all. Sammy and Alex love it, it is just they are so young. I think in a way it has really disappointed him that Paul shows no interest, because he truly would have liked to grow Sellers and Sons for them. To benefit them in the future and the only one who is truly old enough, and strong enough has no desire to be there and it shows in his work. Sad thing is he asked him( I also asked him), and we both TRIED to explain to him how hard this was going to be, and of course at the time he was excited to do it. Now it is not so fun, it is work so he is not as interested.It definitely shows his immaturity and shows how he needs to be taught to be a man of his word especially when people are counting on you to follow through.

Though I have been so blessed to watch a transformation come over Alex. He truly loves working with his father. The physical work keeps his body, and energy focused on things that are pure and right! He comes home with a big smile on his face, happy to see me and his other siblings. It is so sweet! He actually even offered to give me his hardworking money to fill my gas tank. Of course I refused, because I know how hard he has worked for it. He deserves to get what he wants!

I ask that you lift us in prayer as we try to see where the Lord leads!

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Been a few days

Can you believe there is a time where I actually do not have anything to say. For those of you who know me personnally you are probably in shock right now. (haha)
I want to take the time to Congratulate my friend Cindy on her pregnancy. May the Lord protect you and that growing little one inside you. Cindy(who is she), well she is a very special person in my life that was an instrument of God in the birth of our Noah. Ah- I have all your little minds going-how? I know all of you do not know this, but about 2 years now(wow time flies) I had a reversal surgery done, by a wonderful doctor(Dr. Streeter), not only did Cindy open her home up to us so we had some place to stay during my surgery, but she was also the head of the ministry at the time that helped me pay for the surgery. (see there are places out there that perform Miracles for the Glory of God) So you see why she was an instrument of God?! I am so excited for her now, because God has decided to give her another towards His Kingdom!(baby number 10 but the 9th child) Cindy is no longer the head of that ministry.(VERY LONG-heartwrenching story) But she still quietly serves by opening her home to those who are getting surgeries in her area.
From that birthed the Ministry: The Lord's Heritage-( created by the Bucklin's and the Sellers' but for the past 2 years, run solely by the Bucklin's. The Sellers' are now returning to assist in the running of the ministry and would covet your prayers for wisdom, and For God to be glorified in all we do! Let our words be bridled by the Holy Spirit.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

our night

Let me tell you about our night. We are sleeping, it is 4:30am and I suddenly awake, to what? The Warning Siren for tornadoes! I wake Sam up and we go get the kids so that we can get into the basement. The whole time he is telling everyone to stay calm. Each child grabs their blanket and pillow and goes downstairs. Then it dawns on them, as they are waking up that the animals are still upstairs. Alex runs up for the ferret, Joey grabs Jabbers the rat- and Maria tries to look for Grabielle the cat, which she thought was in the garage but was actually outside. She got upset thinking something might happen to him out there. I told her he is safe and would be fine!

We are all downstairs hearing the siren, waiting to see what would happen next. I guess the dog had to go to the bathroom, and decided to go in the corner which stank up the whole room. Maria starts gagging, trying to pick the mess up. All the boys have their blankets over their nose, as do I and we are all giggling at the ridiculous sight we were sure we all were.
Noah had NO clue what was happening, all he knew he was awake before it was time to get up and it was a good time to play and talk. We stayed downstairs till 5:45am then I was ready to go back to my own bed. The kids at that point were wide awake so they watched a movie.

What fun it was...(haha)

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

What to do

Last night Sam received a phone call from a gentlemen asking Sam to come work for him. The problem is he is not paying him what he made. (that is problem number one) Second problem is he loves what he is doing now. He really enjoys working with the older boys every day and most of all he enjoys working for himself. I know what you are thinking- then what is the problem. I know in Sam's mind he will sacrifice what he wants to do, to do what is best for the family. Providing for his family is more important to him then doing what he wants to do.
So I ask all of you to pray for him, as he is faced to make a decision. May he do the Lord's will!


Monday, February 26, 2007

Another Monday

Ok- it is monday and the weekend seemed to fly by. Saturday we had the church Sweetheart banquet and that was interesting all in itself. Well it started out great Sam and I had some privacy and actually got to talk for the first time in a while. We talked about everything and nothing on the way to dinner. We get there and my sister and Clay were waiting and she looked stunning. We went in-I carried Noah. Sam parked the car and came in realizing he had forgotten the baby's diaperbag so that started the evening. Melissa and I went to walmart to get everything we needed for baby to make it through the night. It was a blessing because she bought, a diaper bag, blanket, outfit, bottles, formula, food,and new feeder. She said it reminder her of the "many times" she forgot the diaper bag for the girls. By the time we got back, we missed the reception, and salad stage of dinner. The lettuce was wilted and tasted so but I ate as much as I could stand. Missy did not eat at all. We wait a while for dinner which came out very cold. So it was difficult to eat cold. But I tried till I bit into a wad of this powdery stuff. YUK.
So we skipped that and went straight to dessert. (cheesecake) It was good.

Then the speaker came up- what I heard of it, he was great. Unfortunately it was very warm in the room. (too many bodies in one place) Noah is so warmblooded so he not happy, it was 8ish so it was bed time. So he became the fussy man. I tried to get him to nurse but he was too warm. So I left the room,missing the rest of the speaker, and sat with Noah so he could nurse. He went right to sleep. I ended up feeling like I missed the whole evening, so I did not spend alot of time with my sweetheart who by the way looked soooo handsome, in his black jacket, green shirt and tie to match!

Sunday- was great, the sermon was awesome.We came home and spent the afternoon laying down relaxing while Noah was in and out of naps. I was not ready for Sunday to end and Monday to begin! But here we are. So I need to be off....

Saturday, February 24, 2007

It amazes me when I look into his eyes how fast he is growing and how truly blessed I feel to have him in my life. He is a gift that only God can give. One I thank him for every morning, with every coo and with every cry. I see the unconditional love he has for me when he sees me. He does not see my faults, or the grey hair. He sees the one who comes when he cries, the one who feeds him and the one who kisses him = mom. What a way to love someone. Do you think that is how God sees us? Without our faults? Or does He see our faults as we see the faults in our own children but we just love them anyway?

All I know is I see the greatness of God through the eyes of my children. Through their love I know how awesome My God truly is.

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Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Is Anyone out there???

Is anyone out there listening or reading my babbling? Does anyone care? Those are the feelings I have been battling with for past few days. I know I never have anything Profound to say on here, but it is a place where I share a piece of myself, and my life with you. Not every event is worth writing about, but there is so many people in my life that I care for so dearly and can not seem to keep in touch with. I thought this was a great way to do it. But I feel so alone!

Is there anyone out there?

Monday, February 19, 2007


Well it is monday- but a very quiet Monday. I do not have my neices this morning which makes it quiet around here since the Three older boys are with dad working on a house so it is just me, Maria,Joey and Baby Noah. It is strange how quiet it is around here. It reminds me of the public school days when most of the kids went to school and I was here with just the younger two.

The Lord has already started to work, Sam is working on a house, doing trim work, and other things that need to be finished for our rent!(which will be due next week) Thursday he starts framing a house that will help us survive for the next month! We just need to pray for the next job to come and that the boys will continue with the energy they have now realizing that they are all benefitting the family!

May God get the Glory!

Friday, February 16, 2007

well it is official

For weeks we had been hearing rumors among the employees at Sam's work that he was going to be fired. Why you ask? Well there was no real good reason given except that the company financially was slowly going down hill and Sam was the highest paid employee except for a few other people.(our guess) The rumors became fact yesyerday at 7:30 am, when they let him go. Between the frustration of the hours, the ill treatment, and the compromising of his principles the news came more as a relief to him then a burden. What are we going to do now you ask? We are not sure. Sam is currently in a mindset that he has killed himself for other companies to no avail so for a change he would like to kill himself to benefit his own family. What does that mean? Well he is considering just subcontracting work himself and working for himself. doing frame work or pouring concrete with himself and his sons, calling themselves"Sellers and Sons". It is almost scary but it puts us in a position of relying on our faith in God to provide our needs! Something I know we do not do often enough.
May God get the glory!

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Happy Valentine's day. My day started out so wonderful. The baby got up around 8:30 full of smiles. I changed him and we played "so big" in which he laughed out loud.It was so cute. The kids one by one started to awake, getting ready for the day. That is when it all went down hill, the bickering started. Back and forth amongst each other about everything and nothing. I just could not take it. I kept thinking why today. Why today of all days. Can't you be nice to each other!!Anyway- it just kept getting worse. Paul was disrespectful. I had to sit Joey in a chair because of his mouth. I tried to take a relaxing bath which did not last long because of argueing.

But you know what my beloved came through he actually came home at a decent time and the first thing he said to me was, you have 20 minutes to get ready because we are leaving to go out to dinner. He took me to this Brazilian Restaraunt, so nice you had to have reservations. It was really neat. The way they serve is so different. It is a 3 course meal. You first start with your soup and bread in which the waitress brings you, then the salad which you go to the cold bar for and it is not your normal salad but different salads. There was even squid with the tenticles attached.(Sam tried it) Then there is this wooden peg looking thing on the table that has green on one side and red on the other when you are ready for your meat portion of your meal you flip it to the green side and the meat starts coming. Now this is where it is different, they bring the meat to you, but you only get a VERY SMALL portion, maybe a two bite portion, but before you can finish chewing your second bite here comes another guy with a different kind of meat, and that goes on till you get full. Oh and with the meat is this spicey red potatoe and french fried sweet potatoes that goes with the meat, which is also and endless supply. The restaraunt is a buzz constantly, with the meat men all around, then there is a dessert tray rolling every where, a woman with wine glasses on it, and through all this you here this man singing " MeatLoaf Man Meatloaf I am the Meatloaf man" with this almost Jamaican, Brazilian whatever accent. Other side you here "Sea Bass Sea Bass I am the Sea bass man" same kind of accent. And believe it nor with all of this my little Noah slept through almost the whole thing! The started wonderfully and ended wonderfully even though the in between was not so good.

How was your Valentine's day?

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

She called...

My girlfriend, best friend-Celina- from the Philipinnes called yesterday morning. That is how my morning started and what a great start to my week. It truly was the highlight of my day to be able to hear her voice and feel connected to her. To know how she is and how she is fairing in the Mission World. My prayers have been with her and I know that the Lord is doing what he has promised, but my flesh worried. (forgive me) Thank you Celina for making a Monday a Tuesday!

Prayers are needed for them! Please Pray for the Henderson Family!

Friday, February 9, 2007

A well needed rest

Yesterday was my day off. What do I mean by that, well yesterday I did not have my neices.(my day off) We schooled a bit and then hopped in the van and drove to my friends house, The Bakers.We spent the day hanging out, talking, watching a movie, eating pizza and just plain relaxing. It was so nice. Such a change in the daily grind. We really went there because we were suppose to go to bible study together, but bible study ended up being cancelled to Sam and I's benefit since we started 3 weeks behind everyone(because of the weather) we could use the extra time to read and catch up.

About the bible study: have you heard of the Christian book called Love and Respect? For all of you Christians out there who are married you should really read this book. Even if you are not married and intended to marry some day, I truly believe this book can be very insightful to man's heart and for a man to a woman's heart. It is amazing after 14 years of marriage the things I am still learning on how to understand this complicated creature they call a man.(haha and they say we(woman) are hard to understand) We are easy to figure out,figure out our emotions, figure out US!

Not looking forward to the weekend, for me it will not be like a weekend since Sam has to work on Saturday. ugh... pray for him. He is so stressed!

Celina-where are you? You have not posted on your blog in a while. Pray all is well...

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

I hate Mondays

Did I ever tell you how much I hate Monday's? It is the Beginning of the week, the weekend is over, and the routine must start all over again. You have to think about all the things you did not get done and try to get them done. You have to get up early.(ugh) It is MONDAY- I wish you could skip right past Monday and go to Tuesday. (but then Tuesday would be Monday huh?)

Well- The weekend went well, even though there was so much to be done I did not do any of it. (haha) Late Saturday afternoon we got a phone call that my friend Shelly was in the hospital. She has an Appendicitis. (ugh) Praise the Lord she came through the surgery fine. We went and sat with her husband Gene. She is now home and hopefully on the road to recovery.

We did not have church Sunday- which makes me very sad. It snowed 4-5 inches there and we did not get any. Isn't that funny?

Friday, February 2, 2007

Video of Little Noah on Feb. 2nd, he is trying to talk. He is such a doll baby!
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Thursday, February 1, 2007

under attack

Lately spiritually I have felt like I have been under attack. Things around the house has not been peaceful. The homeschooling has been difficult for some. Sam 's job is an uncertainity right now. I am so confused on what to do. We need a new vehicle. My van sits 7 and we now have 8 of us not including when I have my neices, then it is 10. We also need to move from here. My desire is to be closer to our church. In all of this I feel overwhelmed and so unsure of the future. Please pray for me!

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Weekend and Monday

Well the weekend was rather unexciting. Sam worked all weekend, which left me here alone. It is hard to get through each day when each day is like a week day instead of a weekend. Paul had to work. He is so good at being a referree.

Monday- we started a bible study on Taming the tongue.. it seems like we have all had a problem doing that lately. It is amazing how hurtful words can be. We are studying James 1:19-20 and James 3:1-12 in the Bible in hopes that through the Word we can learn to tame our tongue! So far we have had a peaceful week, but it has just begun. Ask me friday how it went...(haha)

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Friday Madness

There is nothing like waking up in the morning and hearing your kids fighting first thing. Well that set the pace for the rest of the day. They fought over everything from who is going to what choir to how they were looking at each other. After a night were Noah was up fussing because he had his shots the day before I was not in the mood. So by lunch I was fed up and I told them all so. I got dressed, prepared Noah, took Liberty and left the house. I told them get the choirs done but I was not going to stick around to listen to their madness. I needed the break, the peace! I love my children that is why I homeschool. But I do not desire their treatment not only towards themselves but towards me as well. I often wonder if their ears are open when we do family devotions.
This week we were doing Ephesians 5- and not a bit of it was sinking in. It made me just wonder why, why was I doing this every day. When I could be like every other American Mom out there and put my kids in public school and let them raise my children and instill their values in them. I would be home in a quiet house with just Noah and Liberty. Why did we sit down every night or try to every night and read scripture. To hear ourselves talk? I know children will be children, I know that they do not think like adults, but you wonder do they hear you at all?

Thursday, January 25, 2007

My beloved and Noah

I love this photo of Sam and Noah. Sam just woke up and Noah woke up and went right back to sleep!
I love how babies can sleep anywhere. Don't you?
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

What comfort

2 Corinthians
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

The God of compassion, something I know at times I do not have enough of. The God of all comfort- do I comfort in all situations? Lord- Thank you for your words that reach me in my darkest most desperates times. Only you Lord can do that. Thank you for using my sister Celina in this time to bring me your word. I know that when I am in these moments I should seek your word but often times I have no idea where to start. Help me Lord to reach for you, to reach for your words to live by those words. Strengthen me Holy Spirit to be the mother, wife and friend you intended me to be. -Amen

There are so many changes and uncertainties in our life right now. Samuel's job is very uncertain and he is not happy where he is at.

Our desire is to be closer to our church and the church members so that means moving AGAIN-ugh. With the hope that we can build some relationships within the church. I believe if it was not for the Baker's we would feel a bit out of place. They have made us feel like part of their family and we are grateful for that.

So in telling you all this- I am asking you all to pray for us!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

AWW-Disco Sweat

I know you are wondering what in the world! Today I started the Richard Simmons excercise tape called disco sweat. It looked so easy. Boy it wasn't! By the time we(Maria,Joey and I) were through the first 15 minutes my legs were burning from the front to the back. The whole time Richard is coaxing you not to give UP. You want to just say SHUT UuuuuuuP. He says you are beautiful and you think yeah right I would not be doing this if I was. As the tape ends and you make it to the cool down you feel like you are about to fall over then comes the stomach crunches. WHAT STOMACH-I have no muscle there and of course Richard continues...1 and 2 and 1 and 2 and keep it up he says...ugh when is this tape going to be done you think, I can not do another thing and he says ok lets stretch to cool down. OH PRAISE THE LORD! You rise slowly feeling great-I did it.
Will it be easier tomorrow?

Monday, January 22, 2007

What a morning

The morning started out well, Noah actually slept from like 10pm till 630 am. Poor baby was so exhausted from the day before. He went back to bed at 8am and slept till 1030 at that point I got up fed him and gave him a bath. That is when it all went down hill. Paul decided to raise his voice at me, Maria jammed a piece of paper in the printer to a point that it is unreachable, and I can not seem to keep it together. What in the world is wrong with me!!

Noah is the joy of my life, but I just am not dealing with the big change well. The lack of sleep, trying to master breastfeeding, and schooling seems to be overwhelming me. It is hard because I feel so alone sometimes. I know I have Melissa here but there are parts me that I can not share with her because she just does not understand. I know my purpose is to serve my sister but there are times when I feel like I am being taken advantage of. I do not think she realizes all that I do. She tries to show her appreciation by buying me things. But that is not really what I want. I want her to appreciate it from her heart.

Being so far from my church is not helping either. The emptiness seems to be filling me from all around. Lord help me seek your face in this time when rest seems be minimal, when I feel taken advantage of help me to understand your purpose and Be with me Lord and give me peace.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Sunday Morning Chaos

Let me preface this by saying that Poor Noah spent the whole night crying and barely sleeping because the doctor changed his formula from a lactose free to a formula that has milk. He cried like he was in pain so I spent most of the night comforting my poor baby.

Anyway- we get up for church in what seems like enough time. My half grown children walk around acting as if they have no idea what to do. Having to be told, to brush their teeth, put their shoes on, eat so we can get ready to leave for church. In the meantime-I am still dealing with the baby and trying to get myself dressed.Dad is getting frustrated because everyone seems to have left their brains in bed or just plum did not care. Joey is running around with no shoes worrying about where is soccer jersey was, instead of getting dressed. Alex decided he was not going to eat breakfast this morning, while Paul is trying to get bottles ready for Noah. Sammy is dressed but still had not eaten. At this point the stress level is rising for Sam and I both. Paul and Joey start to fight over what-who knows! Words between the children keep going back and forth and finally I blow. Letting everyone know how tired I am and NOT IN THE MOOD to deal with their insensitivity and unkindness towards each other. Boy, what a way to go to church. We get in the van-mind you we are leaving late, so that means we will be walking in in the middle of service, which Sam hates(takes 45 minutes to get there). We start down the road, Sam stops to get me a sandwich from McD's for $1.00 since tending to baby left me NO time to eat. At that point he looks at me and says we are going home. I am not walking into the service late and I refuse to go to church in the spirit I am in at this moment. So we turned around and came home.

At home dad assigned Paul the duty of picking worship music. Sammy had to pick a Psalm and he picked Psalm 42. Joey had to pick a Proverb and he picked Proverb 3: 1 and 5. And Sam read us Ephesians 5. All in all it ended up to be a wonderful time in worship and prayer. Bringing peace back to a day that started out so Chaotic.

How many can relate?

Friday, January 19, 2007

Let me tell you what I did

The other night I woke up in the middle of the night with my Aunt Marie, from my biological father's side, on my mind. When I was young, her and I were very close so often times over the years I have thought of her. So I got on the internet and did a mad search for her with No avail but I did find my grandparents on that side. For two days I considered calling them but was unsure because honestly I did not want my biological father to know anything about me. But this feeling that I needed to talk her would not go away. So I called them, and it was great to hear my grandmother's voice. She was so gracious to give me Marie's information. I did briefly get to talk to Marie. She was more shocked to hear from me then happy. What is so sad in this situation is that because of their connection to him, I can not fully trust anyone with my information. As much as I would love to have them back in my life the chance I would be taking is him showing up on my doorstep. It is not myself I am protecting because I no longer fear him, but my children. Their safety is always important to me.
The relationships I have had to give up because of him. I think of the things I have had to miss out on because of Him. Because I truly believe he does not deserve to see his grandchildren because of what he has done. I know that sounds revengeful but it is not in that heart that I say that but it is in the heart of knowing I could never trust him with the most precious things that were given to me to protect, my children! In the meantime I miss these people in my life and feel bad that they have to pay for the sin that my father committed.

Am I wrong?

Thursday, January 18, 2007

God will never leave you

I have been doing a bible study the past few days on encouragement. The words God will never leave you nor forsake you come to heart when I think of my dear friend Celina in the Philipines. As she wakes every day and wonders why I am here. I miss home. I want her to remember these words," I will never leave you or forsake you" He promises you that. His desire for you Celina is for you to seek His purpose in your life, for you to depend fully on Him. In time when you feel lonely, out of place, imagine how out of place our Lord Jesus felt during his time of ministry.Why should it be any different for us? I am so proud of you all, and encouraged. Whatever happened to that quiet, PRIVATE family that did not like to open their doors whetherless their lives to others? I see the change God has done in all of you. The boys who never usually sang now play music and lead. I am in awe of God's work in your lives and I am sure this is just the beginning for you. I anxiously await a post or email from you all to hear what God has done that day for you and to hear about the adjustments you are going through.(I would love to see or hear from the boys as well!- Great to hear each person's perspective) It is an inspiration for me.
Each day as you wake ask yourself "God what good are you desiring to work in me and through me today?"
May my words be an encouragement to you!

I love you all-

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

What a weekend!

The rain started Friday but because of the cold quickly turned to ice. It lasted all night Friday so Saturday we woke to an Ice Wonderland- all the trees were white from the ice and leaning, grass was white but the roads were fine. That was just the beginning they said of this winter storm system that headed our way. The second part hit us Saturday afternoon but was not as bad as the first one. But that is when the Trees started to snap around us. The third part of the storm came on Sunday bringing more rain, sleet and snow this time. As we all hibernated in the house to stay warm, we lost water for a while but were praising the Lord that we still had electric and heat. Missy and Clay lost their electric, as well as thousands in Springfield, Nixa and Ozark, so they were not alone. I cooked a big turkey dinner for us all on Sunday, early just in case the power went out. Missy and Clay and the girls spent most of the weekend with us in the evening because we had power. At night they went home to sleep in the living room in front of their fire place. Monday we all woke wondering what the weather was going to be like. We woke to snow and Lots of tree limbs down in our yard. With each limb came a crash and of course fear that one of those limbs would hit our electrical line or come crashing through the house. Some of the limbs were so big it took Mr. Bill's truck to haul them into a position where Clay, Sam and the boys could cut it up with a chainsaw. That was our adventurous weekend. They are calling for snow here again this weekend. With the weather like this and it taking us 45 minutes to get to church we miss out on Christian fellowship, so pray for us. It is hard to be with out the accountability for that long.

What was the weather like where you are at?

Thursday, January 11, 2007

She is Gone

My best friend is gone. She is now in the Phillipines serving the Lord. The hardest thing for me is to think that I can not pick up the phone and call her and hear her voice. She will always be in my life but to think she is now so far away it pains me. I know they are starting a new chapter in the lives of serving with Carl retired and now them with WayWam-I think that is how you spell it. I do fear for them, their health and well being but I know the Lord will see them through. May the Lord be with her. I look forward to her posts which will be the only voice I have.

Love you Lots Celina May Our Lord be with you!


Monday, January 8, 2007

2 months Already

It amazes me that Noah is 2 months. Time seems to be going so fast. This morning he woke up smiling and cooing. He seems to have so much to say. He tries so hard to vocalize himself.It is so much fun to see him grow and change.

The rest of the Sellers Crew are really trying hard to adjust to mom being preoccupied alot. I do not think they realized how much an infant takes to care for. Of course all of them are so willing to help with him but when it comes to the house, cooking, cleaning or anything else they are not so willing which of course where I need the most help.

Samuel is having a hard time at work. Melissa Sellers brought Sam working with Steven. I truly believe it is his hearts desire to be in a position where he will be appreciated. He is such a hard worker, loyal but not one employer honors, or respects his dedication he has to the job. It is ashame that our society is full of people who do not appreciate their employees. Mr. Sellers says it is not like it use to be and unless the younger generation see value in people it will not change.

I am rambling.. I hope to post a picture of my 2 month old, so look for it.
God bless.

Saturday, January 6, 2007

the beginning of 2007

I can not get over that 2007 is here. I sit back and reflect what 2006 brought. It brought us to Missouri, though we moved Dec of 2005, we spent 2006 discovering Missouri. It brought us to BCF-our church. What a blessing it is. How much we truly love it there. Most of all it brought us Noah. The joy and love of my life. I often look at him not believing he is here and adoring God for blessing me so. I so look forward to watching God work in our live in the year 2007. I pray you will look forward to reading.



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