Wednesday, March 28, 2007


Lately I have felt so lonely and alone. Not feeling connected to anyone or anything. Wondering where I am going and what I am doing and why. A valley of darkness seems to surround me and I am slowly trying to lift myself out of it. Reading the word as often as possible and staying busy with the children and their tasks. Still feeling like there is something missing in my life. NOt that I am not happy being a wife, and mother. That job in itself is full time and fullfilling, but there is just this hole, Unexplainable hole that just can not be filled with just anything or anyone. I do not know, maybe it is after having baby blues.

Pray for Noah all of you who read- He is having surgery friday. Being put to sleep and everything. It is not a major surgery, re-circumcision- but it bothers me that he is so little and being put to sleep. :-(

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

What are your thoughts on this issue

Noah is now 4 months and due again to be vaccinated. The first vaccinations I did it with a very uncertain heart. Unsure whether I should expose my tiny 2 month old infant to such harmful things. When I went to the doctor I went with the mindset of not having it done but then felt pressured into doing it, by the doctor. Of course Noah did not do well, for two- three days he had outburst for no reason as if he was in pain or something. So that times has come again, making me unsure of whether I should do this or not. I have started reading this book by Michael Dye called Vaccinations-Deception and Tragedy.(ugh-I am so horrified) Now I am even more unsure of what to do.

What is the balance?

Who is telling the truth? The medical community or the people who's lives were affected?

I look at little Noah and see a helpless baby who looks to me for protection from everything harmful in this world. To think we purposely put these things in our children, for what reason?

Is it right to trust the medical field with decisions that should be ours to make? Did you know that if you do not vaccinate your children and social services finds out they can take your children away? (child endangerment they call it)

I am interested in your view on this issue...

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Quotes on Homeschooling and Education

Quotes on Homeschooling and Education"My grandmother wanted me to get an education, so she kept me out of school." --Margaret Mead

"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education." --Mark Twain

"What is most important and valuable about the home as a base for children's growth into the world is not that it is a better school than the schools, but that it isn't a school at all." --John Holt

"Education is not preparation for life; education is life itself." --John Dewey

"If the schools were perfect, I would still homeschool my children--because it isn't about school. It's about families taking their children back and educating them as they see best. It's about giving birth to a child and loving that child enough to want to nurture him and be a part of his life until he no longer needs you. It is the natural thing to do. School is only a substitute for the real thing." --Kathleen McCurdy

"An educational system isn't worth a great deal if it teaches young people how to make a living but doesn't teach them how to make a life." --Author unknown

"The experience of homeschooling is as much about adults uncovering the shimmering, infinite quality of learning itself as it is about kids absorbing knowledge." --Eileen Fisher, Editor, EdPress Online

"The truth is that schools don't really teach anything except how to obey orders." --John Taylor Gatto, NY City and State Teacher of the Year.

"There is, on the whole, nothing on earth intended for innocent people so horrible as a school." --George Bernard Shaw

"A life worth living and work worth doing -- that is what I want for children (and all people), not just, or not even, something called a better education." --John Holt

"In general the best teacher or care-giver cannot match a parent of even ordinary education and experience." --Dr. Raymond Moore

"Self-education is, I firmly believe, the only kind of education there is." --Isaac Asimov

"Knowledge which is acquired under compulsion obtains no hold on the mind. Let early education be a sort of amusement; this will better enable you to find out the natural bent of the child." --Plato

"I believe that school makes complete fools of our young men, because they see and hear nothing of ordinary life there." --Petronius Satyricon

Monday, March 12, 2007

Getting to know you Survey

Curious on what your answers would be!!!

1. What is your occupation? most important job in the world- A wife and mom
2. What color are your socks? grey-still in my pajama socks
3. What are you listening to right now? no music-listening to Maria talking to her baby brother
4. What was the last thing that you ate? 1/2 a poptart
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Yes
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? blue-I guess
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? um-my husband yesterday
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes - very much-she is my favorite sister in law :-)
9. How old are you today? 36
10. Favorite drink? sweet tea
11. What is your favorite sport to watch? SOCCER
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? Never-really!
13. Pets? a rat-Jabbers, a ferret-Rose, a puppy-Beula, and a cat-Gabriel
14. Favorite food? Seafood
15. What was the last movie you watched? Poisedon
16. Favorite day of the year? My anniversary- It amazes me every year that we celebrate, that our love has survived!
17. What do you do to vent anger? Cry- and I want to throw things but I don't
18. What was your favorite toy as a child? do not remember
19. What is your favorite fall or spring? fall
20. Hugs or kisses? Kisses-from my husbands, hugs from loved ones and friends
21. Cherries or Blueberry? Blueberry
22. Do you want your friends to email you back? Yes
23. Who is most likely to respond? not sure
24. Who is least likely to respond? my mother
25. Living arrangements? 3 bedroom house, with my husband and 6 children)
26. When was the last time you cried? today
27. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this
to? My mother- and Joy second
29. What did you do last night? Watched TV-Frazier and rested
30. Favorite smells? good food
31. What inspires you? My husband when he is closed to God
32. What are you afraid of? that I will lose Sam and be alone
33. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? plain
34. Favorite dog breed? Great Dane
35. How many years at your current job? I played a mom to my brother and sister and now to my children so a very long time
36. Favorite day of the week? Saturday-me too!
37. How many states have you lived in? 6 states-Ohio,PA,Texas,Georgia,Virginia,Missouri
38. Favorite holiday? It’s a toss up - Easter-I love the reminder that Our Lord has Risen!!!
39. Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery? No
40. Who's your favorite NFL team? Houston Texans-love the uniforms!
41. 10 inches of snow or 100 degree weather? 100 degree weather and sandy beaches with a cool breeze!

Friday, March 9, 2007

Friday at last

This week has been full. The boys are working hard, and I am trying to get use to not having the extra hands and take care of Noah all at the same time. I know that before I did it with 5, but I wonder-how. I know I had a system on how I did things, but trying to remember what that system was. Plus I did not home-school my children, so I guess that helped, when I had little ones, the others were in school, so I had to do was take care of them and clean the house. Now it is schooling, baby,house,baby,try to clean, baby, cook,baby, clean again, baby. Notice the cycle- the baby part is the part I enjoy- it is the other stuff, trying to fit it in some where.

Samuel has been working hard lately. I have hardly seen him. Yesterday he came home, ate something really quick and went straight to a favor he was doing for a friend.(side job) He got a phone call yesterday from another contractor who is seeking and estimator. So now he has two job offers on the table. Lord Lead him in the way he should go. It is hard choice for him because he truly has no desire to go and work for someone. He wants to work for himself, but he can see that the boys are not ready to do this full time. It is too much for them. Paul does not have the desire to do this at all. Sammy and Alex love it, it is just they are so young. I think in a way it has really disappointed him that Paul shows no interest, because he truly would have liked to grow Sellers and Sons for them. To benefit them in the future and the only one who is truly old enough, and strong enough has no desire to be there and it shows in his work. Sad thing is he asked him( I also asked him), and we both TRIED to explain to him how hard this was going to be, and of course at the time he was excited to do it. Now it is not so fun, it is work so he is not as interested.It definitely shows his immaturity and shows how he needs to be taught to be a man of his word especially when people are counting on you to follow through.

Though I have been so blessed to watch a transformation come over Alex. He truly loves working with his father. The physical work keeps his body, and energy focused on things that are pure and right! He comes home with a big smile on his face, happy to see me and his other siblings. It is so sweet! He actually even offered to give me his hardworking money to fill my gas tank. Of course I refused, because I know how hard he has worked for it. He deserves to get what he wants!

I ask that you lift us in prayer as we try to see where the Lord leads!

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Been a few days

Can you believe there is a time where I actually do not have anything to say. For those of you who know me personnally you are probably in shock right now. (haha)
I want to take the time to Congratulate my friend Cindy on her pregnancy. May the Lord protect you and that growing little one inside you. Cindy(who is she), well she is a very special person in my life that was an instrument of God in the birth of our Noah. Ah- I have all your little minds going-how? I know all of you do not know this, but about 2 years now(wow time flies) I had a reversal surgery done, by a wonderful doctor(Dr. Streeter), not only did Cindy open her home up to us so we had some place to stay during my surgery, but she was also the head of the ministry at the time that helped me pay for the surgery. (see there are places out there that perform Miracles for the Glory of God) So you see why she was an instrument of God?! I am so excited for her now, because God has decided to give her another towards His Kingdom!(baby number 10 but the 9th child) Cindy is no longer the head of that ministry.(VERY LONG-heartwrenching story) But she still quietly serves by opening her home to those who are getting surgeries in her area.
From that birthed the Ministry: The Lord's Heritage-( created by the Bucklin's and the Sellers' but for the past 2 years, run solely by the Bucklin's. The Sellers' are now returning to assist in the running of the ministry and would covet your prayers for wisdom, and For God to be glorified in all we do! Let our words be bridled by the Holy Spirit.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

our night

Let me tell you about our night. We are sleeping, it is 4:30am and I suddenly awake, to what? The Warning Siren for tornadoes! I wake Sam up and we go get the kids so that we can get into the basement. The whole time he is telling everyone to stay calm. Each child grabs their blanket and pillow and goes downstairs. Then it dawns on them, as they are waking up that the animals are still upstairs. Alex runs up for the ferret, Joey grabs Jabbers the rat- and Maria tries to look for Grabielle the cat, which she thought was in the garage but was actually outside. She got upset thinking something might happen to him out there. I told her he is safe and would be fine!

We are all downstairs hearing the siren, waiting to see what would happen next. I guess the dog had to go to the bathroom, and decided to go in the corner which stank up the whole room. Maria starts gagging, trying to pick the mess up. All the boys have their blankets over their nose, as do I and we are all giggling at the ridiculous sight we were sure we all were.
Noah had NO clue what was happening, all he knew he was awake before it was time to get up and it was a good time to play and talk. We stayed downstairs till 5:45am then I was ready to go back to my own bed. The kids at that point were wide awake so they watched a movie.

What fun it was...(haha)


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