1. What is your latest NLIP?(Not like I planned)
I would say moving to Texas. Coming here was not in my plans at ALL. I did not want to move here. I knew what it was like here from visiting Sam's family. The last thing I wanted to do was live in an over crowded city that is hot!
2. How did you react to your NLIP?
The first day I was here, my husband went to work and left me to deal with unloading the moving truck with the children. I woke up at 6am, which never happens, and all I could do was sit there and cry. There was NO SUPPORT here, I was left to do it myself!
Are you still upset about it?
It still hurts alittle. That in the years that we have moved, and changed, my beloved has never taken in consideration the affects is has on me. This one was the hardest move, and he did not consider that, nor make provisions to be there to help. It hurts because it views me as this strong, independent, can handle anything person, and that is NOT always true.
3. Have you ever attempted to step into an area of ministry and found your desire rejected?
NO-- But I have attempted to do other things, and it just not happen, or not work out.
Did this cause you to question God and yourself?
Question God definitely. I have found myself even wondering are you even there? Do you even care? Are you even listening or watching?
4. Do you harbor any bitterness towards any individual or situation with you believe waylaid your best laid plans?
I am not sure if my beloved waylaid any specific plans I had. He just makes the best decision he thinks of for our family so that he can provide. Moving to Texas was his solution to not having a job nor finding one in the area.
5. Have you had a life experience or trial that left you with a shaken faith because it ended in an NLIP?
I have had experiences that have shaken my faith but not because of NLIP moment but because it was a moment of trial, and strengthening.
6. Based on Moses' response of faith to his own rejection, how will you re-evaluate your own experiences or look at future ones differently if a NLIP presents itself?
Moses had such strong signs and push from God. From the Angel presenting itself in the bush to his walking stick turning into a serpent. If the Lord should do that to me, I would say that would shake me away real fast, and I would say Yes Lord to whatever. But since my signs, pushes and callings is not as profound, I tend to be a bit more stubborn and HE tends to put me through the even before I submit to whatever the plan is. But of course that submission never comes without tears, ranting, raving and nashing of my teeth(haha) I wonder if they left Moses nathing of his teeth out? haha
To get to the answer - I guess I would have to realize it is a NLIP moment, and know that My God has everything under control.
Angie,
ReplyDeleteI know it must be really hard for you to be away from your family. I was once in that same position. I'm sure it must be very difficult to be moved across the country and then left to take care of the kids in a new place.
The concept of "bloom where you're planted" comes to mind. I used to have a wall hanging that said that, and there have been many times in my life that I wanted God to move me out of a place or situation but I know His answer was for me to sit back and just bloom where He planted me for that season of my life. Still, I know it's very difficult!
I have been praying for you and I hope that you will begin to feel adjusted and find friends and a church home!
Hang in there!!
Michelle
Angie,
ReplyDeleteYou are one of the bravest women I know!!
I have lived in the same town for most of my 49 years, along with most of my family and family in law.
To be able to say okay, where we are is not working, so we have to do something else, which includes moving your family to a new place, that takes strength and great faith.
You have shown me a different view in this lesson. Rusty and I have moved a couple of times from house to house in the same community, and I am the one that goes to work and leave him to sort it all out. Wow I am going to have to go hug his neck and tell him thank you big time.
I know you might not be able to see it right now, God has big plans for you. He has moved you to use you. Can't wait to see where this taking you.
Sallye