Saturday, December 24, 2011

10 weeks and my Christmas blessing


She is now 10 weeks, smiling, cooing and just being aware of her surroundings and all of the people she deems important. Daddy has to work hard to get this little one to smile at him. It is a change for this house. Most of the time Daddy is the man... he steals their hearts before I even have an opportunity to win their hearts. This time this little one loves mama... makes me feel important and special.Special because she preferrs me, smiles at me, and calms down when mama picks her up. My heart just burst over this little one. What a joy she is.

Her big brother duck-

Has adjusted to our new miracle wonderfully. He loves her to pieces. Tells me, mama you hold her and I will hold the bottle so I can feed her. Makes my heart burst with joy knowing he loves her so. He is such a special blessing to me.

I am so humbled that our Lord Jesus saw me worthy to have not just one reversal miracle but two reversal miracles.

My Christmas blessings...

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

7 weeks and just so precious


It's amazing how time flies. At 7 weeks she is cooing,and her personality is starting to show. She is trying to smile, you can see her joy in her eyes. Also her temperament shows as well. Patience is definitely a learned trait. Patience she does not have.

You can see she's recognizing faces, and that she has preferences. One of her preferences is me. She barely goes to anyone else without putting up a fuss. I kind of enjoy it but at the same time can be really exhausting.

I know that this time will go fast... We are at 7 weeks now, so I cherish each second with joy and praise to our King Jesus for the gift she is.

Happy Thanksgiving

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

5 years old.. unbelievable

On Nov 13-- my boy

turned 5 years old. Though in his mind he thinks he is equivalent to my 21 year old. In alot of ways he and can keep up with him conversationally, especially if you are talking about the latest video game. He is a bit obsessed with video games, he loves spiderman, we watch the movie at least 20 times a week. He is a carbs junkie, French fries is his choice food. He thinks he knows everything because you say something and he says "I know". His favorite football team is the Jets, funny thing is, he doesn't watch football.( happens to be his grandfathers favorite team)

This year we had a spiderman themed party that was suppose to have a few kids but it ended up being a young adult party with just two little kids, him and his friend Xavier.


His guests....



To my first miracle- I love you-- Happy Birthday.


Thursday, October 27, 2011

3 weeks and 4 days-- wow!

As I sit here and look into this sweet little face--20111027-094652.jpg

I am amazed how quickly time is going. In a way it makes my heart very sad because I know there is no way to stop the clock and make time go slower. I know there is no way to prolong this time. In a blink she is now 3 weeks and 4 days...she will be a month this next Sunday-- a month Wow...

These past few weeks have not been the easiest. Having her at home was amazing- the most peaceful, non evasive delivery I have ever had. The presence of the Lord was evident. There were no loud machines, no cold instruments, no icy rooms, just soft worship music in the background, warm water and soft voices.

Then reality hit.. My beloved stayed home the night she was born to help take care of me and the baby and the house, but the very next day less than 24 hours later he went to work leaving me with a puking 4 year old, and 5 young adults. I felt bad for Noah and for my daughter because Noah wanted a parent and Maria was in over her head dealing with me, him and everything else, though she handled it with LOTS of grace.That was just the beginning of the next few weeks.

Having a baby at home brings another side to home birthing that NO ONE ever talks about. See when you have a baby in the hospital you are away from home, so then you are not expected to make decisions, clean, or deal with household situations. ( you are in the hospital "resting")
When you have the baby at home you do not get away from home, you are then expected to get up the very next day and act like nothing major happened to you, and you are to run the household like business as usual. Well needless to say my body, mind, and emotions could not do it. After just a few days of it, I was having an emotional breakdown. Basic decisions would make me want to cry and every fiber in side of me was screaming for sleep. At night I was feeding and caring for baby girl and during the day if I attempted to rest Noah would wake me so rest was out of my grasp. My mind just wanted to shut down and focus on what I had to, me and baby. ( needles to say-- lesson learned)

Things have balanced inside me, though the household, still needs to be taken care I feel my strength and emotional state strengthening and restoring.Noah is in desperate need of my attention for schooling.

He adores his little sister and adjusting wonderfully to the new addition, but feedings and changing are so consuming right now, he is bored. All he wants to do is watch movies or play video games.
Which drives me crazy because he asks every 5 minutes for the video games.

We are slowly gaining a routine, though at times I wish I could stop time or slow it down.

Praying you all are well!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Birthing story from my own perspective.....


Sunday-October 2nd, 2011-- started normal. I got up and started preparing for church, waking everyone up so we could make it to our church 10th Anniversary service on time. It was cool, and cloudy out so instead of the "celebration" happening outside in park like it was suppose to, we had it inside at the church. I had to hurry to make sure our dish for the celebration was ready, so I ran downstairs and started cooking. Of course we were not on time for church but because of the celebration it wasn't starting on time. When we arrived everyone was wondering if I wasnt there because I was in "labor". But I waddled in and everyone greeted me with " oh, you are here... how are you feeling?" Seemed to be the question of the hour because it was getting so close to the due date. (Oct 3rd)

Church started about 11:00 and so did my contractions.. I sat down and had my first strong contraction. I thought it was the normal contractions that I had been having for the last two weeks. After having a few of them I looked at Maria and asked her to start timing them. By 12:00 the contractions were consistent and 7.5 minutes apart. I knew it was time, so when church ended, i looked at my friend and said I needed to go home because I was in labor. she said ok- she would walk me home. As I waited for her one of the members of the church came up and was talking to me and I was trying hard to disguise I was in pain and having contractions while we talked, till finally I couldnt anymore and said I am sorry but I need to go because I am in labor. By this point it is 12:30pm

I started the short journey home, that seemed longer because by this point my contractions were coming very quickly. We finally made it home, and I walk upstairs to wake my beloved who was sleeping because he was currently on a night shift at work. In the meantime, we called the midwife (at 12:40) she said ok, she would call back with an arrival time. She calls back and states she would not arrive till 2:30. At 1:15 I look at my friend Kim and tell her to call her back, because I was not going to make it to 2:30 that I had the urge to push now. So the midwife made changes to her plans and stated she would be there by 1:50. At this point for me I was in and out of awareness of what was happening around me. My mind was totally focus on pain management and holding her in while we waited for Sam to get ready and the midwife to arrive.

At some point my beloved came down, and helped me change out of the church clothes I was still in and i put on a nightgown. At the same time he started filling the doula tub or also known as the birthing tub with hot water. Maria asked me at some point if she should turn on some music, I said yes softly. So she turned on some praise and worship music very softly in the background. I remember through some of my contractions singing some of the songs. I cant remember what songs they were but I remember singing and saying Lord, and Jesus.

At one point my midwife arrived. By this point the tub was filled and I was fully ready to go, but i was also in and out of awareness of what was happening around me. I remember my midwife saying ok I am ready you can push whenever you want and me responding that I was scared. She then asked me if I wanted to get in the tub( all this time I was sitting on the edge of the couch) I said, yes, so they helped me stand and I felt like the bottom dropped out of me. I bet if I felt I would have felt her head.

When I sat in the hot water- it was like my whole body went.. oh my thank you.. I could feel my muscles relax even if it was temporary till the next contraction. Once in the water- I remember my midwife saying, try giving a test push and see what happens.
I believe I had maybe three contractions, on the third contraction, I started to push, and in one push with barely any force,I remember attempting to stop the push but as this point my body took over, and in one solid push Eliana was out. At the same time- my husband realized I was pushing and saw her head in the water, and reached down and brought Eliana out of the water. Her cord was wrapped around her neck and shoulder and she was little blue, but she cried a soft cry when she came out of the water, letting us all know she was fine and was breathing. She came out with her eyes wide open. They placed her in my arms and I sat there completely in shock how quickly it all went and the worry I had for the last 6 months left me as I looked down at this perfect angel. I remember praising Jesus and thanking Him for her health, and my "easy and fast" labor, and for allowing Sam to be there and the midwife to make it. Yet- I was still silent, because Sam asked me if I was ok. I remember saying yes and just staring at this wide eyed angel looking back at me. As long as she was against me in that warm water, she did not make a sound. She just looked around.

Once the umbilical cord stopped throbbing Maria was the one who cut the cord. She also was the first to hold the baby in her arms. She was beside herself with joy to hold, and see her little baby sister.

I am not sure how much time passed before we pushed for the placenta, but that was not difficult either. Once the placenta was out, my beloved and midwife helped me change my wet clothes, and get out of the tub which seemed very cold at this point.

I wasn't sitting and covered up for long before a knock came at the door and it was our Pastor David, Elder Jonathan, Elder Jayon, Bev, Vivian, and Ms. Trish. If there was anyone else I dont remember. They came in to take a peek at the baby( not sure if I mentioned this, we live a block away from our church) They did not stay long, before they left they prayed over our new arrival.

By 4pm I was cleaned up and showered, babe was clothed and asleep, and the midwives had everything cleaned up, and were ready to go.

My parents arrived around 5pm to see their new grandbaby for the first time. My dad was so excited. He had been waiting for the last few weeks for her arrival. He held her, and could not believe how small she was. After they left exhaustion set in along with hunger.

The first night was peaceful though I kept waking to check on her. She slept solid, the delivery was alot on her too.

We praise the Lord Jesus for this new life!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Photos of Eliana

being checked out by midwife



Being weighed



First born


Eliana's birthing thru the eyes of my unofficial doula/ and very special friend

Here is the story of Eliana's birth- written by a very special friend who stayed with me till my midwife arrived , while my beloved was busy getting things ready and through the birth....

Eliana's Birthing story
By Kim Folks

When I was training to be a Doula one of the things we were encouraged to do was to write a birth story for the families we worked with and for ourselves but especially for the babies :) How awesome would it be to be able to read our own birth stories. We try but often forget details and don't take time to record the memory. So I hope this can be something you can share with Eliana one day and enjoy :)
Well when I woke this morning I was excited for our church's 10th Anniversary/ picnic. The weather was unusually cold, 43 degrees, so the picnic was moved indoors which turned out to be very convienient since the Sellars live 1 block from church.
At 1030am the Sellars weren't there yet so I called thinking maybe they weren't there because Eliana was being born :) But after speaking to Paul and Maria I found out they were just late.
During service Angie's contractions were coming frequently and by the end of service it looked like 'Game Time'. So I encouraged her to head home and call the Midwife. I was very excited for the events soon to come. Little did I know how soon :)
We left the church a little after 12pm and contractions were coming every few steps seemingly. Sam was asleep at home since he's been working night shift but quickly prepared for Eliana's pending birth. Beulla was also very concerned getting by Angie's side at every possible moment.
After getting more comfortable and setting final preperations in motion Angie was getting very quiet and focused. She commented that the Midwife may not make it in time. We called her at 1:15pm and she expected to arrive at 1:50pm but said she could talk us through it on the phone if need be. There were moments it seemed that might be very possible.
In the mean time all the other kids were at the church picnic and had been back and forth to the house checking in and getting updates. Maria hooked up some music for us that was such a blessing. The praise and worship music was very soothing for us all and acted as nice distraction. Papa Sellars was busily preparing the tub, filling it with water for Eliana and caring for all Angie's needs as always.
The Midwife arrived at the expected time and Angie was totally in the zone. As Angie got into the tub as an onlooker I couldn't tell what would happen next. My friend who was normally never short of words was practically silent and totally focused. Obviously in active labor but so calm it was a little confusing.
The Midwife being very careful to give Angie her space spoke to Angie quietly at brief interludes between contractions. As Sam was busily doing anything he could to add comfort to the environment by filling the tub with warm water and heating the room, not knowing what I could do or how to help I approached Angie's side and just was there to be a presence.
Then it happened. The midwife said 'Sam put your hand here.' And as he reached into the bottom of the tub suddenly there she was in her Fathers hand making the most magnificent entrance in the calmest setting. Snug in Mamas arms it was incredible. Eliana was born :)
It didn't take long for siblings who were only a block away to come to see the wonderful blessing. Awe struck and excited everyone was surprised and happy. Sister Maria got the honor of cutting the cord. Noah didn't enjoy that part :) And the Sellars family grew by one at 2:28pm. Happy Birthday Eliana!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

" Geez- You are big"

These are words that have been expressed to me in the past week. I often wonder, do people not think about what they say or how they say it? Do they not stop to think that this could hurt someone's feelings or their self-esteem?

As baby grows, I grow.. nothing I can do about that. She is getting big, so in turn I am getting big. Trust me I look in the mirror- I see how big I am. I also get on the scale, I know how big I am. But it is not a big because I am fat, eating too much and gaining weight for no reason.

I have a life in me, growing, preparing herself to come into this world. I pray a healthy babe as well!

I could not imagine coming up to a pregnant woman and looking at her and saying "Geez- you are big"

I had one person come up to me who had not seen me since January or February-- she looks at me and says " Are you having twins?" I say "No" She continues on by saying " Wow- you are huge!" I walked away thinking how rude!

Really-- am I just being sensitive??

I am 34 weeks.. .

nearing the end of this pregnancy. Feeling great-- no pain, still sleeping, very minimal heartburn. I am blessed I know. Still lots to do to prepare for this gift. Still needing some things, but God has been good. I feel so very blessed to know that there are some who are very excited about this Gift from Heaven!

I have been working on a few projects for her.. making some crocheted beanie hats, I made one with a ribbon on the side(my first attempt at this)


I think it turned out cute. I have another one I am working on that I am crocheting a flower for the side of it. I will post a photo when i get that one done.

Well- I am done venting... guess I will go work on that project.


Thursday, August 18, 2011


As time gets closer for this little one to arrive in this world, all these fears keep trying to creep up. The main one is she going to be healthy? Will she have any problems? Will she have down syndrome?( because as you know I am so OLD and I am having a baby-- sorry for the sarcasm) And how will I handle that? Am I making a mistake having her at home? Will the midwives be able to handle anything?

I keep trying to tell myself that these fears are normal. That no matter what everything will be ok. But have you ever tried to talk yourself out of being afraid... it does not work very well.

I know all things are in the hands of the One who created the universe, the one who stops the ocean in the right spot, and the one who places the moon where it is. I know He is my strength when I am weak. He is my comforter, and my strong tower. And honestly He knows my strengths, weaknesses and knows just what He is doing... so tell me why do I not feel it?

Why do I still allow these fears to capture my heart and almost paralyze me at times? To distract me from what is really important... and that is life! This wonderful perfect little life that continues to grow inside of me. Just her existence is a blessing that Only Christ could give. Why do I do that?? This fear steals my joy, makes me preoccupied with things that out of my control... so why bother?

So dear saints as I come to terms with this fear... will you pray for me? I need your covering!


Wednesday, August 10, 2011


Radical | A book by David Platt

In our church we have started reading this book... I am excited to see what the Lord is going to do in all our lives. The challenge this brings to me, my life, and whether I truly Love Jesus as He would want... hurts my feelings some...

The first chapter makes some powerful points -
Do we believe Jesus is so good, so satisfying, and so rewarding that we will leave all we have, all we own, and all we are to find our fullness in Him??

Would you?

In this chapter-- we were to consider the cost involved in personally following Jesus Christ....

My thoughts:

" The cost Christ paid seems so much greater a cost that I would pay for following Him, Yes--ok I may be mocked in this country, criticized, but death is not something we fear. So my heart question-- Would I be willing to die for Him? Now that is something we would all probably say yes to but when face with, when a gun is truly at your head-- thats when the truth be known! "

Lord I pray that this book will challenge my family become even more radical, more strange to those who loves us as well as the world around us.

Thank you for your Son--

In Jesus Name Amen

Be blessed dear Saints--- please come back-- so that you can also read what the Lord is doing in my life through this book.


Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Lesson from Leprosy and a Leper part 2

Luke 5:12-13

A Man Cleansed

12 While He was in one of the towns, a man was there who had a serious skin disease all over him. He saw Jesus, fell facedown, and begged Him: Lord, if You are willing, You can make me clean.
13 Reaching out His hand, He touched him, saying, I am willing; be made clean, and immediately the disease left him.

These verses have reminded me how defiled I am before the eyes of God Yahweh without the cleansing hand of our Saviour....

On Sunday Pastor David continued on this very eye opening point on sin... If you did not read the first blog or listen to the first sermon, go back you don't want to miss the first part.

Here is the link for the sermon....

Second part Notes:
II. The Lords concern
What Jesus was about should be what we are about!
A. Lord is compassionate to the leper

We don't know the last time this leper felt human touch, and our Lord reaches out and touches him.

This is ministry-- getting your hands dirty with those whom the world has cast away.

Disregard conventional modesties....
1. His compassion towards lost Matthew 9:36-38

2. Compassion towards the hungry
Matthew 15:32

3. His compassion toward the sick
John 9:1-12

4. His compassion toward the exploited
Luke 10:30-37

Philipians 2:2-4
1 John 3:17

Who are you touching? Jesus touches the most vile person in the culture...

How do we show compassion to sexual criminals? Those with aides?
What do we do as a church? Do we invite them to our homes for dinner?

Luke 7:39-- are we going to show compassion to those the world hates?

Are we going to deal with sinners with all that encompasses?

B. The Lord cleanses the leper

III. The Lords command
Don't tell anyone... He didn't listen.

IV. The Lords communion
Getting away and being alone with the Lord is important.

Do you See yourself as a leper before the Lord, sinful and broken, as you come before the Lord seeking His compassion and His cleansing?

A sheep seeking my Shepherd


Monday, August 8, 2011

Jesus Thank you...

Yesterday was our communion service-a time to reflect on the ultimate sacrifice that was given so that I could have a relationship with Abba Father. The sacrifice that no human could fathom or endure. At church they played a song during communion that was a reminder of who I was before this sacrifice. I was his enemy, so defiled from sin that He could not look upon me. But to the glory of His Son Jesus-- his blood washed away my sins and thank you seems so meager of words to say to one who laid down His life for me.

I pray this song touches you, reminds you of who you are with Him, and gives you a heart of gratitude towards the Sacrifice He was so will to make for YOU!


Thursday, August 4, 2011

31 weeks


This pregnancy seems to have flown by. I guess because I focused on life. I focused on each day, rejoicing as this little one grew, rejoicing as she kicked, and knowing that every moment I received carrying this blessing was a kiss from my Lord Jesus himself.

I am far from ready for this little one. I was blessed with a crib from my dad, and a swing from him as well. I received a few articles of clothing from a coworker of Paul's( very sweet lady) who gave me things she won't wear till next year( at one years old) That's it-- I have no crib sheets. I DO have baby blankets( plenty of those) From the McDaniel family I received a diaper bag, and from my life long dear friend and her mother I received a baby monitor. There is so much more needed for this bundle. It will come-- I know it :)

We have decided that we will be having this little one at home. I am a bit anxious over this decision. It's the norm-- stepping into the unknown, the foreign, leaves anxiety, but I am confident after many months that this is the best decision for me and this sweet one! This is how I look at it- I broke out of the mold when it came to homeschooling, why not breakout of the mold in having a baby:)

In the meantime-- I have been thinking about starting Noah in schooling. This will be my first kindergartener so I have NO idea where to start. He is surpassed the mundane ABC's though he does not know them all-- he wants more than just reviewing ABC's and coloring pages. I don't blame him. It's just as boring to me as well. All my homeschooling friends-- I could really use your wisdom and prayers in this area!

The rest of the family, Maria and Joey just finished some summer school programs in their cyberschool. They did it for extra credits. They will have a month break then the school year will start. Their books have arrived.

Joey is always eager, so he opened his box to check out his new books, but Maria well let's say she is not as eager so I won't be surprised if her box stays closed till it's time to start school.


Alexander is working hard at Hershey Park, he really does love it there. ( please lift him in prayer as he seeks the Lords will for his future)

Sammy also works for Hershey Park, as security. He as not as passionate about it as Alex. Not a whole lot of fun involved in parking cars, and dealing with tired irate customers after a long day in the park, but his easy going personality make him perfect for the job.

Paul continues to adapt to working. His work is physically as well as mentally challenging. He is realizing with authority comes great responsibility. Being a working supervisor is not fun, but he knows the blessing behind this job,. It is molding his character and I pray strengthening his faith, since he must lean on Him each day.

My beloved is getting ready to go into a very hard working season come September. He will work 7 days a week/ 12 hour days, which will be difficult since he drives 1.5 hours to work. He will most likely stay down by his job so he can rest and sleep to get through this short season. This will only last 48 days. Yes this will be a difficult 6 weeks, not to mention scary since Oct 3rd is this little ones due date. So not long after he starts this working season this little one may make her presentation. Pray for us, especially pray for him. He will not forgive himself if he misses her birth, but he must do this!

We are slowly getting adapted to PA. Moving is never easy. You have to start over in every area of your life, church, friends, and work....etc... The most difficult area has been refereeing for my family. In Texas, they had a fabulous reputation. They were known as being one of the best crews to work with. Here well let's just say that the ones in charge just shouldn't be any more. Makes me really sad because their talents are being wasted.

We Love our little church. We know the Lord has us their to serve, we just are not sure how and what. Guess thats what we have to wait to figure out:) I hate waiting, I am the kind of person that likes to jump right in. My beloved Sam on the other hand is very patient, and will wait FOREVER it seems.:) In the meantime we are enjoying getting to know the fellowship and loving them.

Well dear sisters... I love chatting with you. I sure miss all of you and would love to hear how you are!

Be blessed, most of all be a blessing ( my sister in law - Val's saying)

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Grieving heart....

Hello again... I know the times I have blog have been few, but I am here and blessed to know that when I need to share you all there to listen.

The past day or so I have had a grieving heart.. NO it is not life, NO it is not my wonderful beloved husband or my Wonderful children. It is for women, Godly women, women of Christ that is who my heart is grieving for. For those women who love the Lord, desire to live for Him, and just can not seem to do it, or just unsure if they are. For those young women who have just come to Christ, and feel so alone. For those women who are home moms, doing what they believe the Lord has called them to do, be keepers of the home, but deal with loneliness, and desire Godly companionship, and accountability with other women. For women-- who sometimes just want to hear another women's voice for encouragement in the Word of what their roles is and how important their roles in the home.

I have been listening to sermons the last few days by wonderful, strong Godly men. In these sermons they preach, and teach on what a Godly man should do, what he looks like, encouraging them through our Lord Jesus's Word. Anyone could gleen wisdom from these Godly preachers. But when I was done I desired so greatly to hear words from a woman and sometimes I realized there are not alot of women for WOMEN ONLY!!! Speakers... I am not talk about Joyce Meyers type... I am talking about Women for Women only, who talk about being keepers of the home, being Godly and chaise, about being mothers, about loving our children and our husbands. (am I making any sense?)

I grieve for myself for not having the Godly woman in my life to turn to for direction or just encouragement sometimes. Yes I have wonderful Godly friendships. Women who love the Lord, but often times we are walking the same path at the same time. I am talking a woman who has been there and done that, her age and time on this earth exceeds my own.

Women as busy as we are, as much as life demands from us we need each other! Not to gripe and complain to, but pray for each other, to hold each others hands when the other is weak, to give each other an encouraging Word and to lead each other back to the Word of God when we have wondered to far away... too busy taking care of everything and everyone else!

Be strong dear sisters... most of all when the Lord places someone on your heart or in your thoughts... be there!!


Sunday, July 31, 2011

Lessons from Leprosy and Leper

This is a fabulous sermon-- a must listen. These are the notes that Link to the sermon:

Lev 13:45-46- separation,repulsive to others

Luke 5:12

Leprosy is a picture of sin.

A. The Lesson from Leprosy
1. Sin defiled and disables the sinner.
Isaiah 64:6
Leprosy starts small and slowly grows. Sin slowly grows, here and there.

Sin starts out small, looks good, and fun and then it grows and destroys you.

2. Sin causes distance and breath down of relationships.
Sin can paralyze relationships

3. Sin results in loneliness for sinner.
Sin lies to you- tells you are the only one

4. Sin creates a desensitized conscience
Ephesians 4:18-19

5. Sin grows increasingly worse, ending in spiritual death.

6. Sin has no human cure
Titus 3:3-5

B. A lesson from a Leper

A sinner must appeal to Jesus Christ for cleansing
1. Act of humility
2. Words of Faith

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Conformed minds.....


This has been on my mind since listening to Voddie Bauchman's sermon "When is He ready?"-- one of the first thing he states is how we conform so easily to the thoughts, and ways of society... and it is so true.

We conformed to everything it tells us too-why?

People conform when it comes to training up their own children. Society has stated parents are incapable of teaching their children, so you must send them to the institutions because we will do such a better job than you can ever think of doing.. HMM-- has that even come to pass?

We are brain washed to think that the "professionals" know exactly what they are doing. Did you know that teachers books are so detailed with explanations of how to teach the children that they even tell them exactly what to say for each lesson??? No one knows your child like you do, so who better to teach them but you... you love them, want to see them succeed and be the best. Your investment is your heart and soul, some teachers investment is their paycheck.

When I found out I was pregnant I knew I wanted to go midwife. All six children I had them in the traditional, hospital way. With Noah I tried very hard to put into affect the way I would have liked to have him delivered, but again conformed to what the medical facility stated what was best, being ignorant of the truth of the matter. Since then I have learned even more. Midwife was the first thing that popped in my mind with baby Eliana- but fear took over when things turned in the beginning of the pregnancy and I had things happen that had never happened with any other pregnancy, so I ended up in a doctor's office, why? Because I was brain washed believing that only a doctor could take care of me and baby in this situation.... That is such a lie.. Midwives have been caring for pregnant moms, and delivering babies since Christ walked this earth. Yet our society has stated the best place for you and baby is with a doctor, in a hospital....

We have even conformed to society when it comes to marriage for young people. There was a time you graduated from high school, and the next step was marriage. Now you graduate from high school, college, and even graduate school before society says NOW you are ready for marriage... really? At this point more than half of your adult life is gone... invested in yourself and not in what the Lord would have had you invest in which is future generations, things that pertain to His kingdom. note- I have nothing against furthering education-- if it is the Lord's will for you what I am speaking of here is the fact that this society is stating now that 19,20,21 is too young to be married... since when? Since society has stated it is, since working on self, developing self, and educating self has become more important than doing the Lord's will. (I have thought these thoughts-- shame on me!)

One thing that just seems to stick out in my mind from Voddie's sermon is how he stated that the most growing up he did was AFTER he got married. When I exam myself-- it is true, that is when I grew up as well. Went from thinking of just me, my needs, or wants to those needs of the ones I love.

Wow-- we don't even realize how much we really do not think for ourselves. We let society mandate what we are going to do, how we are going to do it, and even when.

Lord-- help us to turn our brains on. Help us to think as you would want us to, to allow you to guide our steps, and not be fearful of society. Lord give us strength to be people who stand out, and stand up!!

In Jesus Name....Amen


Thursday, June 16, 2011

New/old friends...

I know the title has made you go hmmm, right?
Let me explain, we have had the priviledge and the blessing to have met new friends the Bucklins for the first time in the 6 years that we have known them. (old friends)

We met the Bucklins through a reversal ministry that "fell apart" not long after we met. In that time, we(the Bucklins and the Sellers) knew we could not let a ministry like that just die, so we started The Lord's Heritage. A reversal ministry that was for those who realize that children are a heritage from the Lord and get convicted of taking matters into their own hands instead allowing God be who he is, God. But in the time of establishing the ministry and over the years, all correspondence with this winderful family has always been with phone calls, email,facebook and photos. For the first time we have been able to talk to them face to face, and truly fellowship.

It has been such a blessing, because though distance ,family obligations, and finances has kept us apart it was like an old friend has walked through the door.

See this is an example of how the Lord can use the internet to bless and be a blessing.

Welcome Bucklins to our home, our hearts and our family forever!


Here the Bucklins with most of the Sellers- (Alex is missing)

Blessing to you and yours...

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Last few days....

past few days have been busy. It started Friday with Maria and Joey's CCA(Commonwealth Connections Academy) end of the school year celebration. We celebrated at Hershey Park. It was fun to see all the teachers that have been answering emails, and helping them make it through their classes... side note I still homeschool- but Maria and Joseph actually are cyberschooling.

Here is a photo of Joseph with his and Reia's homeroom teacher-

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Saturday the gang refereed all day- which meant mom did alot of running around.

Sunday, we went to church and then were blessed to spend the evening hanging out with our Pastor and his family

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Monday... I spent the day cleaning my living room and office.. rearranging furniture. One thing I always do... move things around. I know a blind person would go crazy in my home.. because I am constantly moving my furniture.

On a more spiritual note.. I had start the journey of the bible in 365 days through the bible. I am excited because I am on day 18! What an accomplishment for me. I normally start and after a few days I get busy and never go back to it. I have not been faithful to do it every single day- or will be much further(Lord forgive me!!) But to be at day 18 is something to sing praises to!!!

Saints in this journey I would love for yall to ask me every once and awhile what day I am on!! Keep me accountable!



Saturday, June 4, 2011

My sisters Blog


My sister has finally made the plunge into the world of blogging!
She is the most creative and artistic person I know. She is my counterpart, my opposite. Where she is creative, artistic and amazing, I am organized, serious, and much more conservative. The two us together make the best team!

Here is her blog:
check it out,she will be posting how to videos, and sharing her artistic, creative talents!

Trust me her blog is worth following!


Thursday, June 2, 2011

them getting bigger, it gets easier....

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whoever told me that was lying with a capital L.

Children getting older does not mean they get easier!! Actually the older they get the more complicated things become. When they were young they were so willing to help. If mom was cleaning they wanted to clean too, if mom was doing laundry they wanted to help fold. Now.. ugh to get them to pick up their own dirty clothes, fold their own stuff, and put it away is like having a root canal! And opinions fly as fast as the attitude comes... pet peeve- ATTITUDE!  Some would say they get it honestly...hush is what I would say. (haha)

Grown children are not easy ladies. Especially when you worked so hard to raise them in the Word of the Lord, and spent lots of time discipling, guiding and praying with each of them. You keep guiding them away from the pits and darkness towards the light. It gets very tiring and sometimes you just want to let go of the wheel... but we can't we must stand steadfast. Be warriors for them, guiding them still in this crucial time in their lives, when they are surround by the whispering of the world saying..."you don't have to listen to them" "you dont have do what they say" "you are an adult now, you can do whatever you feel like" " you are old enough to make your own decisions"- I honestly believe those are trapping... trappings to keep our young adults in sin. Trappings to keep them from honoring the Lord through honoring their parents.

Just because society says they are old enough to go out on their own doesnt mean that is right. I can say with out the lack of experience and knowledge making the right decision for a young person is so difficult. Which voice are they to listen too? The flesh pulls so hard that sometimes they feel like it is the right decision, and in the end find it was the total wrong decision...(am I making any sense or am I just rambling?)

Tell me what is wrong with young adults seeking guidance from their parents even at this age? What is wrong with them taking every decision they are making to their parents, so they can be sure they are thinking righteously? What is wrong with them living at home?  As believers are we not suppose to do things differently than society?

Sin is anything worldly that pulls us away from Christ and to our own flesh....

So I pray that Lord continue to strength me, and give me wisdom as I continue to guide my young adults on their path towards Christ and life... I hope you will do the same...

Opening my eyes so I may see. The visions of truth the Lord has for me and them!


Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Fun in the Sun

Ducky has gotten a pool in the back yard. It is not a very big pool, but it is big enough for some of his older brothers to sit in it with him and play with him. He loves it and has had a blast playing in it.

Even the next door neighbors dog has a small pool...

Maggie our Neighbors dog

Have fun this summer... stay cool...


Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Re-examining my heart....

The past few days I have been thinking about where I was spiritually last year and where I am today. I am so sad to say that I am not where I would like to be. Actually I would say I have regressed so tremendously and I have no idea what the cause of it was? Where the regression and compromise began?

How did it get to this?? I want to know the cause becuase how do you prevent it from happening in the future if you dont know when and where it began? Am I making any sense to anyone out there?

It is always good to look back, to exam our hearts to see where we were and where we are... It is always a reminder of the LORD's grace and mercy. His provisions and protection in our lives as we walk forward and look back and see all He has done. It is still true inspite of my regression and compromise-He has guided me, protected me, provided, and strengthened me in times of weakness. 

I often wonder why? I certainly do not deserve it!!  But yet known of us do, do we?

I am trying to find my way back but am sure how to really do it, so I ask for you to pray for me!  I ask that the Lord open my eyes so that I may see...

Thank you

A wandering Sheep in search of Her SHEPHERD


Thursday, May 19, 2011

Graduation and pregnancy....

It's unbelievable that time has gone by that fast that I have two that have graduated from High School. Home schooling them was the hardest thing I have ever done, but I am grateful and thankful that I did it, and the Lord gave me the strength to get through it.


Alex will be starting college the fall and heading to chiropractic school.


Samuel also will start college in the fall in hopes to get into sports medicine.

On another note my pregnancy is going well. I am now 20 weeks and can feel the baby move and kick.


We found out Tuesday we are having another girl. Our second girl in a house of boys! Maria and I are so excited. We have someone we can dress in pink and make pretty! My pretty princess will now see how wonderful it is to have a sister even if there is 16 years between them. She will be the most amazing big sister!

I am trying to figure out what to do to get myself back to blogging.... Have any of you been through a dry spell like this?

Thanks to those of you who stay faithful and come and read.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

What Kind of Sower are You?

Mark 4:3-8
3 “Listen! Consider the sower who went out to sow. 4 As he sowed, this occurred: Some seed fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5 Other seed fell on rocky ground where it didn’t have much soil, and it sprang up right away, since it didn’t have deep soil. 6 When the sun came up, it was scorched, and since it didn’t have a root, it withered. 7 Other seed fell among thorns, and the thorns came up and choked it, and it didn’t produce a crop. 8 Still others fell on good ground and produced a crop that increased 30, 60, and 100 times what was sown.”

Jesus' explanation of this parable:
Mark 4:14-20
14 The sower sows the word. 15 These are the ones along the path where the word is sown: when they hear, immediately Satan comes and takes away the word sown in them. 16 And these are the ones sown on rocky ground: when they hear the word, immediately they receive it with joy. 17 But they have no root in themselves; they are short-lived. When pressure or persecution comes because of the word, they immediately stumble. 18 Others are sown among thorns; these are the ones who hear the word, 19 but the worries of this age, the seduction of wealth, and the desires for other things enter in and choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful. 20 But the ones sown on good ground are those who hear the word, welcome it, and produce a crop: 30, 60, and 100 times what was sown.”

As I read these words I wonder which sower am I, which sower are you?

The sower that hears the Word and satan comes and steals it from you?

Or the sower who receives the Word with joy but you have no roots - it is short lived inside you?

Or are you the sower whose seed land among the thorns, your worries and money dominate over the Word that lives within you?

Or are you the sower that recieves the Word of God from where ever it comes, welcomes it, and realizes the gift that has been given unto you?

I see myself in each one of these sower... My greatest desire is to see myself in only the last one.
The one that welcomes the Word, and realizes the gift that has been given and is ready to reap a harvest...

Dear Saints, Sisters- we have one life, one walk with Christ... How are we sewing?

May this speak to you as it has me...


Saturday, April 9, 2011

Family Betrayal

Mark 3:21 When His family heard this, they set out to restrain Him, because they said, “He’s out of His mind.”

I am having a hard time understanding why Mary would do this to her Son? She knew how she conceived Him and knew who He was? Why would she say He is "out of his mind"?

Families, the ones in your life you are suppose to be able to rely on. The ones who are suppose to be the most encouraging,and have the most faith in you are the ones that cause you greatest disappointment.

I wonder how Jesus felt knowing this how His family felt and thought of Him? Betrayed, as we do or would?

How many of you have felt that same kind betrayal from your family?

What was Jesus' answer to that betrayal?

Mark 3:33-35
33 He replied to them, “Who are My mother and My brothers?” 34 And looking about at those who were sitting in a circle around Him, He said, “Here are My mother and My brothers! 35 Whoever does the will of God is My brother and sister and mother.”

It is hard for us to understand why our family would not love us unconditionally, as Christ would. It is hard to understand why they wouldnot be encouraging. Sometimes the pain is to great to bare. The wonderful thing about Christ is He does understand and has walked the path before us and has endured to show us just how to endure.

Here He reminds us that is our family will not be encouraging, loving, you find love and encouragement through the body of Christ.

Be encourage Saints and Sisters knowing our Savior walks before us

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I won- really?

On Saturday I receive this text message from one of my BFF's. She says I need your address. I am thinking ok- well I know she wants to send me some CDs of Tony Evans. Then she goes on to tell me that I won her contest she was having on her blog...I won? I never win at anything I told her.

She is very talented and sews things for new mamas. She makes nursing capes, bibs, even bedding, you should check out her store :

She is also a blogger as well- woman of many talents- you will find that out if you read her blog...

Thanks Tasha for blessing this mama not only by selecting me to win, but being a sister in Christ and my best friend.

Love you girl

Monday, March 28, 2011

Why people Fall by Pastor David Smith

Yesterday was an excellent sermon by our new pastor. He has been speaking on the topic of temptation and this sermon of course ties into that , Why People Fall?

The text comes from Proverbs 7-
1 My son, keep my words, And lay up my commandments with thee. 2 Keep my commandments and live; And my law as the apple of thine eye. 3 Bind them upon thy fingers; Write them upon the tablet of thy heart. 4 Say unto wisdom, Thou art my sister; And call understanding thy kinswoman: 5 That they may keep thee from the strange woman, From he foreigner that flattereth with her words. 6 For at the window of my house I looked forth through my lattice; 7 And I beheld among the simple ones, I discerned among the youths, A young man void of understanding, 8 Passing through the street near her corner; And he went the way to her house, 9 In the twilight, in the evening of the day, In the middle of the night and in the darkness. 10 And, behold, there met him a woman With the attire of a harlot, and wily of heart. 11 She is clamorous and wilful; Her feet abide not in her house: 12 Now she is in the streets, now in the broad places, And lieth in wait at every corner. 13 So she caught him, and kissed him, And with an impudent face she said unto him: 14 Sacrifices of peace-offerings are with me; This day have I paid my vows. 15 Therefore came I forth to meet thee, Diligently to seek thy face, and I have found thee. 16 I have spread my couch with carpets of tapestry, With striped cloths of the yarn of Egypt. 17 I have perfumed my bed With myrrh, aloes, and cinnamon. 18 Come, let us take our fill of love until the morning; Let us solace ourselves with loves. 19 For the man is not at home; He is gone a long journey: 20 He hath taken a bag of money with him; He will come home at the full moon. 21 With her much fair speech she causeth him to yield; With the flattering of her lips she forceth him along. 22 He goeth after her straightway, As an ox goeth to the slaughter, Or as one in fetters to the correction of the fool; 23 Till an arrow strike through his liver; As a bird hasteth to the snare, And knoweth not that it is for his life. 24 Now therefore, my sons, hearken unto me, And attend to the words of my mouth. 25 Let not thy heart decline to her ways; Go not astray in her paths. 26 For she hath cast down many wounded: Yea, all her slain are a mighty host. 27 Her house is the way to Sheol, Going down to the chambers of death.


I. They fail to follow God's Word ( Proverbs 7:1-6)
A. They fail to retain God's Word
B. They fail to rely on God's Word
C. They fail to revere God's Word
D. They fail to review God's Word
E. They fail to relish God's Word

II. They fail to learn lessons from life ( Proverbs 7:7)

III. They fail to make wise choices in advance ( Proverbs 7:8)
Be careful being alone too much!!!! If you know you are vulnerable in certain areas then Don't Go There!!!

IV. They fail to live wisely

V. They fail to be mindful of darkness ( Job 24:15)

VI. They fail recognize sin's appeal ( Proverbs 7:10-12)

VII. They fail to recognize the power of the appeal ( Proverbs 7:13-19)

A. She is purified
B. She is prepared
C. She is passionate
D. She is persuasive

VIII. They fail to see beyond the immediate (Proverb 7:19-23)

IX. They fail to see the obvious (Proverb 7:24-27)

A. Her victims are many
B. Her house leads to death.

My commentary

So many of us want to blame God for the things in our lives that are not right but what it truly boils down to is - WE FAIL TO FOLLOW GOD'S WORD. Following God's Word does not guarantee a life of perfection, no hardships or struggles, NO. What it does guarantee is when the temptations come we will see them for what they are, when the hardships come we will lean on the Father for strength and comfort. We find no comfort in Him or in His Word because of the sin that is running our hearts and lives.

This sin leads to death first in our hearts( lack of forgiveness), then in our lives(lack of love or compassion) and then true death.( separation for our Father eternally)

Thank you Lord for this great Word. Thank you for this reminder to me how important your Word is in my life!

Be blessed dear friends, sisters!


Thursday, March 24, 2011

New Beginnings, New church

The one thing about moving is new beginnings you get to experience. It is always difficult because we have to start over in church, making friends, find doctors among so many other things that come with moves.

This move has been no different. It gets lonely at times having to start over and make friends.The Lord has blessed us though, by bringing us to a church that we all really love right away. Grace Fellowship is a fellowship not only with GREAT strong leadership, but you see the love of Christ within the fellowship. Two things that were important to us. WE pray and hope that we can find our place in this place and do what the Lord has called us to do- serve!(pray for us)

What else- I am growing-

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baby is strong, nausea has subsided some but not completely. I am tired MOST of the time, and feel very blessed to have a new life growing with in me. Even as shocking as it was for us, the Lord has a purpose for this life.

The family is adjusting to all the changes and we are grateful for the GRACE the Lord continues to bestow on us!

Thank you to all those who are praying for me!



Wednesday, March 16, 2011

trusting the Lord

These past few weeks have been very difficult for me. Each day a challenge, and full of fear that the precious gift the Lord has given us - the Baby will survive. For those of you who don't know the Lord has blessed us with another pregnancy.

The beginning has a been rocky. Different than all the other pregnancies. I have a hematoma in my uterus which of course has caused some bleeding. My doctor is not worried, baby is growing and has a very strong heart beat. It has left me in fear because this is uncharted territory for me. In the past I become pregnant and have no complications, nothing out of the ordinary. This hematoma has brought a different aspect to this pregnancy and has left me fearful of a loss.

I have had to come to a place where my fear I had to lay at the feet of the cross, and know that the Lord has all things in the palm of his hands.He blessed us with this life and this life is HIS to mold and shape.

The pregnancy is going normal per say. Morning sickness has taken over. I spend most days forcing food down my throat to keep myself from throwing up but that doesn't always work. (i have gained 12 pounds-ugh) I am tired, and have become very dependent on my children and husband to take care of everything in the home in this stage.

I will be 3 months on Monday- and my body is starting to show pregnancy. Pants do not fit, and its all about comfort right now.

Dear sisters- please lift me in prayer each day that I lay my trust in the Creator and the one who has all things in His hands.

Thank you
Angie- daughter of the King of Kings!

Friday, March 4, 2011

Prayer of my heart

My heart, my prayer-

Psalm 143

1Hear my prayer, O Jehovah; give ear to my supplications:
In thy faithfulness answer me, and in thy righteousness.
2And enter not into judgment with thy servant;
For in thy sight no man living is righteous.
3For the enemy hath persecuted my soul;
He hath smitten my life down to the ground:
He hath made me to dwell in dark places, as those that have been long dead.
4Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me;
My heart within me is desolate.
5I remember the days of old;
I meditate on all thy doings;
I muse on the work of thy hands.
6I spread forth my hands unto thee:
My soul thirsteth after thee, as a weary land.
7Make haste to answer me, O Jehovah; my spirit faileth:
Hide not thy face from me,
Lest I become like them that go down into the pit.
8Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning;
For in thee do I trust:
Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk;
For I lift up my soul unto thee.
9Deliver me, O Jehovah, from mine enemies:
I flee unto thee to hide me.
10Teach me to do thy will;
For thou art my God:
Thy Spirit is good;
Lead me in the land of uprightness.
11Quicken me, O Jehovah, for thy name's sake:
In thy righteousness bring my soul out of trouble.
12And in thy lovingkindness cut off mine enemies,
And destroy all them that afflict my soul;
For I am thy servant.

I love you Lord

Monday, February 28, 2011

News from PA

Dear Friends

It has been a while- seems to be the themes of all my posts lately. But life has been on busy side since I arrived here in PA. Helping in dads school, trying to spend time with my parents as much as I can, in between helping Paul get started with college, he is also working. I also have been helping the other boys finish high school to be sure that they participate in graduation by May 14th. Yes finally two more will be graduating, it will be over, this phase of their life anyway.

Maria and Joey are doing ABSOLUTELY wonderful in cyberschool. Which makes me very happy and reassures me that this was a good decision for them. Noah is growing and more than ready to start learning, but time seems to be an issue and I have NO idea where to start. The typical going over his ABC's seems to bore him out of his mind. So I have to come up with a better way. I will start researching kindergarten curriculum, any suggestions would be greatly appreciated from other homeschoolers.



Thursday, February 3, 2011

Losing Touch

Dear Friends...

please pray for me and my family. We are losing touch of our faith. This move has taken a toll on us spiritually. Moving also means trying to find a church, and honestly Sam and I just do not have the energy to church hop. We just do not want to go through the normal going into a church, never being noticed or never feeling welcoming, going through the motions congregations.  Its every where all across America desperate souls walk into a church seeking a family, and they walk away wondering where is the love of Christ?!

Be careful dear saints, open your eyes.. we do not go to church to feel good or for ourselves, we go to glorify Christ and be a part of the body... when was the last time you went up to a total stranger in church and showed them the love of Christ? When was the last time you opened your home to those you do not know?

I think its time we show others how much Christ loves them


Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Glorifying Christ in all you do

Since I have arrived in Pa.. I have been working. It is the
first time in years that I have worked. Not because I had to, to
help pay a bill, or catch us up, but to bless another and meet the
need of another. I have been out of the work place for a while. Not
having to deal with people on this level. I can say it is not easy
to show the love of Christ to those who really just have NO CLUE.
Since arriving here these pressing thoughts have been in my mind-
Where is the work ethic? Where is loyalty to your job or your
co-workers? What happened to treating to others as you would want
to be treated? Where is the principle if you are asked to go one
mile go the extra mile? I was raised by Catholic Christians during
the school year and a Pentecostal Christian in the summer. Yes each
doctrine seems to be miles apart from each other never even
touching. Through both of these exposures I knew there is a God, a
creator of the Universe, One who directs our paths, and whom we
will answer to one day for ALL that we have said and done.(Matthew
12:36-37) The thought that I will give an account for every thing I
say and do kind of scares me. For those of you who know me knows I
have every reason to be scared. (haha) Working is no different,
what is your testimony to those around you? Are those around you
believers or lost souls? If they are lost souls, do you show them
the principles taught in the word? Do you turn the other cheek? Do
you go the extra mile? Do you treat others as you would want to be
treated? Or do you come in just like they do, complaining, and
wishing you were not there in the first place? Lord help me to be
an example to of all these things that are pressing on my heart.
Help me to be your living example... Angie

Saturday, January 8, 2011


Its always fun to be recognized by another blogger. They let you know how much they love your blog, your thoughts, or even just the design of your blog... Thanks Wendy at FAiths Firm foundation

Rules for accepting this award are:
1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you this.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Pay it forward to 15 (or however many you want) recently discovered great bloggers.
4. Contact those bloggers and tell them about their Blog Award!

7 things about myself: 

1. I am married to a wonderful,Godly man-Samuel

2. I am a mother of six wonderful Warriors for Christ.

3. I love photography- no kidding really.. just lately have not had time to pick my camera up.

4. Pennsylvania is the state I grew up in and is where my heart lies. I love this state.

5. My sister Melissa is my best friend. My heart hurts for her presents in my life. She is fun, funny and just someone everyone loves.

6. I am a servant of Jesus Christ.

7. I am getting ready to go back to college....

Ok 7 non exciting things about myself there you have it...

on to sharing this with
Marsha at Other Such Happenings

Samuel at Rise up of Men of God

Joanna at
Where truth and Mercy Meet

Thanks Again Wendy!!


Friday, January 7, 2011

hello again

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Time passes so fast. Each day seems to blend into the other. The house is all unpacked- kind of. We still have odds and ends here and there to unpack but for the most part essentials, and rooms are unpacked. Christmas came and went-which by the way was pleasant to be in our own home to celebrate the birth of Christ

Dad and his crew

Mom and all her babes

2011 is here for us all. I am looking forward to seeing what the Lord is doing in 2011.  There are lots of things happening here:

My eldest has started his first full time job. This is a job that we have prayed for. One that took over a year for the Lord to grant. It has been his first few days so it is hard to tell how it will work out but I am grateful to the Lord for answered prayer.

Joey and Maria are starting cyber-schooling. We are heading in a different direction with homeschooling. It is not a direction I thought we would ever go in, but at this point I can say I am tired. I am burnt out and done carrying a load in our lives that was not meant for me to carry alone.

They are both very excited about this new venture. I am of course apprehensive about it because this involves the state. We all know that sometimes getting the state involved can be messy. I am leaning on the GRACE of the Lord knowing that ALL things lie in HIS hands!

Sam is working hard. He got a job with the union two weeks before we moved into this house. The hours are strange 5pm-3am.. it is rough for him. Very cold nights, and he has to sleep all day so seeing us during the day is minimal, because he wakes up to get ready for work. As for me I don't get to see him, because usually I am at work when he is here. Sometimes I feel like we have not seen each other at all which we have not gotten to share hearts with each other either.

Myself.. well I have started working. I took on helping my dad at the school and have been there ever since. In this season in my life this is what I feel like God has for me. I love the children. They are all so sweet. I get to hold and love on babies whenever I want. I look to forward to seeing where the Lord leads.. for where HE leads I will follow.



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