This morning as I spent time in the Word, then read some blogs I watch this video that a mom was sharing on being a mom... in the video she said something to me that truly hit home... not that it was something new or something I havent heard before but it was something I actually needed reminded of. Being a mother for 21 years I still need to be reminded from time to time where my strength comes from... It is definitely not myself. The Lord is my strength. The Holy Spirit is the only way I can guide these souls in the right direction. I get so weary at times. Raising or shall I say guiding older children is so much harder then dealing with little ones and disciplining. There are times I want to just throw in the towel and say I don't care, do whatever you want because it is not like you are listening anyway so don't pretend that you are or don't come to me because Ive already told you and I don't want to hear it. (are you shocked) Yes I am human with a sinful and ugly heart that has moments of ugliness.
Today I was reminded that I have been trying to do this guiding thing on my own. I cant do it on my own. If I do it on my own I get frustrated, disgusted and yes angry. I have to allow GOD... Oh I know it is hard to do. You want to "help" but honestly without the Holy Spirit is it really help??
I am praising the Lord for the reminder... May HE strengthen us all through these moments....
Angie
Thank you so much for that reminder as well. I too have that same heart and have to surrender it to the Lord daily!!!
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