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Friday, June 22, 2012

7 days of Hope for a Weary Mom- Day 7

 

 

 

Yes I did it.. 7 days... I made it thru..it took me a little longer but I did all 7 posts and you know what each day spoke to me and today is no different.

The title to this chapter was titled " When life hurts too much"

The author starts off by talking about a loss of a child from the womb. She does not go into detail of the situation, but she speaks about this moment when she was sitting in church surrounded by children, newborns, and expected mothers and she closed her eyes to shut out all the new life and joy that seemed to surround her and she realized she had her hand on her stomach. In that moment she whispered " I miss you" to that child she had lost.

1.It’s easy to say we believe God is good and that He always wants our best, but when the difficult times come
the truth of what we really believe often says something totally different.
Have you ever experienced a time when you questioned everything you knew to be true about God?


My heart knows that kind of pain, that loss of a life. I also know the doubts that go through your mind about the Lord that come with that pain. The doubts that whether or not He is truly God,if He was and He says He loves me why would he let something like a miscarriage happen to someone who wanted the blessing he bestowed? All the whys flood your heart, and you wonder what you could have done differently?


2. Have you decided that Jesus holds the words of eternal life?

As I wept for my loss,for the life that no longer lived within me I prayed for an understanding which never really came. What I did receive was a peace knowing that though I did not know why, He knew, and He was the creator and as fast as that life was given it could be taken. Each day we receive to live our lives is a gift given to us to fulfill His will and bring Him glory and honor.


3.What does that mean when life doesn’t go the way you want it to go?

It means that I have another opportunity to praise Our Lord Jesus and He gives me another opportunity to respond and grow closer to Him...

Ladies yes I am a weary Mom but I can't imagine how heavy my weariness would be if I did not have my Lord and Savior to guide me and give me strength.

 

Rejoicing in Him

Angie




 

Thursday, June 21, 2012

7 days of Hope for a Weary Mom- Day 6

Ok I know if you look at the dates you will see I am few days behind... Well more than a few but I decided no matter what I was going to see this thru.

 

This chapter " Sometimes it takes an Alter" reminds me of my own testimony.. I won't get into all the details.(I will save that for another day another post) Anyway, I was a young mom, all my children were young and I was so unsure and depression,sadness, even anger controlled my life. Till one day I came to the alter...there in my flowing wailing tears I found true release and felt the presence of our Lord. So yes sometimes in the deepest most desperate,weariest time..you must come to the alter to find true relief.

Have you ever just wanted to walk away? No in most weariest( I know not a word) moments I have clung to the Cross.

Stacey and Brooke both have family members who walked away when the weariness became too much. What has kept you from leaving in the past? Knowing that I can not do things in my own strength and I am weary because I keep trying to do it my way.


Some people think the only place where you can find an altar is at church. But that’s not true!


  1. God, because of Jesus, is available anywhere, anytime to His people! If there’s something you need to confess, something that’s weighing on your heart or keeping you from experiencing joy in your life, quiet yourself where you are and talk to God about it. Where can you go in your house (or anywhere else) that can double as an altar?
Lord I ask that you forgive me for doing things in my own understanding, for relying on myself and not seeking your face as I should. Lord I am weary.... But you are the giver of strength, you make all things new. Restore unto me a fresh outlook, help me Holy Spirit to seek first the Kingdom of heaven and His righteousness....to God be the Glory- Amen

 

Seeking His Kingdom

Angie

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

7 days of Hope for a Weary Mom- day 5

Ok take two... Ugh.. All the words seem to just flow and now I need to start all over because I lost it so Lord help those words to come to me again....

 

"WHEN YOU JUST WANT TO GIVE UP" was the title to this chapter and boy did the words just seem like I was speaking them...

She starts out by saying..." a mother's heart labors over her children. Pulling, tugging, coaxing,dragging,pushing,begging...all in the name of love" That is exactly how I have been feeling, how I have felt for at least the last ten years.

" those of us who really look see our children not just as they are but as they can be, might be one day." Yes those words ring so true...that's it... If only. If only they understood or just knew...that " Mothering demands body,soul,mind, and heart" Mothering is not for the weak hearted, it takes strength and courage. Why courage? Courage because you go in knowing that you will never be so hurt or wounded by anyone or anything as you can be by your children. The hurt can run so deep that you wonder if that aching in your heart will ever go away. On the same token you will never experience so much happiness, your heart will feel like it will burst from those same children. So it is not for the weak hearted.

Have you ever felt like Peter did after that night of fishing?

Yes numerous of times... I have wanted to just give up because I just couldn't and still can't see why...But sometimes the things of the Lord are not for our feeble minds to understand.

Ever wondered how in the world you would ever find the strength to try one more time?

My little voice inside reminds me that the Lord has not and will not ever give up on me.... That is what keeps me stepping forward and sometimes when I am on my face it's my beloved husband who bends down, dusts me off and allows me to lean on him. Which is a physical manifestation of what the Heavenly Father does for me.


What does “God meeting you in your mess” mean to you?

He meets me right in the midst of my messy, unruly heart to help me to find peace.

Do you expect God to change your environment, or to get it in with you, giving you the tools you need to make it?

I expect from my Lord what the Words says..." Seek and ye shall find, knock and the door shall be open"


Are you ready to proclaim to the world that you will never give up on your family and never give up on God’s ability to work in the hearts of your children?


First and foremost I will never give up on my Lord... As He leads I will follow. He has lead me to be a wife and mother, and I will continue in that task...even when I am weak, seeking strength from Him and moving forward even when it seems like I am going backwards.

 

I am on this boat till the Lord takes me home or He returns again...

Angie

 

Monday, June 18, 2012

7 days of Hope for a Weary Mom-Day 4

Well I have not been as diligent as I would have liked on this 7 days of Hope... But I am going to keep chugging along...This chapter I really could not relate with because there are a few times I have ever been without my children. I have never ever been to a spa.

 


What things do you love to do to relieve stress? I like to read and I love to sew and crochet so those things are my stress relievers


 


How often do you retreat into the comfort of God’s Word?

Not often enough... But I am learning:)

 

 


When you are feeling bone-weary like Stacey describes in this section, how does it affect your homeschool?

If I am bone weary yes i take a break. How productive am I if I keep going inspite of my weariness...NOT VERY!


 

But you know there are times when I wonder if getting away for a short period with no phone, Internet or connection to the outside world would be just what I need to restore my weary soul but then those responsibilities and guilt sets in of even thinking that way... How about you?

 

 

 

Angie

 

Thursday, June 14, 2012

7 days of Hope for a Weary mom- Day 3

 


  • 1. Where do you usually turn for relief? Can you relate to the story Brooke shared in this chapter of feeling completely overwhelmed?
When I was a younger mother I turned to my friends for relief when I was overwhelmed.... I am not a young mother with 5 young ones 5 and under. Now those 5 are 21,20,18,16, and 15. I search for relief in scripture and sometimes I find that peace in Him right away and other times, I have to search harder.

  • 2. Have you gotten to the place of total breakdown? What did it look like for you?
    Yes I have and it was not a pretty sight. It involved lots of yelling and crying... Now when that feeling of being overwhelmed comes over me my heart starts to hurt because I know I have failed again.
Now I have two more little ones... One is 5 and the other is 8 months and I am trying to figure out how I can make things right for them so I don't make the same mistakes.

 

Desperately seeking Christ

 

Angie

7 days of Hope for a Weary Mom- Day 2

 

 

Yes already I am behind... What else is new.....

  1. Do you have areas of your life where you constantly struggle?
Where do you want me to start...really.. Let me see laundry is always a pile, my room could use some attention and so could my sunroom. There are days when I am on the ball but lately those days have been few and far in between.


..Maybe your dishes are piled sky high, or your laundry looks like a small mountain. When you look at those visible signs of struggle, what are the first words that pop into your head?




Ugh there is just not enough time in the day!




  1. If God were telling you how to feel about yourself based on those areas of struggle, would His voice be the same as the one you hear in your mind?
No most likely not!


  1. How often do you catch yourself comparing your home, job, income, or parenting to someone else?
Very few times have I compared my home... We are a different family. A family who try to live for the Lord and our home functions differently.




So day two was about measuring up... My issue is measuring up spiritually. I know that I don't measure up in so many ways and wonder why my Lord decided to use me to raise Godly seed. In so many ways I have failed Him. Many times I feel that failure so deeply when my children make mistakes and then I wonder where I went wrong :(




Stick around

LEts see what day 3 has to hold.




Angie

 

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

7 days of Hope for a Weary Mom



Day 1(take 2)

I have written this blog twice so by the Lords grace... I won't lose it again...

Mob society and Hope for a weary mom are hosting 7 days of Hope for a weary mom.


  1. What does weary look like in your home? Describe the physical as well as emotional toll weariness takes on you.

  1. Weary for me has been such a heaviness in my soul and aching in my heart, a wondering why?My heart aches because what I see in my children, the decisions they make or not make scare me, I am worried and unsure of why I have done what I have done for the last 10 years.( homeschooling, devotions with themU each day, prayer as a family on our knees...) I wonder what is all for? Why care? Why make all the sacrifices when they get old enough all they do is sin, justifying their sin by your mistakes? Why even try to live in righteousness for our Lord?
  2. Ten years ago the Lord brought revelation in our lives, a renewing of our minds through the Word and realization that living for Him meant alot more than just going to church on Sunday. We also came to a place in realizing that we were releasing our children to Ceasar each day, allowing the ungodly philosophies to be embedded in their souls and trying to counteract it with a total of 4-5 hours of " church" a week. If you do the math you will realize we were losing the battle. So the journey began of homeschooling and installing the Word of God in them each day. Now I have three that have graduated, I have 5 children that work outside of our home and I am scared. I am scared because I see them making decisions or not speaking up for the righteousness that we, through the Word of God, have tried to instill in them. It has made me wonder why all the sacrifice if they are going to forsake all? Why be on my knees? Why be different than this world if the result is no different than whose eyes are not open? My heart is aching and my soul is weary....
Where do you turn first for comfort and relief?

I turn to the Word of the Lord for comfort because there is no where else to turn. I have no one around me I can share things with so on my knees and at the feet of Jesus I go

 

Praying this journey will bring me comfort....so will you join me on this walk for the next 7 days?

 

Angie

 

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