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Watching one suffer


Even in this picture though he is smiling he is in pain.

Guess one of the hardest things as a stay at home-wife is watching your husband suffer and struggle  just to do regular things to provide.(like getting dress each day or sleeping) My beloved has been suffering in last few months with lots of pain.He has very bad arthritis in his neck and hips and a bulging disk in back.His need to provide for this very large family leaves him at times with this responsibility to do more than just the nine to five job 5 days a week. 

 I get frustrated because I feel like  he should be taking better care of himself, taking opportunities to rest and put his feet up when needed but he doesn't take those times. My frustration comes from worry and hurt because I can't fix him or make his pain go away. These are the times when I am challenged spiritually, when I know what the Lord's Word says" let him ask and I will give him the desires of His heart." I repeatedly ask for a miraculous healing for his servant. I see my beloved and know HE IS WORTHY of GOD to intervene, but then I have to digest that it is NOT HIS WILL.  How? How do I sit here and watch him struggle and suffer to endure and get through each day? Sometimes I JUST WANT TO SCREAM in agony for him. My heart hurts and I think "Lord how much more can he endure?" How much more can he go without even being able to  bend over to tie his sons shoes?

 PLEASE LORD intervene.. I am not worthy to ask anything of you. I am not worthy to come before your throne, but be merciful to your servant who loves you so much, and  is not able to function or think of anything else but getting through each working day, and getting home. 

How sisters do you deal with suffering that you see your beloved go through? 
What do you do? 

Griefly Yours 
Angie

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  1. COUNTRY MOMApril 11, 2013 at 11:49 PM

    I am so very sorry that your husband is and has been in pain. I can only imagine how hard that must be. I know when my husband is sick, the only thing I can do, is to get him to rest and pray. I will pray for your husband to be healed, and no longer be in pain. Thoughts and Prayers are with yall.

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