Tuesday, December 30, 2014

giving up

Many of you who follow my blog are believers in Christ Jesus. So the story of Hannah is not unfamiliar to you. Hannah was a woman who was barren and was taunted by the second wife. The torment each day, and each year this woman endured. I can only imagine year after year she poured out her heart to God, pleading, and crying but this year was different ,this year Hannah made a vow that if she was to have a son she would give the son to the Lord and that she would be sure he never cut his hair.

This is a woman who desperately desired a child and was willing to give the child up for just the experience of having a child. Her love for the Lord was so great that she was willing to give the baby to the Lord if He would give her one.

Parents are you willing to do that?. In the wake of our trial as I reflect on the fears, uncertainties and all the emotions, my mind often came to this, Hannah so willing to give her child to the Lord. As a momma this question was posed to me in the midst of the trial- "will you still worship Him and love the Lord if they do remove babygirl from your home?"

Those words were like a stab to my heart and I sat there with no true words, but a broken heart not knowing what I would do or how I would react. Truth be told we say the right things, and act like good Christians till the trial of a life time comes. Then the reaction is to retreat, close yourself off, maybe even turn to sin for comfort. Lord I praise you- thank you for your presence because through this trial that is not what we did. We did not retreat, we begged our brothers and sisters to pray and though at times I struggled to pray, the Word of the Lord bombarded my heart mind and soul to give me comfort. My beloved husband that at loss because this trial was beyond our control and he could not fix this, he walked around aimlessly unsure what to do with him, sick to his stomach constantly, but he sought comfort in our Lord.

As a bible study we have trudging along in 1 Peter and 1 Peter came alive in my life through this trial. Suffering, trials, and loss are what we are to endure in this life. It is all over scripture. There is a misconception in believing that enduring means we smile, and act happy. One wise sister told - Angie being a good Christians doesn't mean your feelings go away. Doesn't mean you don't have fears, doubts, and wonder but it is what you do with that that shows your faith. Do you cry out to the Lord?

To often giving up or giving in to sin is the answer we run to in time of trials because we bare the trial alone.

Thank you saints of Christ for your prayers, because your prayers brought comfort when I could not find it, peace and strength when I did not have any.

Lord you are worthy to be praised. Thank you Father for hearing our prayers, and those who prayed for us. Let us use what you have shown us about ourselves, and this experience to teach others and to bring glory to your name.

Monday, December 22, 2014

Behind closed doors...

Lately I have been reflecting, looking out the window at our neighbors homes. Behind each closed door is another world. A world no one knows of and a life no better translated than those who live there.

At looking at all these closed doors, that we use for protection to keep people out, to keep the bitter cold out, and that we find safety behind; Each door opens to a place that if you are welcomed in brings you to another world.

Behind those doors are lives, people, families, children and animals. People live behind those doors, and we don't know those people. In not knowing we don't know what each one of those families are enduring at this "season". I sit looking and wondering what it is they are facing. What pain are they enduring, what challenges are they facing, and are they believers in Jesus Christ?

Our door is no different than any of our neighbors, we close it for protection, we close it to keep out the bitter cold, and we feel safe behind it, except as of late. We don't feel safe behind this closed door. Someone has decided to take that safety away. They have decided to defile it, and remove the safety we felt with just a word. Our door has always been open to our neighbors. Our door has always been open to our brothers and sisters in Christ and it still is. We fear what is on the other side of that door. We wonder who will come knocking and what they will say.

Though we lock the door we find No comfort behind it.

Lord as we begin a new week- Lord give me and my beloved strength to face whatever comes our way. This is the week we are to celebrate the birth of our King Jesus. The one who brings peace to the hearts of all men. We feel no peace Lord. Our lives are hanging on a thread. We desire for you to intervene. We ask that you go before us and tear down the enemy and His lies. We ask Lord that you prepare my babygirl's mouth, her words, and allow the truth to be revealed through HER tiny soul. Lord I am not worthy. I am at a loss and find NO comfort in anything but knowing that you still sit on the throne. May your mercy be upon our home, our family and upon my beloved and I. Shed your light upon us.

In Jesus Name.

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Trials of life

At this moment as I type this- we (my beloved husband and I) are enduring the most difficult trial we have ever faced in our 23 years of marriage. This trial has rocked our very core, and it is a trial that we have absolutely NO control over. We have to just wait for the "due process" and endure till the end, pray that the truth is revealed, and that we as God's people will prevail.

This morning as I read a devotional that I have been going through about the Birth of our Savior - the title spoke to me- Courageous waiting: No word from God will ever Fail.

The quote from Annie Downs- Sometimes it takes alot of waiting and a little fear to keep on the brave path that God has picked for you.

The truth is that trials will come to God's people. The enemy is a "liar" ,as one faithful believer said to me. I can't help but think- was this situation like Job, where the enemy came before the Lord and the Lord said "do you see my faithful servants Sam and Angie? " and the enemy said- "well they are only faithful because you protect them. "

As we face each day with fear and trembling,uncertain of what will happen and who will knock on our door- we look towards heaven for comfort and strength. We ask all the redeemed to get on their knees in our behalf. Beseech the throne of God for our family, for our smallest children, and for HIS light to shine. To give me strength, my husband strength as we both try to survive, and live "normal" lives in this trial.

Mary's words ring in my ears- "May your words to me be fulfilled"

Lord speaks words of protection, guidance,comfort, peace and love to His people. I ask that HIS Words be fulfilled. May He be our strength when we are weak. May He bring us peace in the midst of the storm. May He reveal the truth and quiet the voice and lies of enemy.

Isaiah 54:17 No weapon formed against you will succeed,and you will refute any accusation raised against you in court.This is the heritage of the Lord’s servants,and their righteousness is from Me.”This is the Lord’s declaration.

Lord I am not worthy - and I thank you for who you are and what you have done. Lord you know the trial we are experiencing and I ask that you guide us through it. Help us to put our hope and trust in you. Bring peace to our souls Lord. Bring peace to my husband, as this is another trial that has challenged everything about him. Lord often I wonder ,what you are doing? why you are doing it? I do not know the answer- Lord. I love you!! I love you whatever comes! Protect my baby, and Noah. Let this be just a vague memory. Lord, I lift up this doctor to you. I ask that you also minister to her heart. If it is pain that caused her to move, then Lord I ask you heal it by first bringing her to you. Lord whatever it is I ask that you prevail in her life. As you have prevailed in mine. Bring peace to our Home. Help us to focus on you and you alone. Jesus I ask that you approach the throne of God in our behalf and end this situation for your glory and your HOnor!!!
In Jesus Name Amen

Friday, October 31, 2014


Life has gone by so fast. Time seems to be so limited sometimes. I have wanted to get on here so many times to share and put my thoughts down but then something else happens and before I know it I close my eyes to another day.

We are in full swing of the shut down. Not sure if I have explained this in the past but basically the power plant shuts down a reactor once a year per the mandate by the government and does all kinds of maintence. Of course time is money so they put 12 hours shifts 7 days a week on staff till this reactor is up and running again. Some how the first year this happened,my beloved was picked to do night shift. A man with many children and some small children over all the carpenter supervisors. Anyway- another grievances for another time. My beloved drives an hour and half to work each day, so in this season coming home is very difficult so he normally stays in that area. This season is very very long and lonely.

The last few years with all the older children at home, I experienced a lot of drama and emotional strain trying to manage my home emotionally, spiritually and keeping things in order in a way that would be pleasing to my Lord as well as my beloved husband. This year is different. Peace has been restored. Most of the drama in my life is gone. Three out of my 5 grown children have now moved out. One is joyously married. The other two well one went to Texas, against our advisement and the other one well he left in rebellion as well. The other two are working hard to try to figure out their futures so they also can move forward. Leaving me with a quiet home, and two little ones.

Duck is progressing in school. I also am taking college courses in biblical studies. I had been desiring to take classes in this area for a while and started to investigate when I received a very discouraging email from a young lady within our church explaining why she did not attend bible study in which I lead. It was enough to finalize my decision to take the course in which I have enjoyed so much. I am considering now in advancing to a degree in which I know others would deem as a waste of money because what do you do with a Biblical Studies degree but it doesn't matter. I think it is money well spent because my time is being spent in the Word of God! I believe there is no better way to spend money but on ways to learn about Him, and His Word.

What else..... Well I have finally received answer to my prayer, a mentor. A least likely candidate whom I never expected has joined forces with me from our body. She is an older lady, about 60 years old. Degree in theology and truly a wise woman of God. She is a single woman, that is an area that is difficult for me to relate to but in many ways our hearts are similar. She has a ton of wisdom, and I am a willing pupil, ready to hear what she has to say. She has been such a blessing to me. She has been my refuge, and has brought such a peace to my heart and life. I just adore her. I wish I could express it to her in my affectionate way, she does not like affection. So I must find other means of loving her. :)

Dear saints I am sorry I have not been as faithful as I desire. All these thoughts run through my head and I think, wow that would make a great blog post. Or I just want to unload and sometimes I don't feel like this is the place for that so I don't. As 2014 comes to a close so quickly- I am praying 2015 will be so much better in this area of my life. I love to write and blog and share, if you are willing to read and listen.


Thursday, September 18, 2014

Each day welding

It often amazes me how quickly time goes. Each day welding into the next and each one being like the other but different in many ways. I spend so much time racing to keep with myself, responsibilities, schooling, house, groceries, laundry, as well so many other things. My heart's intention is always misunderstood and I wonder often why I bother or even care.

Examining other mothers- who seem to function and can disconnect and live without being affected by the choices their children make and rarely do you hear them share a word of what is on their heart concerning them. I look in the mirror and wonder- what is wrong with me?

How come I can't seem to manage what is going on? How come everyone else seems to have all together? Their kids are "perfect" and I am just watching myself and the world around me unravel. (at least that is how it feels)

As you rear your children and train them in life, of course the goal is to make them productive,GODLY members of society. (at least that was my goal) Some how they have become members of society- that is it. The productive and Godly neither of them seem to matter, especially to my young men. They think that staying up playing video games then going to bed at whatever time they choose is productivity. They do not see the wasting away of their lives and their choices well lets say you would think that none of them have been raised on a foundation of the  Word. It is so sad.

I am challenged at the time, energy, and sacrifice to end with this result. I look at each young man- and only one is trying to live according to conviction. The one who is trying, is also willing to listen to counsel and works so hard to honor it.

Oct 31, 2014
Thoughts I never shared,thought I would post now

Tuesday, September 16, 2014


I did it- I figured out a way to unplug myself completely from Facebook- woohoo Now I still have my AMPhotography page and the Women's ministry page but I removed myself personally from those pages and created a profile that was for those pages. It works.I hesitated going back to Facebook for two reasons- 1. it is time consuming. It is a way to connect to others with out really being connected. You know they use to call that a peeping Tom or being NOSY. Now it is normal to lurk, make assumptions on people's  lives based on post from Facebook or other social media. It really has become the downfall of our society.

2. My heart is- if people want to know about me or my family ask me- Facebook is not me. It is just a small very small piece of me.


On another fronts- my class has began in full swing. I am excited and intimidated all at the same time. I will keep you posted in that regard.


Be still and know that HE is God- be strong in HIM and seek His face - I need you Lord in my life. Less of me and more of you.

Your Servant




Monday, September 15, 2014

Careful Listening







Careful Listening is a truly profound sermon. I hope you take the time to listen to it.

Scripture reference is Luke 8:16-21


May this be a blessing to you as it was me.


Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Seemingly homeless

I wonder how people feel about the subject people standing on the side of the road declaring their hunger and homelessness. But don't look dirty. They have very expensive sneakers on their feet and just don't really appeared to be homeless . I realize the Bible says "when a man ask for your coat .you're to give them your cloak also" but what do you do in these kind of situations ?where it's doesn't seem to an apparent need. When it is away of making a living. It is a kind of manipulation, right? Are we as Christians obligated to help in these kind of situations ?

Today as I was sitting at the light on the corner of second Street and Forster there was a gentleman with a sign stating traveling homeless and hungry and on the curb in front of where he was a brand-new bag of chips that was open and an unopened bottle of Gatorade. These chips were not cheap chips it was "nature's promise organic chips" . I can not even afford to pay that kind of price for potato chips but yet someone who is homeless traveling and hungry can pay that kind of price for chips ? I know what you are going to say, what if someone gave him those items. True what if they did? But what if they didn't? What if he was able to purchase those items, along with his very nice Nike, in great condition sneakers?

What do we do in this kind of world where God is commanded us to feed the hungry and take care of the poor and yet we look around us and they don't look hungry? They seem to be taking advantage of people's good-natured hearts to their financial game.

I know the agreements. We give without worrying. Allow God to take care of the rest. Like giving to an alcoholic. You give it to him what he does with it is on him. Is it really? Should we not be wiser than that?

I am curious of your thoughts on this matter.

Your Servant Angie

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Thinking of the Week That Just Ended


Who made you feel good this week?I am thinking, I am thinking- My sweet little man made me feel good this week. We had a busy two days. Friday we went to Lake Tobias and Sunday we went to Hershey Park. We were standing in line at hershey park waiting for something and he turns to me and says - "mom you are truly the best mom in the whole world." His sweet sincerity is what touched me so deeply. It was unprompted by anyone and it truly touched the deepest place in my heart. My older children have said that to me in the past when they were little at one point or another but my little man actually saying it in a way that I actually believed that I was the best mom in the world. I wish I could have captured that moment so I could replay it forever and ever, but it will always be in my heart.

What was the biggest mistake you made this week? allowing my flesh to react to a situation. It reminds me of what the scripture says- I do what I dont want to do and I dont do what I want to do.

What did you do this week that moved you closer to reaching your goals?Currently I am in midst of enrolling in college. I was able to gather the necessary paper work so I can enroll in my classes.I am excited and intimidated at the same time. I want to be successful at everything I do but most of all I desire to get closer to Christ.

What did you most enjoy doing this week? I enjoyed riding with babygirl on her first roller coaster. she was the shortest in line and I know the youngest. She loved it. She cried when it was time to get off the ride.

Many things happen in a week that often we dont take the time to reflect on it, or even think about what we would change about it or what was the most important moment of the week. I am grateful that The Lord has given me my mind to remember and trap some of these precious moments I had with my sweet ones. I desire so much to give them the better side of me, and give them a solid walk in Christ Jesus. Lord help me not to fail you- and may you grant me the days to do what you have called me to in both of my sweet ones lives.


Monday, September 1, 2014



What does happiness mean to you?

Hmm happiness is never really defined correctly. Too often is it correlated with things or even emotions. Each of these in which are temporary states that can vanish or change with any given circumstance.

Happiness to me go hand and hand with a sense of inner peace The Lord has given me and the joy that only comes through the presence of the Holy Spirit.

Simple things bring me so much happiness... The first cry of a new born baby, when my sweet children show me their love for me through their thoughtful actions as a gift or just being a blessing, my beloved husband- just his mere presences brings me so much happiness (when he isn't driving me crazy) :) when I take a fantastic photograph, when I encourage someone with the Word and restore things even if it is just for a moment a sense of peace that only comes from Christ, when God uses this broken vessel to teach others the Word, homeschooling My sweet boy and babygirl.

Would you describe yourself as a naturally happy or unhappy person?

In a perspective of life I have a tendency to look towards the negative though I will often encourage others in the opposite direction. In others words I will encourage others in a positive way and discourage them to not to think negatively. But naturally and personally I would be... Hmm I hate to say unhappy because I don't feel like I am unhappy. Guess the best person to answer this would be my beloved husband... So we will ask him- He says a happy person ... Good because that is how I see myself.

A time when I felt really happy and a time I made someone else really happy..
I don't know- I know that I try to stay in a mind of happiness and positive. I try very hard to be happy with all the blessings The Lord has bestowed on my life even through my trials.

Happy are the people with such blessings. Happy are the people whose God is Yahweh. (‭Psalms‬ ‭144‬:‭15‬ HCSB)

Happy are those who keep His decrees and seek Him with all their heart. (‭Psalms‬ ‭119‬:‭2‬ HCSB)

Happy is the person who trusts in You, Lord of Hosts! (‭Psalms‬ ‭84‬:‭12‬ HCSB)

Lord thank you for giving me a heart that longs after you and a peace that surpasses all understanding. Amen.

How would you define happiness?



Monday, August 25, 2014

First day of school

Normally our schooling never ends. I am a strong believer on making schooling a way of life, who we are, and not a seasonal occurrence. This summer I did take a large break to finalize paperwork for my older graduated children,and refocus on what the Lord has in store for the two youngest. I spent some much time dragging older children to the finish line that I forgot how exciting elementary school is.

We got some of our new books last week... and as I looked through the material and I visualized all the fun things we could do to make this school year an exciting, productive but fun year.


Most of all my goal is to plant a seed in my son a love for the Word of God. My heart to stay diligent on the Word, in the Word with him, and her. If NOTHING else gets done. I don't care. I want him so grounded in the knowledge as well as understanding that I want Him(Jesus) to solidify things within him.



First Day of School.


Lord Guide me in your wisdom.


Sunday, August 24, 2014

Culture of Christ

Yesterday my family and I were sitting around with some  incredible young-men of our church. We were discussing  cultures and how the  America culture seems to have spanned and spread through every culture. Puerto Ricans, whites, blacks, and every race you see have reminiscence of this culture. Puerto Ricans ( which is my family's heritage) who are a
hard- working, proud, and glamorous people. In America ,they have a reputation to be lazy, and dishonest. They are not the people you experience on the island. The culture is spanning through each race and it is it's own culture of people.

This morning as I thought back on our conversation these thoughts came to mind:

One who calls themselves believers in Christ are called out. We would be redefined. No longer, Puerto Rican, white or Black- but brothers and sisters, in a new family. Putting off the old man, and putting on the new man.

Ephesians 4:24
22That you put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts;

 23And be renewed in the spirit of your mind;

 24And that you put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.


What is the Culture of Christ ? How are we as believers suppose to live?

Well it is clear in The Word of God. Lets start by examining it then we will list it.


First off the Lord says:

Deuteronomy 6:5

5You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might


Matthew 22:39

39And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.


Matthew 5:44

44But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 


Are you getting what the first thing is?


Love... we are to live a life of love. It should ooze from our every pore and be such a part of who we are that there is NO question of who we follow and what we live for.



John 14:15

15 “If you love me, you will keep my commandments
John 15:10
If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love.

Second is:


Obedience is an essential part of a believers life. It is who we are, how we live and what we do to glorify Christ in our lives.

The culture sucks people in, I have yet to know why except people imitate rappers, sports people, and other famous people faster than they will intimate a Believer. It is sad that we, as a church, are not successfully living and modeling  the culture of Christ for others to desire. Most will not forsake the world and live for Jesus. We are failing and losing the greatest battle; the heart and souls of man.

Lord help us. Guide us that we may shed off the old man and make ourselves new so that we may glorify you in our lives. Help us to put on the heart of love, help us to obey your Word whether we like it or not. Send your wisdom upon me that I may model these things in my own life. I love you Lord.


Monday, August 11, 2014

Loving and living

1 Peter 3:10-11
For the one who wants to love life and to see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from speaking deceit, and he must turn away from evil and do what is good. He must seek peace and pursue it, because the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous and His ears are open to their request. But the face of the Lord is against those who do what is evil.

Monday, August 4, 2014



One of the greatest gifts in being in ministry is having the opportunity to serve your family, for example your siblings.

Today my beloved help and served Communion which is one of the blessings of an Elder within our church, but it always touches my heart to see him serving in this capacity, but my heart gets especially touched when I see him serve his children.

As I watched my beloved serve the Bread of Life tears came to my eyes as I watched him serve his sister. I wonder if I am the only one that sees the privilege behind the act of serving? Serving communion, the Lord's Supper, is truly a reflective reminder of the sacrifice Christ made and so many take it so fleetingly. What a honor it is to serve the people who you grew up with and know you well.

Thank you Lord for the gift you have given us as a reminder of your sacrifice. May it be a blessing to others and may others take it as seriously. We praise you and glorify your name.


To the Glory of our Lord Jesus


Friday, August 1, 2014

Loving vs Self -Preservation

Reflecting on scriptures this morning

1 Thessalonians 4:

9About brotherly love: You don’t need me to write you because you yourselves are taught by God to love one another.10In fact, you are doing this toward all the brothers in the entire region of Macedonia. But we encourage you, brothers, to do so even more, 11to seek to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you,


We try to love others as the Word commands us often  something else comes into play  in the hearts and minds of  Believers.  Self -Preservation.

Christ tells us  in

John 15

12 This is My command: Love one another as I have loved you. 13 No one has greater love than this, that someone would lay down his life for his friends.

Jesus showed us clearly how to love through his own willingness to lay down his life for us: His friends.


I ask, where does self -preservation play out in the walk of the Believer?

Does self-preservation have a place in our lives?

Let's put this in a different perspective: I have 7 children; the moment the Lord blessed me with life within me, my body, and my life was no longer my own. My "happiness" and preference no longer was important. What was important was bringing forth a healthy child, and raising them to be Godly, righteous, and God-fearing people.

When we become followers of Jesus Christ  transformation is to occur in our hearts. We are to transform ourselves. We are to think more like Him, for Him and less like me. Life for Christ means you are willing to lay  down your preferences, wants, and wishes  for His.

In loving each another, self-preservation is not a choice. We are  bless others through showing the Word of God and being the light in this dark world, even when it does not benefit us.

Parenting children is difficult. You raise them, feed them, change them, and love them for them to walk away from the  foundation of Truth you gave them. They become  the opposite, do the opposite and live the opposite.

Does it mean  to keep from feeling this heartache you never  become a mother? No- people do it every day, selflessly.

In our walk with Christ we are to think the same way, selflessly.  Feeling heartache or pain brings us closer to Christ for comfort and teaches us to love without conditions.

Don't you agree?

I would love to hear your thoughts on this subject.


Your Servant



Saturday, July 26, 2014

Just no end ....

Is there no end to the evil of man's heart?


Have you heard that Pediphilers wants rights like homosexuals? Claiming that their sexual orientation is being discriminated.

Article: Pediphiles want same rights as Homosexuals


My heart is outraged, appalled and angry all at the same time. This is such a heinous crime. This is not two consenting adults. This is a minor, innocent, pure, and TRUSTING child who is being taken advantage of,defiled, and ruined by a sick, demented, and evil man.

There is no limited to the evil of man's heart without Christ Jesus. Sexual crimes are being looked at as sexual preferences and orientations. Society is minimizing and trying to diminish with words the damage that this crime brings to a children and to people in general.

This crime devalues a child. It makes sex a tool and not the gift God has intended. It removes inhibitions that should naturally be there. Trust an issue; there is no filter, they trust to easily,before you know it they have been used by many men.

Where is this world coming to? When is it all going to end?

Babies being killed every day for convenience , women raped and abused, children being used as sex tools.

It is every where, tv shows, magazines, and movies; the demoralizing, and the pornography.We are being bombarded. We are hit on every side so that when things like this article comes out it is just part of the natural order of life.

Oh Heavenly Father my heart is heavy.

Please rescue your people. Save us from ourselves and the evil that reigns within us. Lord,we are hurting the innocent. Lord protect them. Bring conviction and change, Lord,oh heavenly,gracious,merciful and Holy God- you have not reigned fire upon our heads because of your people. Protect us from all unrighteousness! Protect my babies,Lord,and help me to do what you have called me to, protect them! Protect them from the evil I can not see, and when I am not around send your mighty angels to protect them. Lord, oh my Father, thank you that you still sit on the throne and though chaos reigns around us you still have your mighty Hand in it. Lord,give me your peace and help me. I love you -

Your Servant

Friday, July 25, 2014

Homeschooling Young Adults- Lord Help me....

In the article on the AHEAD blog - Why Older Kids Fight Your Teaching and How to Fix It?
I had struggles, my kids fighting my teaching. One never wanted to do his work. Another would do some of it and not the rest.



I am unsure what state she lives in, but in our state a child not meeting the "requirements" and being free to learn what they want is NOT an option.
Teenagers are tough- I have graduated 5 children in homeschooling. I have 7 children and have been schooling for more than 10 years and I  have 18 or more to go with my two little ones. By the time I am done I will have schooled for almost 30 years.
As tired as we get of schooling, requirements, and work, young adults(teenagers) get the same way. Truth be told,life is work. Things we do to survive, to eat, have a roof over our heads is not an option. We have to do it. It is required or expected if you want to be have a home, and food. Learning is the same way- we are not given an option whether to school or not school. We are mandated by law to school our children and in some states they even go as far as to tell you what subjects are required. I have often told my older children there are some things in life you never get away from doing. Education is not an option it is a requirement, taxes though was not meant to be Law- it is- try not paying and see what happens, to survive you must work if you want to eat or have a home. It would nice if we could take things in life and make it be exactly what we would like it to be. I agree that you can encourage your children and give them opportunities to do the things they love but too many times we  to steer towards things  all things they are interested in or love and forget that not everything we do we love, and not everything we do are we interested in.

I am raising productive adults for the Kingdom of Christ Jesus and ones who will function in society that can think out of the box of the norm, but  adults who also realize that though they do not like some things in their job they are required to do them if they would like to keep the job. Not ones who create an environment that is all about all the things they love to do, it is unrealistic. There are ones are blessed who get to do exactly what they want to do in life, and love doing it. Praise Jesus for the that gift but I do not believe that is the norm.

Schooling children is difficult and truly I don't think there is a great formula on how to do it the right way, especially when they hit the young adult years. They are trying to find who they are, their hormones are in a rage, and schooling because more difficult. This is not the time to make it easier but to help them see through the tough times, they first press in to CHRIST JESUS, and endure to the end. The reward is sweeter!

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Math- the dreaded homeschooling subject part 2

In part 1 of " Math- the dread homeschooling subject" I shared with you a post from the AHEAD blog where Penny shares the issues  homeschoolers have with Math.  In this next post Penny shares some solutions and some curriculum that she knows about.

You will be amazed at the resources we now have for Math. It does not have to be scary for you or dreaded for your student. In schooling my children I have used even youtube to get through math problems in Geometry and Algebra 2. There are many things out there and people who are willing to share their gifts in math to aide you.


Head over to the AHEAD Blog and check what Penny had to say....



Monday, July 14, 2014

Get Involved....

Homeschooling is being threatened. School systems are feeling the damage of when parents realize their responsibilities . The pressure is on the school system when  parents decide to care for and educate their children. The threat is imminent towards homeschooling families, and we must face that threat head on through being involved, being aware of what bills are being passed, and how they will affect our homes.

How can you - a "nobody" make a difference?
Did you know that CHAP ( Christian Homeschooling Association of Pennsylvania) stays aware of the changing laws of Pennsylvania? Getting involved with CHAP and volunteering is a way that you can make a difference in the homeschooling community.

Secondly, becoming aware through HSLDA (Homeschool Legal Defense Association) alerts for our state. HSLDA is an advocate and a voice for homeshooling rights and freedoms. Becoming a member for $11.00 a month or a yearly fee of $120.00 aides in the fight for our rights as homeschoolers.

Did you know that homeschoolers are one of the most discriminated groups in the USA today? Businesses and other people do not see us as "truly" educating our children because we are not doing it the way "the system" mandates.

Statistics show that homeschoolers score higher in every subject on any tests. Document on Statistics  for Homeschooling

Many students leave public school without the capability of reading or writing. It has been shown and proven over and over that the educational system of America is on a downward spiral. It is not educating; it is programming children. The teachers teach the children what they want them to know, not what they need to know, or what they should know. Many people who agree that the system is breaking down, a number turn to private schools. They think it is a better alternative, but the government mandates them as well. Who do you think tells them the criteria of what they are to teach and when?

My point about all this is to share with you the importance of our involvement and support towards those who are fighting for our rights. Be aware of what is happening! Open your eyes because the changes may not affect you in the here and now, but it will affect our children and their future ability to home school our grandchildren. Support your local homeschool legislative groups. In Pennsylvania, it is

CHAP Legislative

Let's get involved.

Your Servant,

Math the dreaded homeschool subject

Math is a subject that many parents get intimidated by when they consider homeshooling their children. Too many times we convince ourselves of what we can not do so we can exempt ourselves for doing what God has called us to do. (teach our children)

On AHEAD blog partner blogger Pam addresses the problem with math in a two part series. Part 1 she discuss what the problem is.....

What is the problem with MATH?

Homeschooling Moms we all need a boost and a reminder and sometimes even direction... Go read!


Sunday, July 13, 2014

Things repeat no matter how hard you try

Have you ever tried so hard to not allow patterns or even curses ,as the bible calls them,to continue to repeat.
Have you made vows?
Have you shared with your children so that they will not walk in the same path you did?
Truly I guess unless the person vows within themselves to not repeat those patterns you will see them manifest.

No matter what wisdom you bestow or guidance you try to give them, if they do not take those words and embed them in their hearts as truth. If they do not walk a walk contrary, then the Words are in vain.

Are we exempt from sharing No!

Does it hurt to watch, YES.

There is nothing like feeling like a failure. There is nothing like knowing all those tears end in the same manifestation. The same "mistakes", the same divisions, the same results in your own family.

Those patterns that damage, that hurt and continue to hurt, only Christ Jesus can completely heal and change.

Lean on the Cross of Christ- only He can heal and bring you peace inspite of the situation.

Thank you Father that your Word rings truth always.

Saturday, July 5, 2014


I love the beach and everything that go with it. The sun, sand and water... I love to just sit there and watch the children play and build sand castles.

We decided to get away as a family and it was a much needed vacation though it was not long enough.






Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Leave the homeschooling to homeschoolers

One of the things about moving to PA that has been a struggle for me is the homeschooling laws. Not necessarily the actual process of schooling because I have not changed that but the laws here are very very scary and burdensome.

Moving from states where schooling my children was my choice, and I was responsible for everything. I did not have to submit anything ,which by the way, It did not keep me from keeping a record and filing everything in case a social worker showed up at my door someday with questions. I made sure everything was always in order.

The nightmare of PA law not only places unnecessary requirements on you but the administrations is in no way helpful in the process. As a matter of fact if you call and tell them you are a homeschooler in their school district and you would like to know where to bring your portfolios the people answering the phones have no idea what you are talking about or who you are to talk to.

This year was my second year in submitting a portfolio. I decided to physically take it in because the first year I submitted it via US mail, with a signature card along with my affidavit for the new school year and I never received the portfolios back. In regards to that, I then was advised by my evaluator to make copies of everything ,not to give them originals in case they did not return the portfolios again.

I spent the whole day, Monday June 30th, in a panic and a mad rush to try and get everything copied and in order to be able to meet the deadline by closing hours of the school district. When I knew I wasn't going to make it I was in total panic and was absolutely terrified not knowing what would happen because I missed their "deadline". I did not know what to do... Do I take them in late and explain or do I not take them at all?

July 1st, I woke, finalized and reviewed the portfolios and decided to take them in. When I finally was able to get to the school district to deliver the portfolios no one knew where I was to go and to whom they were to go to. They were so nonchalant about the process to which I was grateful but at the same time in the back of my mind I wondered what all that panic, mad rush, and total chaos was about the day before if it wasn't that big of deal. It seemed like they really didn't care and no one could explain or knew about the old portfolios.What I find very interesting is that in every way the administration is able to bend, manipulate or even change the law to benefit them,making it difficult and even overwhelming and burdensome to homeschoolers with evaluators, portfolios and deadlines yet NO ONE could tell me where I was to go, who was in charge or even where my old portfolios went. They say these laws are for our good, to keep us accountable, but I wonder who is keeping the failing school district ,who is unable to make their system work, accountable?

Homeschooling works and the statics show it. Too many times the government wants to fix something that is not broken. Most homeschoolers take what they do seriously, we understand what is at stake, the hearts and minds of our children. No one knows or loves my child more than I do, and no one will do more for my child than I will, so thank you PA but no thank you. Focus on what you need to focus on and that is reforming education by bringing Christ back into schools and leave the homeschooling to the home schoolers!

building on what your kids already know...

Homeschooling is a way of life, a journey like our one with Christ. Not only are we  building a foundation in the Word bombarding them with truth but we are also helping them to love learning. Not ramming a bunch of information in them so they will pass state tests but giving them a foundation to  build their lives on.


On the AHEAD blog Susan shares a method on taking basic information and slowly implementing more interest in your child toward that information. Practical real life situations, and learning... what more can you ask for... go check it out.





Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Walking with Christ

walk with God


The walk of a lifetime is walking with Christ. It is a daily process . Lately, that walk has been a challenge, with each step forward I feel I take two giant steps back. I have come to realize so many people have this mindset or even this expectation for those who "walk with God". They think or believe that if you walk with God you are

1. judgemental-

In NO way,do we judge people but we are called to call sin ,sin. We are not called to ignore it or pretend it does not exist or not there.


If a man is married and he is seeing other women ,behind his wife's back what is that called?

Adultery ,right?

NO one can say that action is right or pretend it is right,but so many try to down size it by making excuses.

"His wife is a pain, she is not very nice or she is controlling. "

Yet the truth comes down to this, it is Adultery in the eyes of God and man.

What law do you live by? if you don't live by the guidelines and the law of God then you live by the guidelines and the laws of man. Man's heart is corrupt the word says.(Psalm 14:1)

2. We are perfect

Perfection is doing everything right and saying everything right. Perfection is not part and will not be part of "walking with God" on this side of Glory,in this body, and within this flesh. Folks believe that people who "walk with Christ" are perfect. When they manifest a bit of "being human" then they are shocked or even angry.

You hear things like, " they are suppose to be Christians"

Yes,the manifestation of our lives is suppose be giving glory to our Lord in every situation, and every day. BUT LETS BE REAL... we do not respond correctly all the time in everything. WE do not even think correctly. When our flesh takes control and we have to put it under control and begin that walk with Christ again. Walking with Christ is a continual daily journey.. He did not call us to perfection,the moment He called us to Him. He called us to suffer each day by carrying our cross and following hard after Him. (Matthew 16:24)


3. If you are leader then you do no wrong....


Being called to leadership whether it be women's ministry, pastor/elder's wife or even deacon's wives- people have these unfair unreasonable expectations. They make assumptions of what  they do or dont do, never once investing in their lives to find out the truth. They do not try to discover that they are no different than they are. They are in need of Savior just like you and me, even more so because He has called them to model for His people His righteous not in perfection but with the Grace and Mercy Of Christ Jesus.


Dear Saints

Walking with God is a journey, like a marriage, one where we rise each day purposing to glorify God, admitting our failures, inabilities. Moving forward with Him beside us, in front of us,leading, and carrying us when necessary. Let us walk with Christ knowing that we can't do it without Him or each other.


Thank you Father for each challenging moment of each day that you give me to walk with you. Thank you for allowing me to glorify your name and to bring praises to you as I walk in this path of Life. Help me Lord in my sin, lead me not into temptation but deliver from evil. Help me in my imperfections, so that I may bring you glory. Help me Father in my own mindsets about the Saints. Lord we all need you. In Jesus Name-



Tuesday, June 24, 2014



do you ever feel sick when you do something you know you are not suppose to?

does that little voice inside you say "don't do that?" but yet your flesh won't stop that even though you know what you are doing is completely and utterly wrong the "temporary" feel good supersedes.

Sin is real and defiling, dirty and makes you hang your head low knowing that not only have you defiled your mind, heart and soul, but you brought shame to the only one who was alway pure and never sinned though He was tempted just like you and me.

Sin is a never ending battle- and always before us if we do not carefully examine our hearts, stay alert keeping our eyes open to our selves. "The devil made me do it" is not an excuse we can use when we stand before the throne of Christ when our battle of sin is placed before.

Ladies - we are surround by sin, and temptations, constantly bombarded with sin is not sin, just "happiness". Things that one time were foul, and shameful are now normal as day or night. How has that happened?


Are we so far from the time of Christ?
SO far from the reality and memory of why Christ died?
He did not die for us to continue in sin.
He did not die for us to have the mindset "to each his own".
He did not die so that we can condone the sin in our hearts.
He did not die so we can say yes to sin in our lives....

As I stand before you stained in my own sin. Knowing that without you I could not lift my head. My heart is foul without you. Lord- grant me your peace... and Lord as your Word says deliver me from evil. Give me your strength and power to resist sin in my life. May your truth and light shine through me Jesus!
For thine is the kingdom and the power forever and ever AMEN

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Testing for High Schoolers

Testing is so important to the world- standardized tests, SAT, etc- one the AHEAD blog one of the bloggers share wisdom on these tests. and how we as homeschoolers can participate.

High School Testing

if you are homeschoolers and are interested- check this out.


Tuesday, June 17, 2014



Being a believer in Jesus Christ is the most amazing, joyous thing I have ever done. Being called by Him into the glorious light was a life changer but with that calling have come great challenges. I walk by faith not by sight. I seek to love when love becomes so laborious, and the hope that lies within me comes from the Holy Spirit that can not be explained to anyone around me.

Faith- (webster's 1828) defines faith- to trust, to draw towards, to believe, to obey-

My favorite is to draw towards. To have faith necessary that draws towards Christ I must be in His Word, Daily, Hourly, minute by minute and sometimes every second of every day.
The Word states Faith produces:
1. endurance (James 1:3)
2. boldness ( Ephesians 3:12)
3. righteousness ( Romans 1:17)
4. cleansing of hearts (Acts 15:9)

Dear Ones if you find that instead of faith having it's perfect work- that faith is Work- what are you missing? The Word, time with Him in prayer or fellowship with His body/ His people?

Next comes Love--- stayed tuned tomorrow

Lord as we continue to walk by faith and not by sight. We labor in that faith as a woman labors for her child. We labor to see you manifest in us and through us believing you in all that you say, and all you do. We pray dear Father that we bring you glory and that we see that if our faith is work-that the work of faith bring you glory and Honor and praise, forever and ever- amen

Monday, June 16, 2014



Dad with His children on Father's Day-2014


Yesterday was Father's Day - a day where we take to reflect on the gifts we have in our fathers.

Fathers have such an important role in the hearts of their children and their family. They are to protect them, guide them, encourage them and help them feel strong. When he fails in these areas then He has failed his family.

Growing up I desired to see what a "normal" family looked like.( I use the term normal loosely) My family was damaged, and damaging. My sperm donor father was the main source of pain, and disappointment. He was a path way of destruction. Treating everyone in his path as a possession to be misused and tossed as he pleased. Can you imagine- a damaged hurting child look around at her friends fathers and wondering, is there father like mine?
does he do to them what mine does?
Is it true-- do fathers show their love for their children in this manner??

I spent my younger life trying to feel loved, and secure which as you know lead me to destructive relationships. UNTIL God called me- when HE calls all things are cast away and all things made new-- and yes that is exactly what happened to me.

No I was never given a father- but I was given a husband. One who has modeled a loving, gracious, merciful- not in perfection father. He took on and loved two boys that were not biologically his. He never treated them differently than any of his children. He has loved all of his children with great sacrifice and pain. He has modeled (not in perfection) Christ likeness and remains completely humble realizing he still needs to change.

Though I have not experienced for myself the Love of a father but I have seen it manifest through my husband and though at times I wonder what that love is like. I am grateful that all my children have the father they have. I wonder often if they understand the blessing and I hope they do not take advantage of it. "Be cause we know not what a day may bring forth. Life is just a vapor that appearth for alittle time and vanishth away"

In the sermon yesterday at church- Carl shared what a Man of God is suppose to look like. Exam yourself and see if you measure up to the expectation The Lord has for you in who you are to be as a man, and as a father.

Thank you Heavenly Father for blessing me with my husband. For showing me an earthly father who loves his children. For giving my children the father they have. May they not take that love for granted. In Jesus Name Amen..

Friday, June 13, 2014

True Forgiveness..


People often wonder what true forgiveness looks like or how to make it manifest in marriage. Forgiveness in a marriage is an essential part of marriage without it a marriage is consumed by bitterness, and anger.
The closest person to you- the person who sees you through clear eyes is the person you sleep next to every day. They know your faults but the blessing is they choose to love you regardless. Yes love is a choice, not a feeling, just as forgiving is a choice. They choose each day to love you, and to forgive your wrongs.

Is it easy? NO not at all. Each day you may have to wake up and remember that forgiveness to forget the disappointment and pain. Eventually that forgiveness comes so naturally.

True forgiveness can only manifest and be given with true repentance that manifest within each of us. Of course it becomes very difficult to forgive someone who only asks for forgiveness because they were caught not because they have any desire to change. Too many times we only say "I am sorry"- not because we will never do it again, but because we were caught in our sin.

what do we do when someone continues to sin against us? How do we manifest the forgiveness necessary that is spoken of in the Word of God?

Jesus Says in Matthew 18:21-22
The Parable of the Unforgiving Servant
Then Peter came up and said to him, “ Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?” Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy- seven times.

Matthew 18:35
So also my heavenly Father will do to every one of you, if you do not forgive your brother from your heart.”

We expect great forgiveness from our Heavenly then we must forgive greatly. This kind of forgiveness can only occur through submission of the Holy Spirit and his presence.

Dear Ones
Marriage is difficult. We are in a world that does not honor the covenant, that does not show reverence to the commitment of man and woman. They do not understand truly what marriage is for or about. To have a heart of unforgiveness just makes things more difficult and sets your feet on the path of failure.

When I am tempted by unforgiveness towards my beloved, I remember three things
1. I Seek and desire always for him to forgive me
2. I am not perfect!
3. lastly I desire greatly for The Lord to forgive me, then I dare not have a heart of unforgiveness.

Lord thank you for the forgiving cleansing through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ. Help us each to remember the importance of forgiveness and manifest that forgiveness in our lives. Help us Lord to release bitterness, unspoken expectations and disappointments in our lives. Help us to remember our imperfections. Help us to glorify your name in our walk with You and in our Marriage.
In Jesus Name- Amen

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Accountability.... not necessary thank you...

I don't agree with this article
PA HB101 and accountability
-- Parents are only accountable to Christ for the way we educate our children. Anything a homeschoolers does regardless of whether anyone thinks it's sufficient enough or not is better than the public school system.
The children being indoctrinated with philosophies that are contrary to the Word and being told that anyone who thinks for themselves and thinks against the "norm" is prejudice or narrow minded or just out right wrong.
I don't believe that homeschoolers should even have the law telling us what we need to do. Soon and very soon the law will mandate what we can and can not do as parents ( spanking your child is a prime example of this) and it will then integrate into the church as it has slowly. We have seen churches bending to the trend to be politically correct in accepting same sex marriages, allowing other ungodly things within the church. These issues are not one that should be "accepted" or even condoned within the church. The Word is clear on these matters.

My question to everyone is :what makes you think that if you "allow" the government to make you "accountable" that they won't force you to do things that is contrary to the Word?

This same government does not hold itself accountable, their school system is failing. what makes you think they are equipped enough to make you accountable?

MOST people who home school take it seriously and know what is best for their child. The "stories" the media seek of the home schoolers who fail are not doing well,to what standard?

Are you like me? or am I like you? So tell me why do we go by a standards that was created by the heart of man?
Do you fit in the standard of what you are suppose weigh according to you height? MOST LIKELY not. The only standard we should mold to and care about is the one set by the Word of God.

People need to stop seeking others to hold their hands in a calling God has called them to - and ask the OUR LORD and Savior to guide them. The world is not for us to judge- it is GOD's! When you stand before our Lord some day and He says you failed in this area- who you will you blame? the government you were accountable too?

Lord help us to see that we are most accountable to you for how we educate our children in life and education. Help us Lord to use your Word as our guideline. Help us to set the bar according to your Word and NOT according the standard of man. Forgive us Lord for leaning on our own understanding. Thank you for the presence of your Holy Spirit in our lives. Allow the truth to reign within each of us.
In Jesus Name Amen

Sunday, June 8, 2014

New Testament Faith....


Dear Ones-
Faith today is based on whatever goes. You see faith of Christianity mixed with all kinds of other things. There are those who believe that Jesus was a man, he did great things, but He did not come to do as "christians" state. They realize that there is something great out there because they look around at creation and feel and see that there is something that goes beyond them but try to explain away that "feeling" and "yearning" to know the one true God.
Psalm 63- David yearned for God. He eagerly sought after God. He thirst for Him-- that is the heart of man. We seek after, fill our hearts, our time, seeking... what is it that we are looking for???

Faithful saints for us to have a New testament faith practice it has to be embedded, indwelled, consumed and completely in the Holy Word of God. We can NOT in any way try to have a faith walk based on our own understanding. Too many things invade us to believe everything else but the Word. We become mixed up, messed up and confused over what the truth of the Word of God truly says.

Do you struggle in your faith?
DO you feel empty? wondering what you believe and why?

Dear ones that is the ploy of the enemy- he desires to turn your heart away from Christ, His Word and His people just so that you will doubt, and struggle, wonder and truly one day walk away. Many great men and women of God walk away because they allow doubt, and unbelief to consume their faith.

Hebrews 11:1 - Faith is the reality of what is hoped for, the proof of what is NOT seen.

Dear Ones Make your faith Scripture driven and GOD centered!! We can not allow it to be consumed!!

Dear Father
Help us to believe your Word, to live it with in our lives. To not just hear it, read it and continue on in a faith walk that does not manifest you in anyway. Lord Help us to believe even when we do not see. Lord you are so merciful to give us another day, more time to seek you- Thank you for your mercy on us. I praise you- for you are glorious and wonderful. TO all be the GLORY TO YOU OH LORD MY GOD!
In Jesus Name amen

Saturday, June 7, 2014


Dear Ones-

As you know home-schooling is a very important part of my life. Actually home-schooling is our way of life. We decided a long time ago  (over 10 years ago)  for us to press in to Christ and" raise our children in the way they should go" that we were going to have to eliminate and minimize the worldly influence and infuse them with the Word of GOD. Our goal is/was to bring forth strong men and women for Christ who , One knew the Word of God, two who lived out the Word of God and three understood that the influence of the World would destroy them and their souls. CHAP(Christian Home school Association of PA) is an organization that has resources to aide, encourage and also help Christian Home-schoolers remain in home-schooling. The journey gets difficult sometimes and that is when CHAP's loving hand comes in handy. It is a blessing to know that we are not alone brothers and sisters. There are many fellow home-schoolers out there, walking the walk and living it out in their lives with the same convictions and determination to bring forth Men and Women of a Godly More standard, and principle who manifest HIS Word in their lives.


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Brothers and Sisters we walk through this journey of life trying to make a difference, trying to bring Glory to our Lord.  Remember the enemy would have you believe a few things:

1. you can't do it

2. You are alone

3. this doesn't  matter-


all these are lies!

You can do it- you can home-school, you can bring forth Godly seeds for HIS Kingdom and raise them to Glorify Christ.

You are not ALONE -  not only do you have the God of the universe with you always but you also have a body of Christ that loves you.

This does matter- as small as you may think this is-- this is big to the Lord- your willingness to submit and follow hard after Him by schooling your children and embedding that Word in their lives and heart the angels are singing Glory Glory Glory!! For His Kingdom is being glorified saints!!


Stand Fast, Stand Strong!

Your Servant



Friday, June 6, 2014

Servant Leader




Dear Ones-

As I continue in my position as Women's Ministry Leader- One thing that has emulated, echoed and is continually before me is that fact that a good leader is a servant. People think leadership is a prestigious, grand, and truly a place ABOVE everyone. Leadership is a place below if one really truly understands the position, and understands what it is God has called them to do.

God calls leaders to be on their faces, down in the dirty trenches, digging deeper, examining harder and facing things about themselves and their families that most don't even care about.

God calls leaders to be willing to wash the feet of every person they minister to and serve.

God calls leaders to sacrifice self and self preferences for Jesus and those they serve.

God calls leaders to take the weight of those they minister to, take up  everyone's cross, and carry it.

God calls leaders to be in self control.

God calls leaders to be hospitable- opening your home to the lost and the body of Christ is part of the calling of a leader. How will they know you if you do not let them in your life or your home?

God calls leaders to be servants...


Are the leaders in your life these things? Are your leaders missing something? If so maybe they truly do not understand the great calling the Lord has placed on them?!


Lord as we continue to walk in your will as leaders, help us to also be the servants you would have us be. Bless our ministries Lord, guide us with the presence of your Holy Spirit. Bless us and keep us from the attack of the enemy.

I praise you for calling me Lord- as unworthy and incapable as I feel at times. I know you have us here in this place serving at this time- to bring you GLORY and Honor....


In Jesus Name- AMEN

Your Servant


Thursday, June 5, 2014

Children leaving home...

Dear Ones- As a homeschooler and momma of 7- I have had the privileged of seeing 5 of my 7 graduate. I did not school mine from the very beginning. I ran from homeschooling for alot of years- I ran from God's direction and will for me and my families life. I tried so hard to convince myself that I was not to do this and it was not for me. I heeded His call in my life and gave 10 years of schooling to some my children, in preparing them for adulthood and living their lives as Christ would ask of them, NO ONE and nothing prepares you for them leaving your home. Leaving is leaving whether they leave in SIN or with the blessing of our Lord Jesus and no  matter how  it is done it still is difficult to let go...

Marilyn Rockett on the AHEAD blog shares how hard it is to LET Go... Oh how I can relate.

Read it be blessed by it.     Angie

Wednesday, June 4, 2014



Dear Ones-
Truth is so hard to hear so hard to face. Truth is the realization of the way we think or feel is wrong, or false. Truth-- knowing the reason why the World- struggles in loving Christ - who He is and what He means- is because truly the message to them is foolish.

Why is it foolish? Well because it goes against them. It goes against what they have believed to be true. It goes against what they think, how they want to live, and what they deemed is "happiness".

They find it foolish because to them we "can't" really live. Going out every night- finding a different guy or girl, not remembering their names, where you were or what you did is "living". Or Hiding, stealing, murder, jealousy, anger, manipulation, and sexual sin is "living"?

Peace, love, joy, kindness, goodness, patience, gentleness, faith and self control-- this is living. Manifesting each of these things in my life, which only happen through the power of God and His Word.

Are you wondering?
Stop being lost in this World and come to the saving Grace that can lead you to eternal life and peace. ONLY HE (JESUS CHRIST) can fill you with the peace and joy needed to live a life FULLY joyful.

Dear Lord
We know we are a foolish people- in need of you. Help us Father to seek you. To surrender and living out the calling you have called us to. Lord Help us to glorify your name.

In Jesus name- AMEN

Monday, June 2, 2014

Weekend happenings

Hello dear Saints
After spending the week serving - I spent the weekend caring for my sweet sick baby-- she was not happy at all. Very whiny and miserable- she is not 100% but she is not as whiny.

I spent time with my brother as well and his girlfriend- the house was full and very lively.







I am always grateful that our Lord has always made our home enjoyable,peaceful and a haven for those who need a time away from their crazy lives.

Lord as our week begins I ask you give us first us health. Heal my babygirl, strengthen her body, gives us a renewing of our minds that we may serve you according to your Will and your glory and Not according to our flesh. A strength beyond our understanding and a peace that only comes from your presence of the Holy Spirit.

Thank you Father for all you, will do and have done! In Jesus Name

Your humble and gracious servant

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

It has been a year and 7 days


I cant believe a year has passed since my beloved was ordained as an Elder of our church. SO much has happened since that day--
In short recap of this year in service one thing is for sure- with every triumph and spiritual blessing came many attacks. The attacks hit us from every side and the very people in our lives that we knew would sin and be used are those ones who were used.

Our names- our testimony, our very walk with Christ has been tried and challenged. Yet we continue to walk forward -- not looking down at our very HEAVY feet but UP towards heaven seeking the ONLY face that can bring peace to the hearts of His children

Happy Anniversary my beloved--- May The Lord continue to strengthen you. May He continue to use you as ONLY HE can and may the truth continue to reign supreme from who you are and what you do in your life. May our family continue to be HIS living testimony. May we glorify the name of Jesus and not bring shame to his name!!!

In Christ---
Your WIfe

Monday, May 26, 2014

In the World

My beloved preached yesterday on being " in the World"  as we live in this fallen world -- how are we to respond being believers as we try so hard to figure out how to balance our walk with Christ and the distracts of this world, and standards within society...

Listen to find out...


Saturday, May 24, 2014

Fun Vlog

Yes I said Vlog- my dear friend I have known since before she was born, yes really I knew her before she was born, has started a vlog. Veronica is fun as well as gorgeous- she really is such a sweet person and I admire her for starting a vlog.

I have been blogging for over 7 years now and have thought for a whole 2 seconds about vlogging- but I am not as brave nor as nice to look at as she is! Oh ,her hair is to die for!!! No, I am serious- My Maria has that same kind of hair- anyway enough said- really go check her out. You will fall in love with her fun personnality.

Veronica's Vlog

Friday, May 23, 2014


In todays society and the mass production of food we are NOT getting the nutrients that we should be. Our body is starving for "real" food. Not just mass produced foods that have been genetically altered to grow faster and have absolutely NO tasted to them and no nutrients either. Have you ever bought a tomatoes from the store and you slice in it- it is white inside and has no taste.. well welcome to a mass produced society that would rather have things quickly then support farmers.

On the AHEAD blog Susan shares some her experiences on gardening.


Learning and growing is one of the many blessing that Lord has given us. It is truly time for us to return ourselves back to some old "fashion" ways- Gardening bares so much fruit if you put some energy into it.


Thursday, May 22, 2014

fantastic fathers....

I wasn't raised with a fantastic father. Actually most of my issues come from the fact that the man who was suppose to protect me, keep me secure and love me was the same man who beat me,raped me and took advantage of my youth and stole my innocence. NO I have no idea what a fantastic father is like. I am blessed to know and have fantastic husband and a fantastic father of my children, so I do know what one should look like but to experience myself, have one treat me as my husband treats his, or love me as one should- NOPE thats NOT ME.

This video that was created by a man shows what a father's heart and prayers should be like.

A Dad's letter to his new born daughter

So many of us miss the mark- we forget how important it is to impart blessings over our children from the day of their first breathe. This does not come easy. It is human nature for us to see all the negative. To share all the things that need to be fixed and dwell on the imperfect instead of rejoicing in the small blessings and gifts that we each have.

With the knowledge that I have- I reflect back and wonder just what would be different if I understood how powerful and necessary the spoken blessing is.


Monday, May 19, 2014


do you care about your body? what you put into your body?

This website is defiantly for you- check it out Black Girl Health

Watch this video by Porcha Johnson

Sharing in life...

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Celebration of New Life

I love baby showers-


it shows the blessing bestowed in ones life and the privilege the Lord bestowed on them to gift them with a child. It is sad to me that we are in a society who views children as an inconvenience, a nuance, burden or even worse a pain. Oh believe me as a momma- children are a challenge.  A challenge to your flesh, patience and character,but the blessing out weighs the challenges they bring.

Have you thought about how the Lord decided to shine his face upon you and deemed you worthy enough to bestow you with a gift of a child. He saw you fit enough to reproduce, bring forth life and gave you the privilege to rear that child in the way he or she should go in His righteousness. Who are we to be given such a gift??

Who are we to deem ourselves worthy enough to bring a child into this world? Are we truly so arrogant to think that life in its creation is in our hands? Well let me tell you dear ones, if the creation of life was in my hands to control I would be pregnant right now with another child. Life is  not mine to control, the creation of that life, and decision on whether I will conceive or not, is in the hands of the almighty God.

When I was young I never realized the gift He gave me through life. Being pregnant was just that, being pregnant and having a baby, but then I closed my womb and He brought me to a place to restore myself to Him. In turn He blessed me with a child. Oh How I relished every part of the pregnancy realizing that HE truly is the giver and taker of life and decided to shine His face upon me with a life.

Today we took the opportunity to celebrate life and rejoice and relish in the gift The Lord bestowed on the couple who is getting ready to have a baby.



Lord bless them and keep them. Make your face shine upon them as you guide them in your truth and help them to glorify you in their lives


Friday, May 16, 2014

One of those days...

Do you ever wake up in the morning and wish you could stay there or just go back to bed  so you can start the day all over again?


  Today is one of those days for me... maybe it is the weather affecting me, who knows but I have lots on my mind and a very very heavy heart. My thoughts are ranging from my children and their choices to the condition of the church today.. I know a very broad spectrum. But are they truly? Are  not our children part of the church and by God's grace they are functioning members of the church body?



so truly the condition of the church is part of the fact of the choices each of us make, including our children/my children. I think of myself... my disobedience, sin, the curse I bestowed on my children because of my own condition and lack of Godly choices, being brought up with very little Godly foundation. Sure I went to church, they went to church but nothing they heard manifested in their lives nor did we live lives as believers, we were "good" people. It takes more than "going to church"for children to manifest it in their lives or being "good" people for them to make Godly choices. Most parents hearts who are truly surrendered to Christ is to keep their children from repeating their sins or to "do as I say not as I do!!" Truly that is not what children do. They do as we do even if you try to bestow wisdom through the Word of God on them. Even if you admit how wrong you were in so many levels and how truly they should not be walking even the slightest bit of the same path as you did. In turn their choices affect the body of Christ if not directly but indirectly and spiritually. What is your hope and prayer as you try to bestow wisdom to your children? Are you manifesting in your life the very thing you want them to do in Christ? Are you loving the body unconditionally as you should? are you double minded (saying one thing and doing another)?   I bestow these same questions to myself and hope that I am living according to the Word, saying and doing within my life as God would have me so I can lead and teach my children in they way they should go.   Seeking His Truth Angie

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Solo para la gloria de Dios

Thursday, May 15, 2014

All New


New life, changes  happen whether you like it our not. With those changes I have decided to change my blog too. This blog is for those who desire to be encouraged. It is for those, who love The Lord Jesus, who desire to hear about the challenges of being a wife, mother and  one in ministry. It is for those, who know they are not perfect and could sure use someone to relate to in that imperfection....

Who am I?

I am that daughter of the King of Kings- Jesus. the wife of Sam, that mother of many,  sister to Ray, Missy, Betty and Danny,the friend to those who desire one and the servant to those who will allow me to speak Christ into them, lastly that woman next door who is always willing to help and open her home to you.

Yes that is me.

I have many thoughts but not enough time in the day to share them all. I do pray that you will join me in life... join me in my journeys. Join me as we seek first the kingdom of Heaven and His righteousness!

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Message for Mothers

This is a great message from Beth 

Prayers for children:

Monday, May 5, 2014

Lights of the World

Dear Ones- 

This weekend was full of the WORD  and of Praise- as you come down off that spiritual "high" per say- your heart yurns to stay in that place where your every thought, your every breath is Him.. One thing that has resignated with me since it escaped Beth's mouth was us being the light. She gave us such a perspective of what that light looks like- what we look like from heaven. I will try my best to give you that same image that she so clearly gave me.

1 Peter 1:11-13

They inquired into what time or what circumstances the Spirit of Christ within them was indicating when He testified in advance to the messianic sufferings and the glories that would follow. It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves but you. These things have now been announced to you through those who preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. Angels desire to look into these things.A Call to Holy Living

 Therefore, with your minds ready for action, be serious and set your hope completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

In these verses Peter is talking about our Holy Calling- in this part people are asking when would Christ return- they wanted to know when they would receive the rewards for following after Christ.

 In our flesh we too want that answer especially as we "suffer" for Christ and we "consider it joy to enter into diverse trials" in our lives. We want to know when our suffering will end and enjoy peace, and happiness according to the Word- but Peter stated- they came to a revelation that they are not serving for themselves or that reward but for CHRIST.

This is the part Beth spoke-- " Angels desire to look into these things"

The Angels desire to look into us-- they want to know, how, and why... they are look down from heaven and wonder about us. (imagine that )

Here is the image she painted for us-

The earth is the dominion of the enemy(right?) this is where the enemy dwells and where he is constantly wanting to see the Saints of Christ fall right????

I imagine this is what the earth looks like from heaven- as the evil reigns supreme on this earth. Completely Dark--

As the angels look down from heaven- seeking out the saints of Christ this is how they see us from heaven

Do you see- can you imagine--- complete blackness across the earth and as those angels look down upon heaven- we are like small lights, stars that are dotted across the darkness of this earth. The light of this World our Christ Jesus shining within each of us- radiant light -- small light -- as stars dotted across this dark world- It blew my mind- do you see dear Ones- how precious the gift we have received to be walking, living lights to shine forth HIS Gospel for HIS kingdom... What a joy, what a blessing we have been given such a great gift.

Matthew 5:14

14 “You are the light of the world. A city situated on a hill cannot be hidden.

DO not hide your light this week! By God's grace and peace--- I pray you can see what GOD so clearly gave me-- Oh Lord may my Words be pure and bring your Glory!

In Christ My Saviour --- Jesus

Your Servant- Angie





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