Ponder the Path of Thy Feet.....

We have been in a constant season with my Eldest son- always wondering and waiting for him to manifest in his life, live out from his heart the words that come out of his mouth. We have trained him, guided him, given him the Word of God no different any of the other children but something never connected his heart to these Words.. The fruit of his life has only for season, like a cycle constantly going round and round, would he manifest fruit and just when we think he is heading in the right direction, just when we think ok, he's got this, he is good He is back to square one. WHY WHY WHY?? My heart is breaking dear saints, breaking because all these years, the very thing I have fought to bring into my son's heart he has chosen to forsake. He has chosen to walk away from his family, the biblical standards, and deceive others around him. I want to just scream! I don't want to feel! I don't want to care! I want to turn it off. I want it to go away!! Because in it all- I ha

Have you ever tried to do something... and no matter what you do and no matter how hard you try- ---though what you are doing is for the glory of Christ- it just doesnt seem to work, your temper starts to rise and it takes everything you have to contain a rage building inside of you from just smashing the computer in front of you? I have been leading these bibles studies. One with a young lady and my daughter and another for some of the older women in the church. Needless to say- both times- when trying to get things prepared, computer hooked up, and video playing, both times the computers( yes more than one) would not work. I started to feel like I was under attack. Like purposely the enemy was trying to prevent me from conducting the video make me look disorganized and unqualified to do what I am doing(which is not much) Thank you Lord for shining through- for making me press forward and get it to work. As I move forward in this role, as part of the Leadership team of this church I h

                    Stop and smell the flowers.... Summer is in full swing.. Alex, Sammy- are going in  every direction. Alex working rides at Hershey and Sammy security in the parking lot, then Sammy also working  a second job. They are constantly on the move. I rejoice that they are busy.  Lazy, and procrastination has been an issue with my young men. They lay around the house, as if there is nothing to do if they dont have to go to work. Their rooms are a like a tornado hit it, their laundry is unattended and yet they act like they have all the time in the world. Needless to say it drives me crazy.  How do you get young men to get out of a habit of procrastination and Laziness?  What does the Word of God say about laziness? Procrastination is a developed habit to delay whatever it is you are expected to do. The Word has so much to say on Laziness Proverbs 18:9 The one who is truly lazy in his work is brother to a vandal. Proverbs 19:15 Laziness induces deep sleep and lazy person wil

Lately finding grace and dying to my own flesh has been my struggle as well as my lesson. See my beloved has been experiencing some pain. Of course I dont know what that is like or do not live with the level of pain he is dealing with. The challenge has come in to play watching him change and become a different person. Watching him struggle to be who he is, and be this person that I really dont know.  His level of grace, mercy and compassion has disappeared. We experience an unpredictable, unstable person that can snap at any time. (No Fun) The other struggle is his lack of  desire to spend time with me. To be with me. - He has no desire for me at all. He has become so focused on his pain and managing it each day that my needs are an after thought( which of course hurts to the very core of me) How do you function and survive a season like this? How do you keep from damaging your marriage? Or even your self?  How do you keep from sin? What if this is not just the a season but the first