Ponder the Path of Thy Feet.....

Lately I have felt so lonely and alone. Not feeling connected to anyone or anything. Wondering where I am going and what I am doing and why. A valley of darkness seems to surround me and I am slowly trying to lift myself out of it. Reading the word as often as possible and staying busy with the children and their tasks. Still feeling like there is something missing in my life. NOt that I am not happy being a wife, and mother. That job in itself is full time and fullfilling, but there is just this hole, Unexplainable hole that just can not be filled with just anything or anyone. I do not know, maybe it is after having baby blues. Pray for Noah all of you who read- He is having surgery friday. Being put to sleep and everything. It is not a major surgery, re-circumcision- but it bothers me that he is so little and being put to sleep. :-(

Noah is now 4 months and due again to be vaccinated. The first vaccinations I did it with a very uncertain heart. Unsure whether I should expose my tiny 2 month old infant to such harmful things. When I went to the doctor I went with the mindset of not having it done but then felt pressured into doing it, by the doctor. Of course Noah did not do well, for two- three days he had outburst for no reason as if he was in pain or something. So that times has come again, making me unsure of whether I should do this or not. I have started reading this book by Michael Dye called Vaccinations-Deception and Tragedy.(ugh-I am so horrified) Now I am even more unsure of what to do. What is the balance? Who is telling the truth? The medical community or the people who's lives were affected? I look at little Noah and see a helpless baby who looks to me for protection from everything harmful in this world. To think we purposely put these things in our children, for what reason? Is it right to trust

Quotes on Homeschooling and Education"My grandmother wanted me to get an education, so she kept me out of school." --Margaret Mead "I have never let my schooling interfere with my education." --Mark Twain "What is most important and valuable about the home as a base for children's growth into the world is not that it is a better school than the schools, but that it isn't a school at all." --John Holt "Education is not preparation for life; education is life itself." --John Dewey "If the schools were perfect, I would still homeschool my children--because it isn't about school. It's about families taking their children back and educating them as they see best. It's about giving birth to a child and loving that child enough to want to nurture him and be a part of his life until he no longer needs you. It is the natural thing to do. School is only a substitute for the real thing." --Kathleen McCurdy "An educational

Curious on what your answers would be!!! 1. What is your occupation? most important job in the world- A wife and mom 2. What color are your socks? grey-still in my pajama socks 3. What are you listening to right now? no music-listening to Maria talking to her baby brother 4. What was the last thing that you ate? 1/2 a poptart 5. Can you drive a stick shift? Yes 6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? blue-I guess 7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? um-my husband yesterday 8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes - very much-she is my favorite sister in law :-) 9. How old are you today? 36 10. Favorite drink? sweet tea 11. What is your favorite sport to watch? SOCCER 12. Have you ever dyed your hair? Never-really! 13. Pets? a rat-Jabbers, a ferret-Rose, a puppy-Beula, and a cat-Gabriel 14. Favorite food? Seafood 15. What was the last movie you watched? Poisedon 16. Favorite day of the year? My anniversary- It amazes me every year that we celebrate, that our lo

This week has been full. The boys are working hard, and I am trying to get use to not having the extra hands and take care of Noah all at the same time. I know that before I did it with 5, but I wonder-how. I know I had a system on how I did things, but trying to remember what that system was. Plus I did not home-school my children, so I guess that helped, when I had little ones, the others were in school, so I had to do was take care of them and clean the house. Now it is schooling, baby,house,baby,try to clean, baby, cook,baby, clean again, baby. Notice the cycle- the baby part is the part I enjoy- it is the other stuff, trying to fit it in some where. Samuel has been working hard lately. I have hardly seen him. Yesterday he came home, ate something really quick and went straight to a favor he was doing for a friend.(side job) He got a phone call yesterday from another contractor who is seeking and estimator. So now he has two job offers on the table. Lord Lead him in the way he shou

Can you believe there is a time where I actually do not have anything to say. For those of you who know me personnally you are probably in shock right now. (haha) I want to take the time to Congratulate my friend Cindy on her pregnancy. May the Lord protect you and that growing little one inside you. Cindy(who is she), well she is a very special person in my life that was an instrument of God in the birth of our Noah. Ah- I have all your little minds going-how? I know all of you do not know this, but about 2 years now(wow time flies) I had a reversal surgery done, by a wonderful doctor(Dr. Streeter), not only did Cindy open her home up to us so we had some place to stay during my surgery, but she was also the head of the ministry at the time that helped me pay for the surgery. (see there are places out there that perform Miracles for the Glory of God) So you see why she was an instrument of God?! I am so excited for her now, because God has decided to give her another towards His Kingd

Let me tell you about our night. We are sleeping, it is 4:30am and I suddenly awake, to what? The Warning Siren for tornadoes! I wake Sam up and we go get the kids so that we can get into the basement. The whole time he is telling everyone to stay calm. Each child grabs their blanket and pillow and goes downstairs. Then it dawns on them, as they are waking up that the animals are still upstairs. Alex runs up for the ferret, Joey grabs Jabbers the rat- and Maria tries to look for Grabielle the cat, which she thought was in the garage but was actually outside. She got upset thinking something might happen to him out there. I told her he is safe and would be fine! We are all downstairs hearing the siren, waiting to see what would happen next. I guess the dog had to go to the bathroom, and decided to go in the corner which stank up the whole room. Maria starts gagging, trying to pick the mess up. All the boys have their blankets over their nose, as do I and we are all giggling at the ridic