Ponder the Path of Thy Feet.....

This is going to be a random blog where I am sharing, so look out it might be boring 😜. I started working on Tuesday for the first time in more than 12 years. I have had the privilege for the last 12 years to stay home. I am not just working to work though. It is certainly not about the money. God has a purpose. I am not quite sure what the end result will be but we will see. The most amazing thing about where I work, is how I can speak openly and freely about my faith, Jesus, and the bible. I get to help guide people in their walk, marriage, and relationships with products that will be life changing. I get to show people products that will grow them, encourage them and help them learn more about this loving Savior. ( Jesus). Though this adventure is exciting I am nervous, unsure if I am doing the right thing, and wondering what it is God has for me in this place. Whatever it is may be may He be glorified. In the meantime, I will obey and allow Him to lead, try to manage my home, hom...

I decided this summer to start a new bible study- on my own. It is a Beth Moore study- I am in my second week and it is on the life of Paul. So far it has been very good- today’s time in the Word was on the life of Stephen. You know the very first martyr for Christ. Stephen's story in scripture is very short but very powerful. In the end, he was stoned to death and his last words were similar to the last words of Jesus. “Lord do not hold this sin against them.” Forgiving someone is not easy but to ask forgiveness of the very people who are killing you. Do wonder wow- how could he? He could have easily asked for the Lord to vindicate him. To make those people who were stoning him suffer for the pain they were causing him. Instead, he asked for God’s mercy to be upon them and for him to not bring judgment down for what they were doing. Why would Stephen do that? Why would he not ask to live? Why not beg God to stop this and intervene? Stephen realized his life was just a vapor that...

  Photo from CNBC : http://www.cnbc.com/id/100364484 You know what discourages me about pyramid companies. They all say the same things, give health, financial freedom etc etc. I have two life long friend who just started Essante products and that is all I hear about her stuff and company and another is a Plexxus promoter. Sad because I am not thinking the products are bad but like anything else you have to get people to join but not just join,buy... And everyone believes their products are the best. So what is truth?! You can't tell and don't really know because if you are a good sales person you will say yours is, and she will say hers is, but in the end it costs, you have to buy product whether you need it or not. Everyone's product have all these health benefits for you and they are all made naturally. Now one company reminds me of Shaklee ( are they even around anymore) while the other reminds me of Herbalife or some other of the many health company pyrami...

"The more you pray, the more you will become convinced of its power. "- Daily Walk Bible Prayer has been a part of my walk that I have struggled with for a long time. I am not sure why or what happened in my walk with Christ that change that but at some point it did. I don't know what it was or if it was an event or situation. All I know at one time my prayer life was so powerful and so real that at times when I was praying I could feel the presence of God so strongly it was like I was nose to nose with Him. As if I could reach out and touch Him. Now praying is a task, now it feels like a weight. Not something freeing, or even a mutual moment but just something you do.  I guess there is a part of me that wonders why bother, God is God and His Will is His Will and how are my prayers going to change that in anyway. I remember a conversation I had with my husband on this subject who in so many words stated prayer doesn't change God, it is an act. Maybe that's...

 photo from: http://thesalesblog.com/blog/2014/01/25/you-are-manifesting-your-negative-beliefs/ If your behavior does not reflect your beliefs, how valuable are those beliefs? -Daily Walk Bible All to often when you run into people you can not tell where they stand. You have no idea whether they are believers of "The Way". What does that say about those who are believers of Christ? Is it fear that keeps people from manifesting their faith in their lives? Persecution? Or the infamous words "Judgement"? Let's get some things straight first - the Word says you will suffer as I have suffered. Matthew 5:10 "Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." What makes you think you are above suffering persecution in this century?    "For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps."  1 P...

After many months... We got to witness the union.  photo by Sarah B photography photo by Sarah B photography May their lives be filled with Christ! He is only way that can keep a marriage strong. Only His way, His truth and His Love Angie

This weekend we decided to take the kiddos to a corn maze. It was something I had purchased through Groupon. I  so glad we went. Fields of adventures was so fun   Apple Sling    Targets for the apple sling   Going out to the pumpkin patch to pick our pumpkins   In the corn maze daddy answers a question - yes it was educational!       I love making memories. I hope some day they will always say how good things were. Not perfect but good! Thank you Lord for these moments in life. Angie

Forgiveness, one of those things that many do not understand. Many do not understand that forgiveness is a process. One in which a person chooses to forgive someone, and the other  person seeking forgiveness acts in humility with an understanding and desire to be forgiven. Yes there are occasions where we forgive even though a person never sought to be forgiven and that is when we forgive for our own hearts sake. Let's not forget to forgive is not a natural human ability. It is impossible for us to properly forgive without the Love of Christ within us. Through many years of life this very fact has manifested, without Christ I am unable to properly forgive and I have seen in many situations where people can not and will not properly forgive.  Though they declare themselves to be believers, you see within themselves  they do not have the ability to forgive. Forgiveness is a gift from God who gave HIS one and Only Son to forgive us of our sins, so in turn has in dwelled u...

    In so many ways we have seen this statement as truth as we have moved to many places and experienced many different churches. The same epidemic seems to be invading the hearts of believers that makes them think that if they check the box that,"they went to church Sunday morning" makes them a good person. All to often people are content with just showing up to hear a good message Sunday as they live their lives no different than the rest of the world Monday - Saturday. The hardest struggle in this walk with Him is desiring to be like Him and others looking at you thinking you think "you are better than everyone else". No I am no better than you I just believe the Word one and desire to please my Lord two.  I am not content in just going to church... I want people to see Christ within me and in my life. I am not trying to check a box or trying to make people think I am something I am not. Trust me when I say, "there is no greater sinner than me in this world ...

    As we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word.... - all to often we forget that though we have our own will and lives we are to obey the Father who saved us from our sins. Obedience in your walk with Christ manifest as evidence that you shed the old and been renewed in Him. As you look in the mirror what do you see? A soul who is thirsty for Christ or one thirsty for sin.  Live a life in obedience... You will be glad you did. 

    Lately my heart has needed a revival. The pain caused by others, lack of love from the church that we had been fellowshipping at, and loneliness, has left a hole in my heart that can only be filled by Christ. I seek to walk with Him daily. The Daily Walk bible is an incredible tool. It is the first time I desire to read the Word from beginning to end. Other reading plans have not worked. My prayer in 2016 is that I read the Scriptures from cover to cover.   Anyone want to join me? It would be great to have the accountability and someone to chat with over what we read.  Lord awaken my heart to you! Help me to hear your voice, guide me through your truth and revive me within!  Angie

There is a first time for everything so the saying says, right?  One of the beautiful things about PA is the variety of things to do. We have many different things around us and I have always wanted to experience a winery with my beloved. I purchased tickets through Groupon and did not realize that this "tour" was actually a wine tasting tour that was to take place over two weekends and over 16 different wineries. I thought you picked which ones you wanted to go see and experience their winery.  The very first location we landed at  on the last day of the tour,(was not far from our home )was not a winery but more like a wine store. We were greeted by whom we believe was the owner of the facility. Remember we have never done this so we go in having no idea what to do or what to expect. He came up and asked for tickets that we were to be provided by any of the 16 places, in which he was out of. When we told him we didn't have tickets but an electronic voucher he got irritat...

When you are small you pray and hope to have a life full of much love and happiness. Especially with the past I had you hope to have many more days filled with so much happiness to wipe out the pain of the past. You never think in some ways you would relive ( not exactly) the pain of the past. I find myself right back to those of past. Facing the sins of father head on and all the pain that goes with the pain that comes with sexual sin. No the sins that were committed did not affect me directly because the sins were not done to me but the thought of how it has effected my children and myself causes me so much pain. My thoughts to spiral on what could I have done differently and how much I failed.  Now it is affecting every area of my life, my marriage and me. The anger, disgust and lack of love many people will not understand coming from a mother especially coming from a woman who declares herself a lover of Christ. In all of this I see that there is still much work to do and Lord ...

1 May the mind of Christ, my Savior, live in me from day to day, by his love and power controlling all I do and say. 2 May the word of God dwell richly in my heart from hour to hour, so that all may see I triumph only through his power. 3 May the peace of God, my Father, rule my life in everything, that I may be calm to comfort sick and sorrowing. 4 May the love of Jesus fill me as the waters fill the sea. Him exalting, self abasing: this is victory. 5 May His beauty rest upon me  as I seek the lost to win and may they forget the channel seeing only HIM

I have had my share of pain these past two years. Mostly from one person, but there has been others. Serving Christ comes with many sacrifices. Your reputation, your character, your family, your every action is  put under a microscope. People forget that you are no different than they are, just desiring to serve Christ in every way. When you are hurt it makes you wonder what it is all for?! If you are a "true" servant of God. His Word echos in your head of how He suffered.  His character was constantly judged, he was mocked, and crucified. Who are we to think our fate is any different? It doesn't make the pain any less, it doesn't even make the pain go away. But it does give you comfort in knowing that No matter what you face the Lord has experienced it and knows. Now I am in a different phase one of restoration, self examination, and certainly I desire to do it better than I have done before. I know I can't without HIM... I can't be who I need to be witho...

This weekend was crazy. Baby girl  turned 4 on Friday Oct 2nd so we ( Duck and I) spent the day on trying to make her feel like a princess and special since everyone was working. Papa is not around because of work, and Sis just had baby. Around 12- Big brother took her to lunch    Grandma stopped buy with her big present  And Big Sis and her family came over for a birthday dinner celebration. Chicken nuggets and Mac and cheese was the menu and ice cream cake to celebrate. In spite of how I thought the day was going to turn out for her,she  had a great day . Saturday was her big party at Chuck E Cheese. What a day it was! We finished the weekend with breakfast as a family with daddy  All in all the weekend was so full of celebrating the life God gave us! Thank you Lord for your blessings that overflows

It's funny how the sun effects our moods and dispositions. Lately it has been pretty gloomy around here, lots of clouds, cool days and color changes. What is it that I have to be gloomy about? I have my health and my children are healthy. I have freedoms many do not have in other countries and my husband has blessed me with allowing me to stay home and homeschool my children. The enemy has been on full force attack in our family since arriving here in Pa.  I have slowly watched my family go from being united as one to divided, some not speaking to us at all, and others speaking to us but not having anything to do with church or fellowship. It makes you wonder how? And why? Could there been something we could have done to prevent it from happening? Then I ,of course, think about what I have done wrong or what I could have done better. I fear doing it again. I feel so incapable of raising two more kids. Of failing as I have already. My heart could not take another heart break as I ha...

After a long day enjoying my children, soccer and Hershey park. As I showered and cleaned my thoughts randomly land on Paul. His wedding and his brother Joey. I do struggle with understanding Joeys support of his brother. I struggle knowing the dishonor he has bestowed up me and upon my husband and our family, how he can support his ungodliness. Traditionally at a wedding there is a mother son  dance and I wonder what will my son do since he has chosen he does not want us there. Will he really dishonor me so much by dancing with someone else who did not give birth to him. I ask myself that question as if I do not know the answer to that question. He has dishonor we us in every other aspect of this wedding  so he will dishonor me again. But I struggle with understanding how Joey can stand in support of that. It is like a stab to my heart from both of them. It makes me angry and honestly it makes me not want to have anything to do with Joey as well. As I think on Joey I could write a boo...

After a long day enjoying my children, soccer and Hershey park. As I showered and cleaned my thoughts randomly land on Paul. His wedding and his brother Joey. I do struggle with understanding Joeys support of his brother. I struggle knowing the dishonor he has bestowed up me and upon my husband and our family, how he can support his ungodliness. Traditionally at a wedding there is a mother son  dance and I wonder what will my son do since he has chosen he does not want us there. Will he really dishonor me so much by dancing with someone else who did not give birth to him. I ask myself that question as if I do not know the answer to that question. He has dishonor we us in every other aspect of this wedding  so he will dishonor me again. But I struggle with understanding how Joey can stand in support of that. It is like a stab to my heart from both of them. It makes me angry and honestly it makes me not want to have anything to do with Joey as well.  As I think on Joey I co...

As I sit outside on the porch, in the evening hours. I am listening to Babygirl and Duckie play as they lay on a blanket in the yard. In the distance someone is hammering, another person is using a weedeater, birds are singing and there is peace here with me. Though I will share the enemy is present waiting to steal my joy, waiting to bombard my thoughts with the pain I have experienced for the past two years. It never seems to go away, it always seems to be like a lion waiting to engulf me, my thoughts and my moments of joy. To keep myself from getting overwhelmed, from wondering, why? Wondering, how?  could I have done things differently? Wondering why am I being punished for loving too much, and trying to be a good parent? I pull myself back- I listen to the peace that surrounds me. These two sweet souls that laugh with innocence, and I am thankful. Thankful that the Lord deemed me Worthy enough to give me two more children. In spite of myself, my flaws and imperfections. Everythin...