Ponder the Path of Thy Feet.....

Well the weekend was rather unexciting. Sam worked all weekend, which left me here alone. It is hard to get through each day when each day is like a week day instead of a weekend. Paul had to work. He is so good at being a referree. Monday- we started a bible study on Taming the tongue.. it seems like we have all had a problem doing that lately. It is amazing how hurtful words can be. We are studying James 1:19-20 and James 3:1-12 in the Bible in hopes that through the Word we can learn to tame our tongue! So far we have had a peaceful week, but it has just begun. Ask me friday how it went...(haha)

There is nothing like waking up in the morning and hearing your kids fighting first thing. Well that set the pace for the rest of the day. They fought over everything from who is going to what choir to how they were looking at each other. After a night were Noah was up fussing because he had his shots the day before I was not in the mood. So by lunch I was fed up and I told them all so. I got dressed, prepared Noah, took Liberty and left the house. I told them get the choirs done but I was not going to stick around to listen to their madness. I needed the break, the peace! I love my children that is why I homeschool. But I do not desire their treatment not only towards themselves but towards me as well. I often wonder if their ears are open when we do family devotions. This week we were doing Ephesians 5- and not a bit of it was sinking in. It made me just wonder why, why was I doing this every day. When I could be like every other American Mom out there and put my kids in public scho...

I love this photo of Sam and Noah. Sam just woke up and Noah woke up and went right back to sleep! I love how babies can sleep anywhere. Don't you?

2 Corinthians 3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. The God of compassion, something I know at times I do not have enough of. The God of all comfort- do I comfort in all situations? Lord- Thank you for your words that reach me in my darkest most desperates times. Only you Lord can do that. Thank you for using my sister Celina in this time to bring me your word. I know that when I am in these moments I should seek your word but often times I have no idea where to start. Help me Lord to reach for you, to reach for your words to live by those words. Strengthen me Holy Spirit to be the mother, wife and friend you intended me to be. -Amen There are so many changes and uncertainties in our life right now. Samuel's job is very uncertain and he is not happy where he is at. Our des...

I know you are wondering what in the world! Today I started the Richard Simmons excercise tape called disco sweat. It looked so easy. Boy it wasn't! By the time we(Maria,Joey and I) were through the first 15 minutes my legs were burning from the front to the back. The whole time Richard is coaxing you not to give UP. You want to just say SHUT UuuuuuuP. He says you are beautiful and you think yeah right I would not be doing this if I was. As the tape ends and you make it to the cool down you feel like you are about to fall over then comes the stomach crunches. WHAT STOMACH-I have no muscle there and of course Richard continues...1 and 2 and 1 and 2 and keep it up he says...ugh when is this tape going to be done you think, I can not do another thing and he says ok lets stretch to cool down. OH PRAISE THE LORD! You rise slowly feeling great-I did it. Will it be easier tomorrow?

The morning started out well, Noah actually slept from like 10pm till 630 am. Poor baby was so exhausted from the day before. He went back to bed at 8am and slept till 1030 at that point I got up fed him and gave him a bath. That is when it all went down hill. Paul decided to raise his voice at me, Maria jammed a piece of paper in the printer to a point that it is unreachable, and I can not seem to keep it together. What in the world is wrong with me!! Noah is the joy of my life, but I just am not dealing with the big change well. The lack of sleep, trying to master breastfeeding, and schooling seems to be overwhelming me. It is hard because I feel so alone sometimes. I know I have Melissa here but there are parts me that I can not share with her because she just does not understand. I know my purpose is to serve my sister but there are times when I feel like I am being taken advantage of. I do not think she realizes all that I do. She tries to show her appreciation by buying...

Let me preface this by saying that Poor Noah spent the whole night crying and barely sleeping because the doctor changed his formula from a lactose free to a formula that has milk. He cried like he was in pain so I spent most of the night comforting my poor baby. Anyway- we get up for church in what seems like enough time. My half grown children walk around acting as if they have no idea what to do. Having to be told, to brush their teeth, put their shoes on, eat so we can get ready to leave for church. In the meantime-I am still dealing with the baby and trying to get myself dressed.Dad is getting frustrated because everyone seems to have left their brains in bed or just plum did not care. Joey is running around with no shoes worrying about where is soccer jersey was, instead of getting dressed. Alex decided he was not going to eat breakfast this morning, while Paul is trying to get bottles ready for Noah. Sammy is dressed but still had not eaten. At this point the stress level is ris...