I have thought quite often of what this new year might bring for me and my family. I surely did not know in starting 2007- that it would end with me moving to Texas in the beginning of 2008. 2008 was the hardest year for me emotionally, and spiritually. A piece of myself was left in Missouri.
When I moved from PA- it was hard and a double edge sword because I was leaving my mother to be with my sister. It was so bittersweet for me because I love them both dearly. Leaving Missouri- was nothing but heartache. I knew that I had to do whatever for the survival of my family, but it never subsided that pain. Some days were better than others. The times I found joy and peace was when Missy was coming down to see me with the girls or when mom came to see us. Those were the only times I could find peace about being here in Texas. I should be grateful, I know, the children are healthy, we have a roof over our heads and Samuel is able to provide. But peace eludes me, my heart breaks as I try to find what it is the Lord has for me here.
There are times- that I look around me and feel as if I have entered this dark valley- with huge mountains all around me and not a ray of sun can touch me. I am wondering around in this valley, so alone and so scared. I desire to climb one of those mountains to find peace, warmth and purpose again!
Whatever 2009 brings- I pray that it will bring more joy, laughter, and love to all of our lives. I also pray that it will bring each of us closer to the Lord, and closer to your family because in life what else is there??
Love to all of you
Angie
When I moved from PA- it was hard and a double edge sword because I was leaving my mother to be with my sister. It was so bittersweet for me because I love them both dearly. Leaving Missouri- was nothing but heartache. I knew that I had to do whatever for the survival of my family, but it never subsided that pain. Some days were better than others. The times I found joy and peace was when Missy was coming down to see me with the girls or when mom came to see us. Those were the only times I could find peace about being here in Texas. I should be grateful, I know, the children are healthy, we have a roof over our heads and Samuel is able to provide. But peace eludes me, my heart breaks as I try to find what it is the Lord has for me here.
There are times- that I look around me and feel as if I have entered this dark valley- with huge mountains all around me and not a ray of sun can touch me. I am wondering around in this valley, so alone and so scared. I desire to climb one of those mountains to find peace, warmth and purpose again!
Whatever 2009 brings- I pray that it will bring more joy, laughter, and love to all of our lives. I also pray that it will bring each of us closer to the Lord, and closer to your family because in life what else is there??
Love to all of you
Angie
Well, here's a selfish note, I'm sure glad your in Texas, like I said "it's a selfish note". I pray that you find joy where you are and I definitely identify with your feelings. Our purpose is to glorify God, so I pray you will glorify him wherever you are. You have a beautiful family and I've enjoyed all of you so much since you've moved to Texas...I hope your around when we return (another selfish note!)...love you Angie...
ReplyDeleteAngie, remember God has a plan and a purpose for you. Jer. 29:11 He wants to fulfill your every need. Keep seeking Him. Keep spending quiet time with HIM. No matter what comes our way in 2009, if we keep our eyes on Christ we will overcome. God determined the time and place we shall live. (Acts 17:26) He will never leave you. Much love & blessings to you!
ReplyDeleteShonda