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Valleys

Lately I have felt so lonely and alone. Not feeling connected to anyone or anything. Wondering where I am going and what I am doing and why. A valley of darkness seems to surround me and I am slowly trying to lift myself out of it. Reading the word as often as possible and staying busy with the children and their tasks. Still feeling like there is something missing in my life. NOt that I am not happy being a wife, and mother. That job in itself is full time and fullfilling, but there is just this hole, Unexplainable hole that just can not be filled with just anything or anyone. I do not know, maybe it is after having baby blues.

Pray for Noah all of you who read- He is having surgery friday. Being put to sleep and everything. It is not a major surgery, re-circumcision- but it bothers me that he is so little and being put to sleep. :-(

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  1. ChendersonMarch 29, 2007 at 9:43 AM

    I'm sorry to hear that you are having a rough time; I wish I could call you; we don't have sykpe to "call", I"ve tried typing you; but we are missing each other.

    I've missesd alot of class, you can read my blog and see why. I also tried to reply to your blog and it won't accecpt my password, I hope this one goes through.

    Can you email me? I need your address again...

    I'll be praying, sometimes you need to just brake away from bieng busy and do something simple....
    ie., coffee with your husband, sit outside (if weather permits) and just watch people, or at a park. Something that doesn't require anything of you, for a change.

    Baby blues is common, especially a few months out. I love you, your not forgotten, I wish I had a way to talk too you!

    reach me on email....
    love
    Celina

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