As things move forward for our dear Maria- planning a wedding and the thought of finances, slowly doubt, uncertainity enter in. The Lord has blessed us, my beloved provides, but there is no grace for extras. Winters are harsh and hard here in PA. Prices of oil heat make things very difficult. I try to not allow the uncertainty to over come me, and I believe that The Lord will provide, and that I must trust and obey. My sweet girl would stop everything if she knew this fear was there. She did not want a traditional church wedding, with dress, guest, and reception. She said she would have preferred to do it just like me and her dad did. ( of course wisdom with age- brought reason to her heart) I showed her clearly how selfish her daddy and I were by not allowing others to be part of our union, and be blessed by our love. 21 years later I have no regrets in my selfishness by marrying my beloved husband. I just know the hurt we caused his family and mine. The pain is not worth l...