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Trying to keep worry at bay...

As things move forward for our dear Maria-
planning a wedding and the thought of finances, slowly doubt, uncertainity enter in. The Lord has blessed us, my beloved provides, but there is no grace for extras. Winters are harsh and hard here in PA. Prices of oil heat make things very difficult. I try to not allow the uncertainty to over come me, and I believe that The Lord will provide, and that I must trust and obey. 

My sweet girl would stop everything if she knew this fear was there. She did not want a traditional church wedding, with dress, guest, and reception. She said she would have preferred to do it just like me and her dad did. ( of course wisdom with age- brought reason to her heart)  I showed her clearly how selfish her daddy and I were by not allowing others to be part of our union, and be blessed by our love. 21 years later I have no regrets in my selfishness by marrying my beloved husband. I just know the hurt we caused his family and mine. The pain is not worth living with in knowing you caused others to stumble for a very long time. 

As we moved forward... Lord give me strength. I know you are who you say you are and I know you can do far beyond what I can think and imagine. Be with this family. Strengthen my young men as they seek your Will.. Lord show them clearly what that will is. Remove these young women from their lives if they are NOT your will. If they are your will... help me to see the need for you in them, and well as their relationship. Lord forgive me if I have failed in showing the Word to them, and guiding them to righteousness. Lord they are your children. They are your men and only you can speak into them. Lord give me strength to be blessing to all these young ladies. To guide them unto righteousness inspite of how they were raised. Lord only you can bring peace to our Lives, and to peace to my heart. Forgive me for not spending time with you. I need you Heavenly Father... 
In Jesus Name.

Amen

Solo para la gloria de Dios
Angie

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